hi there.i am new to this forum.first of all sorry for the poor english.i have sucked countless of cocks from different nations and races.they were already set up before or at the glory holes.i was not a big fan of anal sex for years.blowjobs and cumshots were my sole obsessions in life and more than enough by means of sex.however some guys asked to try anal sex.i was too timit ,no relaxed ant all,and they were skipping all foreplay,even lubing.they directly tried to enter just with some spit.all of these trials were failure then.these experiences made me have a cold feeet to anal sex for years.actualy one guy was able to enter after a good amount of lubrication period,but he was too rough after that,made me scream and cry.coudlnt handle it more than a minute.that was the only anal experience in my life.i also rejected the ones who asked from then,until now.however,there is this silly fantasy driving me crazy for the last couple months.i want my ass devirginized by a small gangbang group of guys.from 3 to 6 for example.the simple rationale behind that is i would have no chances of rejecting them or surviving my ass from that group of top gangbangers if there is enough crowd to capture me in that room.what do you guys think?is this a silly fantasy or too unrealistic to handle at the first time?any complications can happen?if you think i can handle what should be the right number of guys to start with?what kind of preperations should i make?
p.s'i have found and set 3-4 groups from the internet for this fantasy.i have been chatting and talking them for 2-3 weeks .all are waiting my answer .really scared to try but cant throw away this biggest fantasy of my lifetimefrom my mind.please help and enlighten me with your suggestions.