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Why can't I stop barebacking?
gregking replied to Usedbottom's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
I think the universe guided me to this post. I've struggled with this same issue for as long as I can recall. So far, I've *never* given in to the urge but it's like I'm dying inside. Self-suppression and lack of authenticity are the real source of our woes. Unfortunately, even our community wants to pass judgment and make us feel guilty. My friends don't want me on PrEP because I'm single and don't have a monogamous poz partner. That, they argue, is the purpose of the drug, not to give me a license to be a cumslut. (Note that I've only been intimate a few times and I'm 36!) I've been on the edge of accepting this unrealized and strong part of my self. This discussion is the first place I've found others who think it's okay to be me and it's definitely the first time I've considered us to be a necessary part of the symbiosis between tops and bottoms. Maybe this is the first step to believing that my self-worth is inherent and to becoming empowered. I'd really like to chat more with other members who share this difficulty.