A man named Bill Wolf introduced me to BDSM, S&M and FF and woud tie me naked to his 4 poster bed, finger my hole
with some crystal meth and use me sexually for a
few hours before his friends would arrive, then
he'd let them have me for a couple of hours.
sometimes 4 or 5 men would have me and the Tina
always made me crave more. Bill would experiment
on me trying new things. Bill offered to collar
and own me but wanted me to stop bareback anal.
when I said I didn't think I couldn't stop even
if I wanted, he said he wanted me castrated to make
me more submissive and obedient. I told him I
could not agree to total castration but would
agree to having one testicle removed. He agreed
and has my right testicle in a jar of vodka on
his trophy shelf. every time I shower, I reach down
to my scrotum and touching my empty sack (the
remaining testicle has shrunk quite small). My
remaining testicle became absorbed into my
abdomen and disappeared, then my scrotum became very
small. My testosterone declined, my tits grew
much larger and I began to feel like a nymphomaniac
who craved cock, cum and wanted to be fucked by every
cock I saw and wanted bareback more than ever.
Bill caught me fucking one of his friends
bareback and punished me after they left. we both realized
I was masochistic when the more I was punished,
the more aroused I became. He would stand on my
cock wearing boots, slap me, fist me, and apply
CBT in various forms. The more he did to me the
more I wanted to experiment and went online
trying to understand my cravings which led me to demonic
and *****ic sites which captured my attention. I
am a born again christian and believe god, *****
and demons are real, and the thought of giving
myself over in sexual ways has gripped my soul
for a long time. One of the dark cravings I usually
don't mention is being fucked by demons and
impregnated with demon seed and used for *****ic
ritual sex. Your alternate screen name brought
that back to mind and I can't get it off my
mind.
I'd be delighted to CRAVE your body and
follow you. I'm already very attracted to the way
you think about cock, cum, seed and breeding men
like me. I like when others are in control of me.
It usually scares me, but some vodka beforehand
usually removes my remaining inhibitions.
