JustProwling

When a guy is honest about his POZ status, he's less likely to lie about other things. NO relationship can succeed if there's no trust. At the risk of being blunt, when you're in a relationship, you're not just opening your hole, you're opening your heart and that deeper connection takes sex from fucking to making love. Mr Right just might turn out to be Mr POZ, so you need to follow your heart.

And evilqueerpig, your post DID actually give me a little food for thought, so thanks for that! You too, bttm2go!

To ALL: I still welcome any and all feedback, so please post something if anyone has any similar or other thoughts!

So what have decided to do?

Sorry for the delay in response! Just haven't been online in a few days. I decided not to be too preemptive and go ahead and start making poz guys possibilities. As far as taking poz loads, I think I'll just cross that bridge if we ever get to it. Basically, I'll still purposely seek neg loads, but I'll include poz guys for dating and then just discuss details with the guy when it comes up. But I'll definitely start looking at poz guys differently from now on!

How can you stick to only neg guys? They might lie, they might be poz and not know it. They might have been recently infected (and that's when they are more infective, since their immune system still hasn't mounted the defenses to decrease the number of virus in the bloodstream). Your best chance is to stick with undetect poz guys that you know are on meds

Hey HungLatinDom, I hear exactly what you say loud and clear...and you're 100% right. I'm not that naive to it all, trust that. Perhaps I should've been more clear...my main "issue" is about KNOWINGLY and WILLINGLY getting with poz. Outside of JUST fucking and being a pig, it's more about dating and relationships. It's a hard line to cross and I do NOT want to stop being bred...which goes back to the "issue" of a) fucking poz, but compromising with rubbers, fucking poz and CONTINUING to get bred, regardless, or c) just swearing off poz completely and ONLY seek neg.

Again, I don't want to stop getting bred and I also don't want to limit dating/relationship/fuck options...and so forth and so on. I always have and will continue to ask pertinent questions about current status, last test date, activity since last test, etc...which is why it's a hard bridge to cross as to KNOWINGLY/WILLINGLY deal with poz guys or not...if that makes sense. This is why I'm seeking thoughts and feedback from all sources.

Aside from some solo play with random objects when I was younger. I can honestly say I've only had 1 condomed dick in my hole, my entire life (I'm 29 now). I DO have a small dilemma lately tho. 1) Lately, I've been purposely getting fucked by more guys and am neg and not a bug chaser...I just crave more dicks and loads in my guts. 2) I've gotten into the habit of rejecting guys who don't fuck raw. 3) My personal dilemma is this: At what point does REAL dating/relationships become more important than JUST another random raw dick??? I ask because I went on a date with a poz guy and everything went good. So now it's hard to come to terms with a) considering dating other poz guys and using condoms if I'm not purposely trying to get pozzed up, date poz guys and CONTINUE getting fucked raw (if a deeper connection develops), or c) swear off poz guys entirely and ONLY stick to neg if I want to continue taking non-toxic loads.

I really can't imagine NOT being bred, but I ALSO don't want to limit my options and turn down poz tops that might be a good dating/relationship connection. Basically, when all the raunch and piggyness is over, at what point do you consider DEEPER connections? (no pun intended)

Does anyone have any other specific thoughts about any of this???

I got my latest load just last night around 10 pm. A guy I'd been with just once before hit me up to use my ass, on Thursday night, but the short notice didn't work out. He said he hadn't cum for an entire week and thought of me. So he purposely held off cumming and we made the plan to hook up for Friday night after I got off work, even though he said it was torture for him. The thought remained fresh in both our minds, so we definitely made it happen. I got off work, came home to prepare, and went over to his place. We had a very hot makeout session and ended up in 69 while I sucked him to a hard-on and he ate me out DEEP. I ended up on my stomach while he climbed on top and slowly worked his thick 8 inch cock in my hole. He was forceful, but gentle, since he knew I had to be broken in...he had me sniff some poppers to help me open up to him. He eventually got in balls deep and kept calling me HIS "baby", while he long-stroked my ass. It got me hornier when he actively whispered how he was gonna knock his baby up. Long story short, I begged for his load and he made sure to bury his dick balls-deep and unloaded 7 days worth of cum right in my guts. I felt him trying to pull out a few seconds after cumming, but I made sure he stayed inside til he got soft and just naturally plopped out. And of course I cleaned him off, ass-to-mouth.

Made a small clip of some of his cum oozing from my used hole, but I don't think I can upload a vid on here.

So I'm posting this mostly for myself, but I fully welcome feedback and other words of encouragement. I recently exchanged numbers and email with a guy in New York, that I've chatted with online for a couple of years now. This is a little experiment I decided to try...basically we tell each other of our encounters and encourage one another to try to one-up the other and keep it fresh in our minds that we need to actively try to get bred and seeded. Finding dick and fucking isn't really a problem for me, but the fact of the matter is that I'm picky and not an active bug-chaser...hence the dilemma.

With that said, I'm 28 and have been into bareback even before I lost my virginity. The 1st time I was fucked (at 21), it was raw and I made sure to get the seed in me. I've actively pursued getting bred since and I'm proud (or not so proud, depending on how you want to look at it) to say that I've only taken 1 rubbered dick my entire life and it will NEVER happen again.

Back to the experiment: I'm trying to open up more and be less picky/discriminatory about the dicks I take. I'm trying to focus more on being more of a slut and increasing the number of guys and loads I get knocked up by/with. Nasty pigs online keep encouraging me to get bred more, start taking poz loads, and so forth and so on. Exchanging numbers with this guy, I mentioned above, helps encourage me to act more on impulse and think with my hole, rather than my brain. This is why I'm making this post here as well...in order for other guys to help egg me on, keep it in my mind, encourage me to be more of a cum dump, etc. Every choice I make is mine, alone, of course...and I'm simply looking for encouragement and more pushing to the goal of having my more-inhibited-than-not hole used and seeded. Again, while I think I can call myself a TRUE barebacker, I want and NEED to take more cum in my guts, so I can be proud to call myself a cum dump!

I'd love your feedback, comments, suggestions, questions, etc.

So far I've only gotten about 5 loads from 4 different guys. I'm working on being more of a slut and taking more loads though...it's a work in progress.

My last load was Friday night (10-22-10). Met this hot lookin 41 y/o athletic/musc white genuine TOP guy on BBRT and then talked to him more on A4A. It's kinda funny, because he messaged my ASS on BBRT, but I messaged him with "normal" pics on A4A, and he had no clue until I told him both profiles were me, AFTER he fucked me.

Online, I mentioned I might smoke a little pot...he doesn't smoke or anything, but said he wanted to fuck me while I was high, so he encouraged me to get stoned before meeting. Long story short, I drove to his house, a few miles from me. We gave a quick overview of each other and he asked if he was okay. I just said, "Oh yeah!". He led me to his bedroom and we actually ended up being fully turned on by each other, so a quick pump n dump turned into a VERY nice makeout session. Eventually, he had me take some poppers to enhance my high and got me face down. He climbed on top and got his dick in me really slow and gentle, but was still aggressive and "in charge" about it. So he fucked me some and told me he was gonna make a baby in my ass, so of course I encouraged him to get his sperm in there. I had to work early the next morning, which is why we just intended it to be a quick blow n go, but everything felt so good that both of us dragged it out for a bit longer.

Needless to say, he DEFINITELY tried to make a baby in my ass, this past Friday night , and I ended up driving home with cum-slick hole and ass-cheeks and a cum-stain in my shorts from where I sat.