Wow, those are some incredible stories. While I respect anyone's decision to be pozzed if that is what they really want, I would highly encourage you to do a "test run" first and make sure this is what you really want. Once pozzed, it is incrediblly permanent. And as someone mentioned, the medical bills are no joke. Neither are the side effects of some of those meds. I would go to a doctor, say you've been exposed accidentally and ask for PeP (Post-exposure prophylaxis). These are the same meds you would be taking for life if you test positive. Take these meds for a month and see how you tolerate it and how harsh the side effects are for you. Maybe join an online support group for HIV + people or talk to someone who has been living with it for a long period of time to give you an idea of the day-to-day. Not trying to be judgemental or influence personal decisions, but I definitely think it's important to get the full picture before you make such a life-altering choice. Best of luck!