TheBreeder

To see Breeder's original blog post click here Yes, I made it home safely. My trip down to Virginia and back over the last week took a lot out of me. The drive is long, for one thing. (Though it's more bearable when it gets broken up by encounters such as the one I wrote about yesterday.) Plus, when I'm there, my dad puts me to work. I labored in his yard for three days straight, cutting down trees, trimming hedges, planting annuals, fixing the shutters on his house . . . that's me, the all-around general handyman. My dad's punishing work schedule and the fact I was bone-tired a lot of the time didn't leave me much opportunity to hook up with anyone while I was there. Though I had my chances. I went out one night to one of the bars in town and met a few friendly guys—thank you, men of Barcode! And then there were the online opportunities. Two in particular surprised me. One was from a former college roommate. During the year and a quarter we roomed together, we went from friends to enemies when he started to read details of my sexual exploits in the notebook journals I kept hidden in my desk. (This is where I learned not to record sex in a notebook. Put it online for everyone to see!) I was popular, slutty, and out of the room a lot; he was deeply closeted, in denial, conservatively religious like you couldn't believe, and rarely emerged from the dorm except for classes and meals. We stopped talking after he attacked me one night and told me I was interfering with his 'personal relationship with Jesus.' Shortly after that, I moved out. I'd discovered several years ago that he'd gotten up the courage to come out to his family as gay and had abandoned his religious roots in favor of an eastern religion. When I was home last week, though, he sent my (faceless) Adam4Adam profile a message that read, "Hey! Smokin' hot pics!" When I saw that familiar face, I just laughed. I wrote him a short note of thanks, but didn't offer to follow up with any action . . . tempting as it might have been to show up and see how he responded. I've had a difficult time letting go of our animosity, although it's been twenty-five years. All it took was a little inadvertent flirtation to drive the final nail in the coffin of that old grudge. The other Adam4Adam response was from my college boyfriend—basically the first guy I ever had sex with who wasn't at least fifteen years older than I. The two of us would slip away from our roommates and find places on campus to have sex; we knew the location of every classroom with a locking door on the entire campus. There was a sofa in the economics department lounge that was so soaked with our sweat and juices that I still pity any of the students who sat on it while legitimately studying there. He had his issues, though. For one thing, he was so afraid that anyone on campus who saw us together would automatically assume we were lovers, that he made me walk twenty feet behind him whenever we went anywhere. There he'd be, galumphing along, and I'd be racing behind to keep up before I lost him altogether. Well, eventually I tired of that and broke up with him, which started a cycle of him drunk-dialing me every three months to rant and rave about how we were destined to be together forever and that I couldn't deny that he was my one true love. Which was something I could deny pretty easily, actually. He'd been lousy in bed. And there he was on Adam4Adam, looking just as tall and ungainly as ever, though gray and clearly older, messaging me with, "Hey stud, nice dick. Wanna ram it in me?" That one was easy enough to ignore. I certainly didn't want to reignite the drunk dialing again. But jeez. It's like I said to my friends on Twitter—all I really needed was a free space and a former priest hitting on me and I could call out A4A bingo. The best part of my travels, though, came from my readers. I received so many emails and comments from readers while I was on the road. One of my readers even offered me a place to stay on my return trip—an offer that I took, thank you very much. It was great to hear from my blog buddies and to hear from new people during a week when I felt very much like I was shut off from the world and buried in my dad's garden. So for all of you who commented, or texted, or sent me emails and photos and pics, or who hit me up on Twitter . . . a special thanks to you. You're what makes keeping this blog a pleasure. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here He stood in front of the Taco Bell with his hands stuffed deep into the pockets of his baggy khakis. They were pants so faded and worn that I could almost see his knuckles through the threadbare pockets; the legs were two inches too long, so that the hems had dragged upon his heels and been trodden away until there was little left but hanging threads. He wore a plain white T-shirt, with its V-neck stretched and pulled out of shape. My first impression was that he looked everything like his photos—blond, blue-eyed, impossibly young, and even more impossibly pretty for a town of gas stations in the middle of Nowhere, Pennsylvania. My second impression was that he looked nothing like his photo. The angle at which he’d taken the pictures he’d sent had obscured his body, leaving me with the impression that he’d be short and slight. The kid was short, that much was for sure. He couldn’t have been more than five-six. Slight, no. Beneath that much-worn T was a broad frame of steel and muscle—the buffed-up, worked-out body of a Madison Avenue ad campaign. The perfect test tube concoction of youth, masculinity, and roaring hormones. I sat in my car for a moment and watched him as he pulled out his hands and balled one up. When he nervously ground it into the other palm, his chest flexed slightly and his biceps rippled. I hadn’t expected him to be built. I unfolded myself slowly from the car. Slowly, because I’d been driving for nearly nine hours at that point. He didn’t recognize me until I approached him. My own hands were stuffed in the pockets of my jacket. “Hey kid,” I said. He feigned indifference, but his slightest movements told me how nervous he was. His eyes darted away from, and then back to mine. Back and forth, back and forth. “Hey,” he said at last, swinging his arms back and forth. “You haven’t been waiting long?” “Five minutes. About that,” he said. In his email the night before he’d told me he lived only a mile from this exit, and from the road I’d called him only shortly before to let him know I was near. He looked me up and down, nodding. No one was around. In a soft voice, though, he asked, “So. You still gonna bareback me?” “Yes.” I maintained my gaze even as he avoided mine. “Cool, cool,” he said. “You still want it bare, right?” Again he nodded. The briefest, most economical of head jerks. When I didn’t respond, he cleared his throat. “Yeah. I want it. It’s just. . . .” He looked away again. “First time you’ve played raw,” I said for him. He thrust his hands in his pocket and looked up at me through those blue eyes, affirming it. He didn’t drop the tough act, but he looked almost shy. Vulnerable, even. It made my dick hard. “So where’re we going to do this?” I asked. When he jerked his head for me to follow, I watched as he sauntered over to a battered red Ford truck parked nearby. I climbed back into my own car and together we pulled out of the Taco Bell parking lot and onto the road where trucks and cars roared off the turnpike on their way to other places. I’d placed a Craigslist ad for this region of Pennsylvania the afternoon before my driving trip to Virginia. I’d gotten about 36 responses in total. Though I thought I’d worded the ad fairly clearly, in the great tradition of Craigslist, apparently I erred. I’d stated that I would be driving through the county on April 23 and would be available around dinnertime for some play before I drove on; roughly half the people responding to my ad thought I’d been looking either for immediate sex, or that I’d be available on May 11 when they commuted through town for the South Central Pennsylvania Butter Worker’s Convention or some such idiocy. I’d said I was looking to top raw and fuck a load in a hole, and roughly a third of the responses I got began with some variation of “Hey I don’t do anal but if you want to meet. . . .” I concluded my ad with the words, “Only responses with clear photos will receive my reply,” and a mere eight of the people who wrote me included photos. Only one of the respondents who’d sent a photo and asked if I could give him his first barebacking got my response, though. I followed him away from the oasis of truck stops and Subways and burger joints, down a two-lane road that wound through family restaurants, and then past houses, and finally past nothing but trees. For five minutes we drove until he came to an old car repair shop, long shuttered and closed. A sign resting against the dusty garage doors reflected an ancient and almost inconceivably low price for unleaded. Around the back of the filling station we drove onto a gravel-covered clearing. His tail lights flared red as he pulled to a stop. He jerked his head for me to follow him into the woods. The air was chillier beneath the trees with their fresh leaves, than it had been back in the sun-baked asphalt of the truck stop oasis. It smelled greener, though. And it was quiet. I couldn’t even hear the turnpike that had to lie over the rise to the north. I followed him into the wood along a path that was little more than a wandering line of trampled leaves. We reached a tree that had fallen over sometime in the winter, and he stopped. Abruptly he sat down on the trunk, and swung his legs like a little boy. “This okay?” he said. I nodded. "Cool." Without a word or a signal from me, he kicked off his sneakers. Then he hopped up onto his sock-covered feet and with both hands, skimmed off the ratty white T. Beneath the cotton was a porn star’s body. I barely had a chance to admire the curves of his arms, the firm roundness of his shoulders, or the glory of his chest because he unbuttoned his khakis, stepped out of them, and tossed them onto the ground without even bothering to see where they fell. In his white socks and white Hanes he looked like a go-go boy at a gay bar. The remainder of his clothes didn’t stay on for long. When he kicked out his legs to grab and shuck off the socks, the thick blond hair on his legs glinted. He then hooked his thumbs in the waistband of his pants and yanked them down to the ground. Without my even asking, he’d completely stripped naked. No self-consciousness, no doubts, no hesitations. Just me and the woods and his naked shelf and his boner, a five-inch thick stub of uncut flesh. It throbbed. He rubbed his hand around his jawline, up his sideburns, and into his hair, watching me stare “So am I good enough?” he asked at last. I nodded again. Oh yes. He was more than good enough. “What do you want?” he asked. I swallowed hard and cocked my head, then rubbed my hand across my stiff dick, which had raised a ridge along my right leg. “Oh, I know how to suck,” he assured me as he dropped to his knees. The ground underneath us was soft enough for him to kneel. His fingers reached out and undid the button of my jeans. He briefly grabbed my dick through the material of my shorts; his finger tickled around the wet spot that had already soaked through. Then they joined the mess of denim around my calves. His mouth opened. “Fuck!” he said, before thrusting his head onto my meat. He hadn’t lied. He knew how to suck. I didn’t know who’d taught him or where he’d practiced, but he wasn’t hesitant or inexperienced. Within an instant he had me harder than hard and gasping. “It’s better than the pictures.” I didn’t say anything. I just wove my fingers through his hair and pulled him onto my dick, setting the pace for him. Nice and easy, not as quickly or as frantic as he wanted and needed. His hands ran up and my legs. He played with my ass, then my balls. His eyes were closed as he sucked. I don’t remember how long I let him work on me. It seemed like a very long time. I didn’t want him to stop. I still had another five hours to go on my trip, however, and I couldn’t linger for too long. “You like my dick?” He made a noise. I yanked his mouth off my meat. “I said, do you like my dick?” “God yes.” A thin line of spit connected us for a moment. It snapped and splashed him by the eye. “Yes. Let me suck your dick. Let me suck you off.” “My load is going in your ass, runt.” One of my blog readers had used that word in an email to me the week before. I liked the sound of it. Runt. He liked it too. He stared at me from the ground with my dick the only obstacle between us. “Are you really going to bareback me?” I raised my eyebrows. He knew the answer to that question. I didn’t have to respond. “How do you want it?” he asked. I gestured for him to stand up. He followed my command and turned around until he was propping himself up on the tree trunks, his meaty hands firmly clutching the bark. “You cleaned out?” I asked. “Yes,” he assured me. He wasn’t lying. When I knelt down, the cleft of his butt smelled of Dove soap, as if he’d scrubbed it red moments before he’d left to meet me at the Taco Bell. He didn’t say a word when I licked and sucked at his hole, but when I spat on it and rubbed a finger against the raised pucker s, he hissed. The kid was so fucking young, I realized right then. His skin was so soft. So pink. The flesh was tight and rigid. His hole seemed to radiate heat. I continued licking at and fingering it while I added my own spit to what remained of his on my own dick. Then I stood up and went in, slow. He seemed almost prepared for it to hurt. I think we were both surprised when it slid in without much resistance. “Is it in?” he asked, almost in a panicked voice. For a moment I thought he was going to try to struggle away, to undo what had already been done. “Are you in me bareback?” “Oh, I’m barebacking you,” I told him. His hands scrabbled back. His fingers clawed at his ass. I thought he was pulling at the cheeks in order to help me get deeper, but no. He wanted to feel it for himself. His fingers touched mine as I helped him feel my rigid rod slide in and out. He let out a cry from his chest, once it sunk in that what he’d craved, what he’d probably dreamt about for however long he’d been getting his little ass used, was really happening. It was the kind of moan a man makes shortly before he bursts into tears, but instead of weeping, he sighed deeply. “Shit, yes.” He relaxed into the fuck. His cheek rested against the bark as he thrust his ass up and into the air. The kid didn’t seem to care that the mark it made might linger. “You like it, runt?” I asked him. His ass tightened at the question. “You like my big bare dick in that little hole?” “I wanna come with you, dude,” he said. His fingers worked furiously at his little dick. “I wanna fuckin’ come when you do.” “I’m not coming yet,” I told him. Gradually I ramped up the speed of my fuck, taking pleasure in the sensations of his ass, eventually thrusting so deeply his whole beefy body shuddered from every slam. His hole was open wider than I thought possible—though it was true he’d told me he’d been fucked before, but not barebacked. He didn’t even seem to noticed that I was pretty basically pulling all the way out and plunging back in again. I might not have been coming, but he was. I barely noticed it at first, as he was so quiet about it. I knew it was happening when his legs buckled, though, and he almost jerked himself off my dick. Thick ropes of white cum landed on the leaves between his legs. I shoved myself back in and held my dick inside as deep as I could as his ass clutched at me. Not until he stopped shooting did I resume my rhythm. He wasn’t enjoying the fuck as much now that he’d cum. It didn’t matter, though. I did. He didn’t object as I fucked harder. He rested his forehead on his forearm and took it, with his eyes closed and his butt still lifted to meet my thrusts. “Breed me,” he whispered, as I picked up the pace. “Fuckin’ breed me. Fill my boycunt. I want my first sperm load.” “You want it?” I asked, pushing in and out faster. “I want it,” he told me. “I want my first breeding. Give it to me.” “What’re you going to do with it?” I asked him. “I don’t want you pushing it out when I drive on my way.” “I’m keepin’ it,” he said. His voice echoed hollowly against the tree trunk. “I’m gonna keep that sperm in my all day and all night if I can. I want your sperm. Please give it to me.” On and on he talked, asking for my sperm as I fucked. I’d wanted to hold back, to enjoy his young ass the way it was meant to be enjoyed, but it was tough. I knew I was close when my dick began to buzz as if it had been a struck tuning fork. Seconds later, I caught a harsh breath and began to unload in the runt’s hole. “Fuck yes!” he groaned. “I want it! I’ve wanted your sperm! Give me—!” He was shooting again, I noted with surprise. The amount of fluid wasn’t nearly as much as the first time he’d shot, but it was still enough to make a thick splat onto the already wet leaves between his feet. His back arched forward, and he gasped and rolled his hips. My dick immediately began to slide out. He was done. He kept his word, though. The runt clenched his butt cheeks together and sat down on the tree trunk, panting. I hadn’t taken off a stitch of clothing. All I had to do was pull my pants over my still-hard dick and fasten them. He sat there totally naked and watched me. Once again I saw the shy look in his eye when he asked, “Was I okay?” “Oh yeah,” I said, grinning at him. “I was good enough?” It was a serious question. He wasn’t merely fishing for compliments. I wanted to hug the kid right then, but I thought he might take it as condescension. I knew that someone in his life had to have told him that he wasn’t good enough at some point. Someone had to have. It was as plain and naked as he. I wanted to assure him that whoever that had been was a fool, and best forgotten. That he should get out of Nowhere and get the hell away from whomever it was, fucking with his head. It was too big a liberty to take, though. “Hey,” I said, staring him in the eyes to make sure he knew I meant it. “You are more than good enough. For anyone.” He paused for a second, then nodded. His arms crossed over his chest, and he spread his legs so that his softening dick hung between them. “Okay. You would know. I guess.” As he had been a few moments ago when he’d expelled me from his ass, I could tell he was done. “See ya,” he said. “See ya,” I repeated. Then I thrust my hands in my pockets and left by the path by which I’d come in. I saw him emerge from the woods a few minutes later, after I’d checked my phone and pulled my car around on the little gravel lot. He was dressed, and scuffing his feet in the dirt. He stopped at the sight of my car. When I pulled around the abandoned filling station, he stood there in the cloud of dust he’d kicked up, then raised his hand and held it in the air. He wasn’t waving, but letting me go with his unspoken thanks. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here I'll still be on the road today, arriving back in Michigan from my trip to visit my dad. Today I'll recap a few more questions I've received on formspring.me. My regular postings should resume tomorrow (unless I'm whipped). Thanks for bearing with me during my absence! If you have any questions you'd like to ask, feel free to use the formspring.me widget on the right side of my page, or email me directly. I love talking to my readers. And fucking them. For a hot fuck, how much is a bottom's skill and how much is anatomy? A hot fuck requires two people (at minimum). The top's just as much responsible as the bottom for creating the heat and passion that results in a truly hot fuck. That said, I've been with a few bottoms who have mad skills and crazy-hungry holes that always seem to get an extra load from my nuts that I didn't know I had in me. Skill definitely plays a part in that, and practice makes perfect. If anyone needs some practice.... What type of undies do you wear most often? I go commando a lot. When I wear undies, I tend to like square-cut trunks, or sometimes boxer briefs. My size is small, if you want to send me some! If you replied to an ad such as on craigslist for an anonymous fuck and walked in but discovered you knew the bottom from work or elsewhere, what would you do? This situation has happened to me with a teaching colleague. I fucked the hell out of him. At my previous job I ran into someone I worked with when I was at a bathhouse. I fucked the hell out of him and sucked his dick. Where is the most public place you have fucked a guy or came close to being seen by others without trying? In an old teaching job, I once got head from a guy who was sitting under my desk while my office door was wide open to the hallway and I pretended to work. Actual fucking, though? It'd probably be any of the restrooms or rest stops where I've hooked up with guys, or perhaps the dance floors of a couple of Canadian gay bars. Besides the sex, what's the gayest thing about you? My sorry weakness for Swedish and British pop music. You may have answered something along these lines, but what are your feelings about using restraints during sex? As long as I'm not required to own all manner of elaborate restraints, I'm all for them. I think it's sexy when a man hands his trust to me and lets me take away his freedoms. I would like to find a bottom who will truss me up and then service me with his ass and mouth without me having any control, as well. That's about the one fantasy I've had that I've never tried. On a scale of 1 to 10, how much do you like to control what goes in and out of your bottom's hole? When I'm with a bottom, I like to have as much control as possible over his hole. I get to dictate what toys I use on him, when and how much dick he takes, and if other guys are present, whose dick he works on. If I'm involved with a bottom and am apart from him, he gets to pick who's fucking him and who's not. In general, I like my boys to be slutty when they're away from me. Having read Happy Hole (which was very hot to read, and well written), I noticed you debunked the myth that all fisters ... prefer to be call 'Sir' in the off hours. How about occasionally? I cannot deny that a nicely-timed 'Sir' makes my dick swell. A well-timed 'Dad' makes it swell and lengthen visibly, though. What is the sickest thing you've done? Of the ones to which I'll admit on this forum, they'd have to include the time (alluded to in my blog) I met a guy into humiliation in a Sears public restroom, where I tied him to the stall toilet seat with his necktie, pissed on him, and left him to escape on his own. (He loved it. He wanted a repeat for years. Some inspired moments can never be matched again.) The most disturbing person I had sex with was a preacher when I was young who liked to fuck me on his church's altar, complete with blasphemous talk. He liked me to shoot my loads in his Bible, too. I thought it was kind of eye-rolling silliness even in my teens, and found it a little weird that it was the only way he could get off. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here Today's the day I'll be leaving my dad's place and returning home to Michigan. Since I'll be on the road all day today and tomorrow, I'll be answering some reader questions from formspring.me. In your blog, are all the pics of you? In one entry I took photographs of an issue of Honcho. I am not a magazine, nor am I any of the models who appear in its pages, in that one entry. All the other photos are of me, yes. I hope you like them. What is your idea of great foreplay? Let me tell you what my idea of bad foreplay is, first. Bad foreplay is when I arrive at a guy's place and all he wants to do is drop his pants and have me shove it in. I've done it before and I'll do it again, but I crave a little more intimacy than that. I love to make out. I'm a great kisser. When I find a guy who kisses well and passionately, I'm in heaven. I am very much into guys who are into sucking and biting nipples, licking and sucking any part of my body, and who love to rim and (especially) get rimmed. My appetite for foreplay is never sated, even after fucking. I really like a guy who'll touch me. My neck and back love the feel of soothing hands on them. Stroke me and I'll purr like a tomcat. Do you shave down there? And do you like your dicks shaved, trimmed, or hairy? I trim. I shave my balls when I remember and usually keep my bush cut fairly short. It's blond hair, so there never really looks like there's a lot down there anyway. (Except on my nuts. That gets pretty gnarly if I don't shave.) I like a pair of hairy nuts plopped in my mouth. I also like to look on a nice smooth pair. I'm pretty easy, really. I noticed that, of late (in your blog) that many of your hookups come self-lubed. Do you have a lube that works best for you? What's up with the self-lubing, the last couple of weeks? Bottoms, it's exciting to find that you're so hot to be fucked that you've self-lubed, but not for guys like me who love to pig out and munch on a hole. Let me do the work of getting you primed! I'm not picky about lubes, so long as it washes off easily, doesn't have a lingering perfumey smell, and isn't so viscous that it distracts from or interferes with the sex at hand. I haven't yet found a brand that's won my loyalty and devotion. If anyone wants to send samples my way, I'm fine with that. True trivia: I've never bought any lube in my life. Every bottle I have (and I have a few big ones) has been left behind at my place by bottoms who either forgot it, or left it behind so it could be used at future meetings with me. For a prospective bottom, do you prefer a shaved butt hole? You know how some people, when they've met a total stranger for the first time, will remark when he walks away, "He really had the prettiest blue eyes?" I'm one of those people who doesn't notice eye color as a matter of course. I couldn't tell you what color were the eyes of any of my friends. In a similar way, I don't really notice if a man has a hairy or shaved butt hole. I like 'em both. If the guy had hair long enough to braid hanging from his hole, I might not want to go face-diving down there, but I haven't encountered it yet. Thank god. I am top. Borderline troll. What's your advice for me to get action in a bath house? Everyone goes to the bathhouses to have fun. We're all there with the same goal. Getting sex once you're inside is about advertising your strengths. As a top, your strength would be a hard dick that's ready to be shoved in some hungry hole. Show off the assets. You know how bottoms at the baths will turn the lights down low in their rooms and like there with their butt up in the air? You can do that too. Get a private room, turn the lights down, open the door so that some of the light from the hallway shines in, and sit there with your dick in that light. Get it hard. Stroke it. When men pass, it'll be the first thing they see. You'll get some horny guys wanting dick in no time. Show it off in the steamroom. If the baths have a dark room or gloryhole, take it there. My personal style is to let the cocksuckers and bottoms come to me, rather than to chase them Nothing puts guys off in the baths more than the notion they're being stalked. If you find an attractive guy and he doesn't seem interested, don't follow him around and hope he'll change his mind. You'll probably drive him into hiding. Be cool, and laid-back, and the sex will happen. Have you seen 1000 load fuck? It's an ultimate cum fantasy of mine! Ever though about mailing one of your lucky fans a vial of your seed? Yes, I have that movie--one of my favorites in the last year, in fact. I've sent guys articles of clothing coated with my seed before, but never a vial of it. Why stop at one lucky fan, though? More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here (While I'm visiting my dad, I'm posting some older journal entries for today and tomorrow. What follows is an old journal entry from 2003 that's continued from yesterday.) I don’t know why meeting David had mortified me. I can hazard a few guesses, but my perspective has changed so greatly over the last two decades any one of them would be difficult to explain. All the sex I’d had in the five years before, by and large, had been with men older than myself. I’d been used, photographed, banged, passed around, and never really felt any shame when it happened. When David walked into that house, however, and appeared in the bedroom door, it was the first time my slutting around had been laid bare for someone my own age. My life had been neatly compartmentalized to that point. I had my friends and peers, and I had the collection of men I’d slept with. I might be friendly with the men fucking me, but they weren’t my friends. Likewise, my friends didn’t fuck me. David frightened me, I think, by being my peer, wanting to be my friend, and wanting so obviously to enjoy sex with me. It was too much for me to handle. From what I recall, I went back to my dorm room that afternoon and hid. As it grew darker, I badly wanted to go down to Crim Dell and meet him, but every time I imagined him there, waiting in the campus’s most picturesque and romantic spot, my stomach churned with fear. I pictured him leaning against the fence overlooking the duck pond, its Japanese bridge framing his impatient silhouette. I pictured him looking at his watch and waiting for me. I also pictured myself showing up and not finding him there, and returning to my dormitory disappointed and shaking. I stayed in that night. I didn’t go down to meet him. Ten o’clock came and went and I remained curled up in the corner of my room where my bed met the wall. Midnight passed, and one, then two. I didn’t fall asleep until nearly dawn. When I look at David’s photograph in my old college yearbooks, he appears slightly cross-eyed. That puzzles me; the expression was nothing like the David I knew. I could see his approach on campus after that from far away—the red of his hair allowed me to spot him long before I could make out his features.. When I could, I’d duck down some byway or gravel path and avoid him. When I couldn’t, our eyes would lock as we passed. If he was in the middle of a conversation with a friend, he would stop talking so that he could stare at me as I walked by. When I looked over my shoulder, I would see him craning his neck to gaze after me. I yearned for David all that year, but never said a word to him. His attention mortified me, but not as much as the knowledge that I had stood him up that autumn evening. By my sophomore year, I was involved in the theatre department and co-starring in a two-person drama written by one of the more talented student playwrights. It was part of an evening of one-act plays. David turned out to be in one of the other productions. Our paths, however, didn’t cross until the night we ran technical rehearsals on all three plays. While we waited for our turns, we sat ten feet apart. Though we pretended not to be noticing each other, he was all I could think about. I feared him getting up and speaking to me. I worried he still wanted an apology for never meeting him. He watched me from the corners of his eyes the entire time. When I was onstage for my play during the performances, standing at attention in a soldier’s role, eyes straight ahead, I could see him standing above the bleachers of spectators in the walkway that ran around the room’s edge. He stood there, watching no one but me, for every performance. And then he would disappear. During David’s last semester on campus we shared a class in seventeenth-century poetry together. He sat in the row ahead of me, one seat over, next to his friend Shana from the theatre department. Every Tuesday and Thursday we would both go through an elaborate charade in which we’d pretend not to know the other existed. He would swivel in his chair and pretend to look out the window, even while his eyes would sidle in my direction. I would flush a deep, deep crimson and pretend I was listening to our short, frizzle-haired female professor. He would talk loudly about going up to New York on his spring break and visiting a gay bar. His friend Shana would hush him, worried that someone might overhear. He’d meant for me to overhear, however. Maybe he’d thought I’d forgotten how I knew him. How could I forget, though? Whenever David was around, he was I could think about. My skin seemed to blush, warm, and grow tight in his presence, like a grape swollen to bursting in the afternoon sun. If he turned suddenly in his seat, I would flinch as if I’d been struck. Toward the end of the semester he appeared in our class carrying a single white rose. It lay next to his notebook throughout the lecture, but from time to time he would pick it up with his soft, small hands and hold the bud to his nose. Twice he turned around in my direction and let his eyes flick to mine as he held the rose on his lips, casually, offhandedly, as if bored with the lecture and having a private muse on some other topic. I nearly had a stroke. At the end of the class he turned to Shana. “This is for you, sweetie,” he told her. She beamed and took it. They left the seminar room together. David very deliberately scanned my direction to see if I watched, yet refused to meet my eyes. I just wanted to slink back to my room and hide. The day of the final exam, David was in a giddy, playful mood. He toyed with Shana’s hair and cracked jokes I couldn’t hear. Shortly before the professor walked in, he grabbed a mug of water she’d brought with her, walked over the window, and fished something out of his pocket. While Shana protested, he poured the water over the something and brought it back to where they sat. “I found this in the river,” he said. “See how beautiful it is when it’s wet?” Shana didn’t seem overly impressed, but she agreed with him and hushed him so the professor could begin her lecture. The course had been tremendously difficult for me, and of course I’d never been able to concentrate during the lectures. I was pulling nothing but Cs on my papers and tests, and the only way I’d been able to tackle the final exam had been to memorize vast quantities of the professor’s favorite poems and to regurgitate them back into the blue book. I was the only sophomore in what was a senior-level class. I was also one of the last people to hand in his test booklet and leave the classroom. I walked down the arched hallway and down the stairs and through the front door of the Tucker building and out into the sweet Virginia sunshine, relishing mingling sensations of apprehension at my performance and relief at the class’ completion. I felt a touch on my arm. David had been leaning against the old brick wall of the entrance, waiting for me. He barely looked at me as he pressed something into my hand. “Had we but world enough, and time,” he said. I was still so surprised that I could barely comprehend him, but I did note how stiff he sounded. It was as if he had practiced his line thoroughly, but barely had the courage to speak it. Before I could reply, he sprinted down the steps without a word more. When I opened my hand, I saw that he had given me the stone he’d earlier shown Shana. It was dry and still warm from his hand, and it was plain and ugly. I never saw him again. I was angry with him for that moment for months. The line was from Andrew Marvell’s “To His Coy Mistress,” a poem we had studied in class. Every negative interpretation I could attach to the quotation and his dubious gift, I attached. Mentally I railed at him for suggesting I’d been my Jamestown road friend’s whore. I resented David for thinking me coy and calculating, rather than merely frightened to death of him. I thought he had given me a stone as a booby prize—it was the rock in Charlie Brown’s trick-or-treat bag, or a representation of how hard he thought my heart. I kept the stone, though. I buried it in a Godiva chocolate tin from the 1950s that had belonged to my father and where I kept other small treasures. I didn’t look at it again until a year later, however, when I found out that David was dead. He had moved to his beloved New York right after his graduation in 1983; the obituary I ran across in my father’s alumni newspaper said he’d died of complications related to pneumonia—probably a euphemism, I realized even then. David was most likely the first man I knew to die from AIDS-related infections. David's stone was still there in the Godiva tin, smooth and round and a speckled, anonymous grey. It wasn’t until after I learned of his death that I thought to put it under water. It came alive then with layers of rosy pink and deep, chocolate browns. Flecks on its surface reflected light back at me. It really was a beautiful thing to behold. When David comes to mind these days, it’s always with a sense of loss—both the loss of his life and the loss of my missed opportunities. Certain things remind me of him. A certain shade of red hair. Light blue eyes the color of the sky. A particular tilt of the head, or an aroused hiss of breath. A white rose. Every couple of years I take my Godiva tin and dig to its bottom where sits a plain, round, undistinguished stone—the kind of pebble I might kick out of my way if it rested on the sidewalk. I let the water run over it, and I admire its colors. Its rose-colored strata endure and never change, unlike youth or shame or even fear. And I wonder not so much why I feared David, or why we never really spoke or touched again, but how I should ever have thought that he could give me a gift that wasn’t truly beautiful. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here (While I'm visiting my dad, I'm posting some older journal entries so that you won't miss me. What follows is an old journal entry from 2003.) “Don’t get up,” he told me. I was already pulling on a shirt, panicked at the sound of the back door opening at the other side of the condo. It was the first time I’d been in a man’s bed and heard someone unexpected enter his home. “Someone’s coming,” I said, panicked. Was it a lover? A wife? A policeman? “Seriously. Don’t get dressed,” said my friend. After twenty-two years, I’ve forgotten his name. He was one of those alumni of the college who never seemed to leave Williamsburg after graduation, loving the little city so much that he’d stayed there for twenty years. Although he worked in Richmond and spent large portions of each month in the D.C. area, his home was townhouse on Jamestown Road. His advice came too late, though. I’d already pulled on my t-shirt. When I heard steps at the top of the staircase, I pulled the hem of my shirt over my erection. “You didn’t have to do that. It’s just my buddy David. He’s picking up some stuff. You know David?” It was 1981. I was seventeen and in my first month as a freshman. I barely knew anyone who wasn’t on my dorm hallway. I certainly didn’t know the older kid standing in front of me. David had hair in a shade of light copper, like a penny new from the press; the skin of his lightly muscled arms was pink and creamy. He wore a grey t-shirt with the sleeves cut-off, jeans, and tennis shoes. “I didn’t know you had someone here,” he said. The apology was honest. I could tell how uncomfortable he had been, seeing me. “That’s okay. Let me get your stuff.” The man stood. His penis was still dripping semen from the tip as he ambled off downstairs. “I’m David,” said the redhead. He stared at me with eyes of the most intense blue hue I've ever seen. I introduced myself, frightened to move. My t-shirt was covering my still-raging, unsatisfied erection, but any movement would reveal it. I wasn’t entirely stupid. I knew it was obvious what we’d been doing, but I kept hoping for some less embarrassing solution to the situation. “Are you a student?” he asked. When I didn’t answer, he put a hand to his chest. “I’m a junior.” “Freshman,” I admitted. David looked at the staircase just outside the bedroom, and hesitated. Then he took a step closer. “You’re so beautiful,” he whispered. His hand trembled as he reached out to touch my cheek. The stroke’s arc took him to the neck of my shirt. He rested his fingers on it and paused, waiting for me to protest. I did not. He lifted the t-shirt up and over my erection. I was unsatisfied and still hard, despite the fright. The sensation of his skin’s warmth along my neck made my cock even harder. When it popped out from under the cloth, unrestrained at last, he drew in his breath sharply, surprised at my size. It sounded as if he was hissing. Those blue eyes regarded my cock for a few seconds before he caught my gaze once more and cupped me under the chin. “I wish I had a boyfriend like you,” he whispered to me, his voice barely audible. “Meet me tonight.” My heart pounded in my chest so hard that my sight seemed to dim. I wish I could explain the way of my thoughts, twenty-two years ago. These days I would’ve said, “Sure!” My seventeen-year old self, however, I could only wish myself gone, away from the embarrassment of that situation, gone from David’s blue eyes and from my friend’s bed. He must have seen the conflict in my face. “Just meet me tonight. Promise. Ten o’clock, Crim Dell. I’ll wait for you. I just want to talk.” The condo’s owner started back up the stairs. “He used to fuck me too,” he whispered. “Ten o’clock?” “Here you go.” Our friend held out a plastic grocery bag. I don’t think I ever actually saw what it contained, but from the way it hung, my impression was that it held some clothing. David had taken a step back, away from me. My cock was back under the t-shirt. The man yawned and launched himself back into bed, not bothering to cover up. “Want to stick around?” he asked David. “Boy’s got a prime mouth.” The red-head looked at me and shook his head. “I have to do things. Later.” “Come here,” said the man, grabbing at my shirt. I felt the stitching protest at the seams as he pulled me back and guided me down on him. I performed automatically after that, though, wondering how soon was soon enough to make an excuse to leave and hike the mile back to campus, but not too soon so that I wouldn’t run into David on the way out. (Part II will appear tomorrow.) More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here (While I'm visiting my dad, I'm posting some older journal entries so that you won't miss me. What follows is an old journal entry from 2007.) “My little brother,” the guy named Tom used to call out as he dragged me across the closed-off street in front of the Hibbs Building, my neck snared in his rigid embrace. He didn’t know any of the students lounging beneath the trees or sitting on the concrete benches waiting for their next classes to start, or who’d bought sandwiches from the cafeteria on the building’s second floor and were trying to relax in the still-warm afternoon heat. “This is my little brother, everybody. Look!” He just yelled out for the silly joy of it, hauling me around in the meaty crook of his arm, making me trip and stumble to keep up. We didn’t look like brothers at all. I was lean and narrow and fair, and he was dark-haired, short and brawny, a jock in his prime, one hundred percent pure Italian. He didn’t care how different we looked. Occasionally he’d ruffle my hair with his knuckles, or stop to plant an exaggerated smack of a kiss on my forehead—exactly the sort of thing a playful older brother might have done to embarrass his shy younger sibling. I think he did it for the pleasure of seeing me blush. I never failed him. Whenever I think of Tom, I picture him wearing one of his red shirts. Primary red—not one of the lesser, adulterated shades. He wore a red polo shirt the day I met him, one of the thirty students sitting somewhere in the middle and back of one of my father’s seminars. When I was fifteen and starting the tenth grade, my parents sat down to look at the high school’s graduation requirements and reasoned out that the only thing keeping me from skipping the eleventh grade and graduating in three years would be a single credit each in English and social studies. The former I could take care of in summer school; the latter I made up by auditing one of my dad’s introductory seminars in American History for a semester. I was miserable my first day in that class—obviously younger and more out of place than the other students, and worried about having to participate at their level. Then Tom, who was sitting next to me, turned during the break, leaned his arms on the scratched wooden surface of my classroom desk, and spoke before I could sneak out and hide somewhere. “What’s your deal?” he wanted to know. “You a kid genius or something? Graduating college at thirteen?” I flushed furiously and said no, I was taking the class for high school credit, and that I was older than thirteen. “Cool,” he said, nodding. Tom was a junior at the time, I found out later; he was already twenty-two. It was tough for me to look at him, he was so attractive and masculine. His eyes were dark and his hair was shaggy and long like mine, but hours playing sports and lifting weights had turned him into one of those athletes whose attentions I’d avoided at school, for fear of taunting and maybe even possible beatings. He bulged in every place imaginable, where I was stick-thin. I thought that if I said too much, I'd betray exactly what I was. Having him so close made me unable to meet his gaze, like a dog wary of a possibly hostile presence suddenly invading its space. “So why this class?” I blushed even more and admitted that the professor was my father, expecting the conversation to end with a flash of scorn and brief enough small talk for him to make a getaway. “Okay,” he finally said. Then, unexpectedly, he laid one hand on the back of my chair and the other on the front of the writing desk, and pulled it a couple of inches closer. “You can be my little brother this semester. I’ll look out for you. All right? How's that sound? Cool?” “All right,” I replied automatically, out of politeness and a lack of anything contradictory to say. I already had one brother, much older than Tom, whom I'd come to depend upon. I wasn't seeing much of Mikey that year. I liked being protected, and it felt good that Tom being so friendly. “All right,” he repeated. “Let’s go get a Coke, then.” Being Tom’s little brother apparently consisted of twice weekly accompanying him to the classroom building snack bar during the two-hour class’s ten-minute break. He’d buy a cellophane-wrapped packet of Lance crackers there, or a Slim Jim, or a orange drink in an ice-filled Styrofoam cup, half of which he’d usually share with me, though I’d protest I had my own pocket money for snacks. Then he’d suggest we get some fresh air. Out in the quadrangle in front of the building, he’d act as if he’d been released from some sort of cage. His massive chest would expand as he took a breath of deep air, and then he’d become silly. “C’mere, kid!” he’d bellow, and then I’d find all hundred pounds of myself snatched up and bench-pressed over his head, as easily as if I were a rag doll. Or he’d sling me over his shoulders and jog around, laughing, like some kind of frat prank. His easy physicality always came as a shock. There would be long moments between finding myself lifted up and spun around and the laughter that eventually came . . . but it always did come, in the end. After classes, in the long minutes in which my dad would fend questions from the students who crowded around the lectern, Tom would take me outside, where he'd sit down with me while I waited. He’d ask me questions about my life. What I studied in school. What subjects I liked best. What TV shows I watched. Or, “So, do you like girls?” He’d crack his knuckles over that one, or watch me slyly while I’d color and fumble for words. “It’s cool,” he’d say, when I’d stammer out something. “You don’t have to answer if you don't want.” Of course I liked girls, I finally managed to say. “You have a girlfriend then, huh?” he asked. Because I thought I ought, rather than because I wanted to, I made up a romantic interest. Her alleged name was Beth. I’d known her since third grade. We just hadn’t done anything because . . . because she was Catholic. “Oh yeah,” he said, nodding with the wisdom of seven more years. “Those Catholic girls are the worst.” Then my father would come out of the building, blindly peering around to find me in the haze of students. Tom would stand up, puff out his chest and gather his bag of books, and cuff me around the neck. “See you later, little buddy,” he’d call out, before striding off. Tom wore a red T-shirt the day he asked my dad if it would be okay if I went to the library with him for a couple of hours after class, early in the semester. “He can be like, a real college student. If that’s cool with you,” he told him. My father didn’t mind; he was thrilled that I was socializing with another classmate. So once a week Tom and I would take off to the newly-built library and find a brightly-lit, quiet corner with a table we’d share. He’d pull out his books and study for a while, pulling faces whenever someone would invade our solitude, or asking me whispered questions about that week’s reading or lecture. Eventually he’d get restless and playful. Sometimes he would tear a sheet of paper from his spiral notebook and fold it into a triangular wedge so that we could flick it back and forth, playing an impromptu game of tabletop football. Sometimes we’d skip the library altogether. Tom would take me to the student gymnasium, where he’d show me the basketball courts and the locker rooms where I’d avoid looking at the guys in the steamy showers. He showed me how he lifted weights and where he swam laps. Sometimes he’d join in a game of hacky sack outside the gym entrance, dancing and pulling faces as he attempted with the others to keep the little footbag in motion, showing off his moves for his little brother. One afternoon we were walking to the library together after class he stopped outside the building’s entrance, hands on his hips. I watched him bite his lip for a moment. Then he studied me. “So,” he said. “How about we go to my place?” “Okay,” I said, automatically, because I’d never disagreed with any of his suggestions. “Yeah?” he asked, not betraying any emotion. “You wanna?” I thought about it, this time. “Yeah,” I said. I really wanted to. The campus didn’t have much in the way of dormitories, then. Tom lived a few blocks away in a townhouse divided up into student rooms. His own little home was in the basement, with only a panel of window at the top admitting light. “So this is it,” he said, throwing down his bag and letting the battered door close. The room was neater than I expected, but that could have been because there was so little in it. Some free weights sat on the floor in the corner. He had a crate full of LPs acting as his night stand, next to a mattress and box springs that sat on the floor. The week’s laundry sat packed into a basket by the door. “I don’t have much in the way of chairs,” he apologized, flopping down on the bed. His legs sprawled off the side. He kicked off his sneakers. I watched them land beneath the window well. “That’s okay,” I mumbled. When he patted the mattress, telling me to sit down beside him, I obeyed. My own feet remained firmly on the floor; my elbows rested on my knees while I waited for what I hoped would come next. He sat up, too, so that my back wasn’t to him. “You’re not really into girls, are you?” he asked, his voice husky and soft. His fingertips softly swiped my cheek as he brushed my long hair away from my face. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t want to tell the truth, nor did I want to lie to him. Tom absently rubbed his biceps, exposed thanks to the red shirt from which he’d hacked off the sleeves, and nodded. “It’s cool, little brother,” he said, patting my back. After a moment, the pat turned into a rub, long and slow, up and down the outline of my spine. Then I felt something soft on my neck—his lips, softly planting a kiss there. Then another, just below my ear. Acknowledging what he was doing, I reached out and put my hand on his knee, barely a butterfly’s touch. He rested his own hand atop mine, and after a moment, pulled it up his thigh to the denim covering his crotch. I felt nothing but heat there, heat so intense it felt like I’d raised my palm to an uncovered oven burner. “It’s cool," he whispered. "Don't worry. It's only if you want to.” I looked at him, square in the eyes, while he brushed away more long, blond straggling hair from mine. And then slowly, gently, I helped him take off his red shirt. More...

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To see Breeder's original blog post click here One of my blog readers bought me a silicon teardrop cock ring from my Stockroom.com wishlist. I've got to admit the thing is highly erotic. It made jacking off a distinct pleasure. The sturdy shelf that reaches down from the base of my nuts provides some additional stimulation that made my orgasm pretty damned powerful; it felt like I was shooting in slow motion. The links that follow are for two short video clips I took while wearing it for the first time. I opened an Xtube account so I could share them with you guys. Enjoy! Link One: Stroking with the Teardrop Link Two: Half an Orgasm with the Teardrop (I was having difficulties grabbing my camera phone and turning it on, for the first half!) More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here You know, when I started this blog, I didn't intend much out of it. At the very least I thought I'd have a private place to share my current and past sexual experiences—something I very much needed, because sex is a pretty big part of my life and I enjoy writing about it. What I didn't expect was the sheer amount of support and kindness I'd get from total strangers. The comments you guys have made on my entries and the emails you've sent have been fantastic. I hadn't expected to make friends from this enterprise, but I have, and I continue to. Even someone I had previously known and admired who turned out to read my blog opened up to me in an unexpected and touching way when I wrote about him. New friends are amazing things. So thank you very much, all of you, most sincerely. Now the semi-bad new: for the next seven days I'm going to be visiting my dad in central Virginia. My elderly dad, I have to explain right up front, lives in some Luddite fantasyland in which he has no internet connection, no WiFi, and an actual Betamax machine sitting on top of his television. While I'm there I'll have my iPhone with me for checking email and Twitter and for attempting to make a few hookups, but for the most part it'll be me, him, and forty channels of basic cable. And I can't make blog entries from an iPhone. Trust me. I've tried. Fear not, however. I've lined up a solid week of stuff for every day I'm absent. You'll be getting three sexy old journal entries you won't have read before, a day of dirty photos, and answers to all the questions you've ever wanted to know about me—or some of them, anyway. It'll almost be like I haven't left at all. As a special bonus, check back after 3:00 this afternoon for a bonus post in which I show off photos and short videos of me stroking and shooting with a new cock ring. Feel free to reach out and give me a sanity check with comments and emails. I'll respond to each and every one. I promise. I'd especially love some emails today while I'm making the fourteen-hour drive from Michigan to Virginia. It'll break up the monotony of the road. (The dirtier the better!) And again, if there's anyone in central Virginia looking for some fun over the weekend, hit me up. I'll probably have several days worth of sperm churning in my nuts. You probably won't notice that I'm even gone, but I'll see you guys when I get back! More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here I call him Whore. That’s what he likes to be called, preferably while I push his face down in the pillow, or as I grab a handful of his hair and yank his neck back to scowl at him. “You’re a whore, aren’t you?” I’ll growl the words in his ear, just so I can feel his muscles slacken. His resistance lessens, and I’ll drive myself into him deeper. Finally he agrees. He is a whore, yes, he is, and that’s how he deserves to be treated. Whore looks remarkably like actor Charlie Sheen. When he first sent his photo to me, months ago, I thought to myself, That looks like a naked Charlie Sheen leaning on a giant back hoe. He followed it up with another, and I thought, If Charlie Sheen were to be prone on a giant yellow back hoe with his butt in the air, that’s how he’d look. Even now that I’ve known him for a while, I still have out-of-context Charlie Sheen moments. If Charlie Sheen were wearing nothing but a dog collar and kneeling on the floor with my boot on his neck, that’s exactly what he might look like. If I screwed Charlie Sheen, I bet he’d bang his feet on the wall over his head just like this! In the past he’s tried to shock me with stories of how many men have had him in a weekend, a day, a single night. But I’ve been down that road myself and could match him story for story, exploit for exploit. So when we meet now we get right to business. Most nights I’ll show up to his brick duplex and by the sole light on the front porch see him through the window, sitting naked in his living room, surrounded by the antiques he inherited from his late mother, waiting for me, already hard. I’ll step inside, letting the sound of my zipper speak for me. On the edge of a baroque Victorian chair he’ll kneel while I straddle and enter him. “Whore,” I’ll whisper at last. He’ll have been waiting for that word. It’s a challenge to him. The more I repeat it, the harder he’ll meet me, thrust for thrust. Last week he greeted me at the door in a silk bathrobe with a Japanese print. Boy, I thought. If Charlie Sheen were ever to do a movie where he greeted someone at the door in a really faggy-looking bathrobe, he’d look exactly like this! “Let’s take it to the bedroom this time,” he told me. The Whore’s not a romantic. The moment we reached his bedroom at the very back of the house’s first floor, just beyond the living room, he dropped his robe and bent over the bed, playing with his hairy crack and teasing his hole open with the tips of his fingers. “Take it,” he moaned. I kicked off my boots. I unbuttoned my shirt, letting every release pop in the darkness before my fingers moved down to the next. I unfastened my belt, and let it jingle for a moment before the buckle crashed against the floor. My jeans slid down, over and off my feet. I wasn’t wearing anything underneath. Before I kissed him, before I spoke a word, I swung back my arm and then let my palm crash against his right cheek. He stifled his cry of pain and surprise. “Don’t pretend you didn’t like that . . . whore.” “I did,” he whimpered. “I did. Please.” I shoved myself in him right then and there, growling at him and barking orders that he was only too glad to obey. When I came minutes later, it sounded as if I was in pain; I shook and shuddered. “Don’t pull out yet,” he begged me. With some awkwardness we maneuvered ourselves onto his high bed, me on my back while he clutched onto me with his ass muscles. “Please stay in?” he begged. “I’m still hard, whore,” I told him. “Go for it.” He rode up and down, quivering with pleasure as I talked dirty to him and twisted his nipples. I only lasted a couple of minutes before I felt the urge to take over once more. I put him onto his knees and drove into him again and again. “Yes!” he yelled. “Yes! Yes!” I heard the front door open right then. I stopped. “Crap, is that your tenant?” I asked him. “Sheeeeeee-it,” he groaned. We listened to the voices outside for a moment. The guy who rents a room from Whore had brought at least one other person home with him; it sounded more like two or three. From the sounds we heard, I could picture them taking off their coats and settling down on the living room furniture to have a talk. “I’ll make some drinks,” one of them said. “What’re you guys having?” We were all of ten feet away. Whore got up and closed the bedroom door. “Maybe I should go,” I told him. My clothes were in a pile on the floor, by his dresser. “Nuh-uh,” he told me, pushing me back down. “This is my house. They’re guests in it. We do what I want.” “Yeah, but. . . .” “You not man enough to finish what you started?” “Can you be quiet?” I asked. “Sure.” It started quietly enough, anyway. Once again I climbed on top of him and started thrusting, running my hands over his chest. Soon I was heaving closer and closer to a second orgasm. “Deeper,” he whispered. Then more loudly, “Deeper!” Then finally, “Fuckin’ BANG ME!” he yelled. “COME ON MAN, GET OFF LOAD NUMBER TWO! ARE YOU A BITCH OR A STUD? WELL? ARE YOU A PANSY-ASS BITCH OR A FUCKING STALLION, STUD?” It was too late to keep quiet at that point. “You’re the bitch, you fuckin’ hungry whore!” I yelled back. “Come on, fuckin’ take it!” “YEAH, FUCKER!” Right then he rolled over on me, so that I was on my back, still inside him, while he was lying face up, furiously wailing away on his erect cock. “YEAH! YEAH!” he screamed. His body began to convulse at the same time as mine. Both of us were yelling and gasping when suddenly his load flew over his shoulder and splashed me in the face. From the living room—silence. Then a spate of furious talking. “Wow,” he said, panting. “No shit,” I answered. I got dressed and tried to do something about getting my floppy hair to lay flat, but it was no use. Even in the darkness, I could see in the mirror I had that just-rolled-out-of-bed look. “I guess there’s no other way out?” I asked him. “Nope.” The Whore pulled on his bathrobe again. “Don’t sweat it. The roommate knows I’m popular.” That’s quite a euphemism. Popular. It had to be done. I opened up the bedroom door, grinning to myself when silence fell in the living room just beyond. Five men sat on living room furniture, staring at me. How bad can this be? I asked myself. I should have felt dirty, but I didn't. After all, they were the ones sitting on the chairs and sofas I'd had sex on many a time. “Evening,” I told them, nodding and smiling at them all as if we all were indulging in the polite fiction they hadn’t heard anything. I didn’t look back over my shoulder until I heard someone call after me. “Thanks for making me walk funny, top stud.” The five pairs of eyes that had been staring at me suddenly swiveled to my friend in his bedroom doorway, propping himself in the frame with both hands. “Take it easy, whore,” I called back, right as I let myself out. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here There’s a particular kind of exasperating online bottom whom I recognize as the sort who never intends to get naked with me. He never intends to meet. In fact, he never intends to leave the safe warm glow of his computer monitor, but wants to sit there until the end of time, whacking off and asking tops this question within the first three sentences of conversation: Do you know any other top guys you can whore me out to? My answer to this not-so-rare breed of men is usually polite and couched in as soft and reconciliatory a form as possible, keeping in mind my experience that these guys never show up and never want to do anything but masturbate to their fantasy of being a bad boy to multiple men. And my carefully-worded answer is thus: NO. Then I pretty much stop talking to them. Here’s my thing about bottoms who want more than one top. Number one: do you know how very difficult it is to find another top in some cities? If a top guy asked me to find multiple bottoms for a party I could swing a bottle of lube and knock over a dozen volunteers without even opening my eyes. Tops though, are in pretty short supply. Number two: even if I did find a couple of other guys willing to top, do you know how hard it is to coordinate a time when they can all show up? Number three: do you know how many will flake out? My sorry little preface is all because contrary to what I just said, Monday I went to my third gangbang in a week. All three had one bottom and multiple tops. So maybe I’m just a big ol’ crab who doesn’t like to throw parties. I only went to the Motel 6 gangbang, Monday afternoon, because I very much like the top who was throwing it. Phil is a lean, tall top—leaner and taller even than I—with a bald head and a dark red goatee that makes him look like a mean fucker. He’s a hell of a nice guy, though. A good kisser. Friendly. And when he hosts a party, I go if I can and contribute a load or two to his pet bottom for the day. He enjoys watching me fuck, I get to pump out a load, and the bottom gets a load in his hole. It’s a networking thing. It’s all about networking. I didn’t have much time this afternoon to play—and frankly, after two gangbangs last week I really wasn’t in the mood for another big group. I’d been craving some tender one-on-one sex for days, and my Scruffy hasn’t been available. The impersonality of a group just wasn’t satisfying-sounding for me. However, like I said: networking. So I went right at the party’s start, knocking on the Motel 6 door precisely at three o’clock in the afternoon. Phil opened the door and smile. He was naked save for a yellow jockstrap and a pair of boots. “Well hey,” he said. “Right on time.” He closed the door quickly behind me so that the men working on the dumpster directly across couldn’t see. “Usually it’s the best for last. This time I guess we got the best for first,” he said to the bottom. I looked across the room. On the bed was a good-looking guy wearing a blindfold. His hair was crispy and spiky from gel, and he knelt on the bed with his butt in the air already. On the bed beside him lay a number of toys—a couple of dildos, a butt plug, a leather paddle. A tub of lube and a squirt bottle sat on the bedside table. Phil had brought his portable sling and set it up in the middle of the hotel room. It was quite the setup. “Got you a real big dick for the first one,” said Phil to the bottom. “Turn around and get him hard.” I unbuttoned and unzipped my jeans and let the bottom get to work. I didn’t know his name. I couldn’t tell much about him other than he had a fairly good body and appeared to be in his mid to late thirties. He sucked me to hardness in a matter of seconds, though. “Now I’m gonna rim your pretty ass,” growled Phil into my ear. He shoved me over. It was kind of tough to find a position in which I could feed the bottom my dick while giving Phil access to my hole, but at last we all compromised on me leaning over the bottom’s shoulders and back while he continued to suck, and Phil prying apart my ass so he could spit on it and probe it with his tongue. 3:05. I slapped some lube on my dick and turned the bottom around so I could fuck him. Phil reached out and guided my dick in. I was still in my pants and shoes when I knelt on the bed to ease forward; Phil yanked off my Chucks and then removed my pants and shorts and placed them all in a neat pile in the corner. When I started fucking, he went back into rimming position and drove me absolutely crazy by licking and sucking at my hole and nuts while I slid in and out of the bottom soft, smooth butt. 3:12. I pulled the bottom up to his knees at the bed’s edge, so I could give Phil the show he really wanted. He likes to throw these parties for the up-close-and-personal porn. The more up close and more personal, the better. When Phil saw me standing up and slow-dicking the bottom from behind, he shouted, “Oh yeah!” and threw himself down onto the motel room’s carpet. He settled his head on the box springs and stared up between our legs, watching me slide in and out of that ass from only inches away. I took long, slow strokes so he could see every inch gliding; I took tiny stabs so that just the head popped in and out of that outer ring. I ground my hips from side to side. Every conceivable motion I could have used to fuck that hole, I employed, all so Phil could enjoy. “Gimme a taste,” Phil begged. The bottom had only moaned softly the entire time. I don’t know whether he was under orders to remain silent, or whether he was just in a dick-induced haze. I let my dick flop out; the tip struck Phil on the nose. Greedily he gobbled it down and sucked off the bottom’s ass juices before he shoved the tip back into the hole. For a few minutes more I alternated between the bottom’s butt and Phil’s hungry mouth. 3:20. Phil had to get up to answer a knock at the door; in walked Jeremy, a reed-thin black kid I’d fucked before. “Good to see you,” I said, nodding at him. Jeremy blinked a few times as he walked past to find a place to undress. Phil didn’t even greet the guy. He was too busy closing the door and rushing back to lie down and watch me finish. 3.24. While Jeremy stroked his monster dick to hardness, Phil licked at my nuts until I felt the old familiar feeling beginning to churn in my nuts. My breathing hastened; my pace quickened. I didn’t have an earth-shaking orgasm, but it was nice and sweet and doubly tingly from the mouth still playing around my balls. I emptied deep inside the bottom and remained there for a moment. I could feel my load, the bottom’s first for the day, oozing out around my dick and down my sac, where Phil was ready to receive it. “C’mon,” Phil said, urging me to pull out. “Give me what I want. You know what I want. It’s all I ask.” Phil likes to rim a load out after it’s been deposited. That’s his price for admission to these things. He’ll pay for the hotel and the lube and order the extra towels and bring the sling and the toys and set up and tear down. All he asks is that the guys shoot their loads in his bottom and allow him to clean them out with his mouth and tongue. Who am I to argue with that? “You taste so fucking good inside him,” Phil said to me. His words were muffled by the fact that his face was firmly planted in his bottom’s hole. “So fucking good.” Like a baby sucking at a mother’s nipple, he moved his face back and forth, back and forth, nursing out all the seed. I ran my hand over his head and breathed heavily until he was done. 3:27. While I was putting on my clothes, the fuck bus let off its passengers, apparently. Jeremy was fucking when Phil answered the door, and four guys walked in. Mikey was one. I’d fucked one of the others, but didn’t know the other two. They hadn’t actually driven together. It was just coincidence that they’d all arrived at the exact same time. “You gotta leave already?” Mikey asked. “You missed your brother’s performance,” Phil said to him. He’s another of the ones who knows about Mikey and me. As did all the other men in the room, after that statement. Phil slapped me on the ass and went to watch Jeremy fucking. I’d done my duty for the day. “I’ve got to go,” I told him, giving him a peck on the cheek. “I missed it?” He sounded put out. I gestured to the three men already naked, and the three others in various stages of undress. “I think you’ll have plenty to keep you occupied.” Sometimes Mikey acts like he’s my junior. “But I don’t know any of these guys,” he growled at me, trying to keep it quiet. I clapped him on the shoulder before I left. “Networking, Mikey,” I told him. “It’s all about networking.” More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here The boy was cute. I would have put him at twenty-one or twenty-two. Old enough, that is, to be legally consuming the mug of beer he clutched in his hands. His hair was dark and shaggy and was patted down in a carefully negligent swoop that covered the entire of his forehead. The smallest, downiest patch of fuzz adorned the tip of chin, as if he’d dipped it into the magnetic particles of a Wooly Willy child’s toy. His eyes were wide, clear, and blue. From where I sat in the smoky bar’s booth, my long legs sprawled out over the bench, I noticed those eyes looking at me, over and over again. Every time they met mine, they skittered away like timid mice. I wasn’t afraid to stare at him outright. So I got to see the shy dance of his own gaze as it danced around the room, followed by the magnetic return to me before it dashed away again. He was a little like the current American Idol contestant Tim Urban, this kid, save for a little slighter and not quite as wholesome. Then there were his forearms, the undersides of which appeared smudged. I thought at first that perhaps he’d laid his arms on a dirty table and they’d come away grimy, but the more he raised his mug of beer to his pretty little lips, the plainer it became that he’d had both armed tattooed in an elaborate script. I was convinced for a while it was some erudite saying in a fancy font. He saw me looking, and out of defense crossed his arms over the Atari logo T-shirt he wore beneath his ragged plaid shirt. The position only gave me a better view of those arms.Then when I saw the diacriticals, I realized that he’d gotten his arms covered in High Elvish. The kid was some kind of Lord of the Rings fanboy, and had actually picked out an Elvish quotation and had it inked onto his skin. The scrappy chin fuzz, the Atari shirt, the total geeky fanboyishness of the tattoos—well, it gave me a total mental hard-on. And it wasn’t as if I was imagining that the kid was staring at me. I had his full attention most of the time, even in those moments when he was studiously avoiding looking my way. We were in a crowded suburban bar packed with drinkers and couples eating dinner and smokers having their last hurrah with smoking indoors before the Michigan smoking ban goes into effect next month. It was a straight bar, a sports bar, and the sort of place where the fanciest thing on the menu was the ‘Swanky Frankie’—a hot dog wrapped in bacon and deep-fried. I had a night away from home and was surrounded by a bunch of friends. He was at a crowded table of guys and girls his own age, all of them drinking and whooping and eating the free popcorn with both hands. It definitely wasn’t the kind of place where you pick up guys. We had eye-fucked each other for over a half hour when finally I excused myself from the table and stood up. I stretched. When I found him—surprise, surprise—staring at me after my public yawn and extension, I let him have half a sheepish grin. Then I made my way to the men’s room. The bar’s restrooms were at the back. A half-drunk slattern exited the women’s room, making its hinge protest with a high-pitched creak when she leaned too heavily on the door on her way out. She stumbled by, unsteady on her feet, as she gave me the up-and-down. I slipped into the men’s room and stood at one of the two urinals. It wasn’t too long before I heard the restroom door open with a slow, tentative push. I didn’t even look around. I just listened to his soft footsteps as with uncertainty he walked in, pretended to check his hair in the mirror, and coughed. Then, after a pause that seemed eternal, he sidled over to the urinal next to mine, and unzipped. I’d started to grow hard the moment I knew it was him. I turned my head slightly, enough to know that he was looking over at me. When I knew I had his attention, I took a step back. My cock was plainly visible, jutting from the fly of my jeans. I stroked it in my right hand and cupping my balls with my left. I like showing off my dick to strange guys. Know they’re getting an eyeful turns me on. Seeing the hungry look on his face, the unconscious working of his lips as he listened to whatever inner monologue he had of lust and need, simply made me all the harder. A bead of precum bulged from my slit as I turned to him. He angled his body toward mine, too. His dick was only half-hard, and not large at all, but it was hooded and shaved and clutched so hard between his trembling fingers that it was turning purple. I turned a little more in his direction and thrust out my hips and cock. “Touch it,” I ordered him in a whisper. His fingers were still shaking as he obeyed my order. His arm turned so I could see the letters so carefully inscribed along their length, that elaborate script that would have been better suited adorning the One Ring. The kid reached out and took my meat from underneath, and squeezed. It was hot in his cold hand. I stared not at what he was doing, but at his face and those beautiful blue eyes. He looked mostly at my dick, stroking it in his hand as if he’d never held one before other than his own. Occasionally though, his glance would dart up to mine and then away again, almost as if he were embarrassed at being caught doing what he was doing. “Suck it,” I told him, after a while. I used my hands on his shoulders to press down. Obediently, without question, he knelt down onto the dirty tiles. Again he looked up at me, a question in his eyes. Do I have to? I nodded. Yes, he did. His mouth opened. His tongue flicked out. He leaned forward at an angle. Then, from outside the restroom came the awful squeal of the door to the women’s room, cutting through the quiet like a gunshot. The kid scrambled up to his feet. A wild look was in his eyes, as if he expected the vice squad to have appeared behind him. The kid stuffed his junk back into his pants so hastily that I feared for its safety. Then, like a little doe frightened by hunters, he darted on light, fleet feet out of the restroom and back to his table. I followed a little while later. He’d taken a seat with his back to me, so he couldn’t stare at me any more. His arm was around the shoulders of a chubby, pretty girl. From time to time he’d whisper in her ear as if confiding something. I knew his attention was still on me, though, because he couldn’t resist looking over his shoulder to see if I was still there. I didn’t return to the restroom that night, and I didn’t attempt to engage him any further. Sometimes making a boy admit to his desire is all I need; I like watching that internal struggle as he attempts to balance the sexual heat against his compulsions to remain a good boy. Saturday night, the heat won out—it was brief, and it didn’t result in anything, but the heat won. That’s a victory for my side, any day. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here Muscular / intelligent / educated. The second and third words of his Craigslist ad were what really attracted me. It’s an old saw that the brain is the most important sex organ, but it’s a saw with which I happen to agree; a dirty mind is all the hotter for me when there’s an actual mind there. I like knowing there’s substance. When I sent a response, I found that the guy could write a letter using complete sentences. The few missives he shot in my direction were masterpieces of the carnal and profane. I wanted him. And when he showed up at my place this week fifteen minutes earlier than he said, he wanted me. “Oh yeah,” were the first words out of his mouth when I shut the door. His hands went to my shoulders and shoved me backwards, while he simultaneously invaded my mouth with his tongue. I was relieved I’d had time to brush my teeth before his early arrival. “Fuck yeah,” he growled, grinding his body against mine. The guy was hungry. As we made out right there on the other side of the front door, he pressed against me so hard that it hurt. But I didn’t object. I wanted it, too. “Let’s go upstairs,” I suggested, panting, when he took a break from my mouth to chew on my ear. “I want you inside me,” he said, mouth hanging open in a mean-looking scowl after he spoke. His jaw cocked to the side, as if trying to envision all the nasty things we’d do. “I gotta have you in me, buddy.” Next thing I knew, his hand cupped the back of my head as he drew me in for another kiss. The stubble of his five o’clock shadow scraped my face, but I didn’t care. I just wanted him. He was a handsome man, too—model-quality good looks. Thirty-eight, chiseled chest, beefy pecs, narrow, tapered waist that he showed off with a tight, fitted tee. Upstairs, he pushed me back onto the bed so that I fell there with my legs hanging over the edge, and then he grabbed my foot and ripped off the sock. “What size?” he asked. Staring me eye to eye without wavering, he widened his mouth and took all five toes inside. I convulsed with pleasure. “Eleven, eleven and a half,” I gasped out. “Big feet. So the stereotype is true, huh?” He let go of my foot so suddenly that I nearly banged my heel against the bed frame. “Wanna watch me strip?” I did. He took off his clothes slowly, easing out of them with a sinuous, sideways dance, as if he moved to some inner porn movie track only he could hear. The entire time, he kept his eyes fixed on mine, shucking his clothing until he only wore a pair of white briefs. His hard cock tented out. When my eyes flicked downward to take it in, he grabbed it with his left hand, and then pointed with his right. “Your turn.” Then he was on me again, his mouth devouring mine as he unbuttoned my shirt and laid my chest bare. I winced, as I always do, at being exposed, but his mouth moved from mine and across my chin. He dragged his lips to my nipple, and bit hard to make me groan. “Fuck yeah,” he growled, pleased at my response. Then his hands wrestled with the fastening of my jeans, ripping them open. He separated from me to remove them while I took my arms from my shirt. “Nice underwear,” he said, nodding with approval at my black Banana Republic boxer briefs. Nice enough that he wanted to bury his face in them, apparently; he dove for my groin and moved his mouth up and down my inches, breathing hot air through the fabric to make my cock twitch. When he came up for air, the stubble of his face had accumulated black lint from my underwear. I wiped it away just in time, because next thing I knew, we were kissing again, linked mouth to mouth, groin to groin, hardness to hardness. I pump out a lot of pre-cum when I’m aroused. Too much, some people have said, once they realize what a sticky mess I am. I could tell my briefs were wet from the combination of his spit and the fluid my own cock was rapidly producing. Over the mattress we rolled, fighting for dominancy, waging a silent battle to see who could press harder into the other. Finally I grabbed him by the hair on the back of his head, pulling him away from me. “Suck it,” I told him. “Suck it like you wanted to.” A thin thread of spittle still connected our lips. It vanished with a pop. “Yeah,” he whispered. “I wanna suck that monster.” “Suck it, then,” I told him, and pushed him down. With his mouth he grabbed my cock through the fabric of my boxer briefs once more. “Suck it for real.” I pulled down my waistband and exposed my cock, and waited for his mouth to engulf it. And waited. And waited some more. Then I felt the gentle scraping of skin against my cock’s head, and looked down. He had pulled his thumb against its length. His face had lost its look of hunger. When he looked back up at me, he said, “You got AIDS dick.” “Excuse me?” I said, struggling up to my elbows. His voice had changed as well, from low and sexy to reedy and annoyed. No, not annoyed. Disgusted, as if I’d ripped him off or cheated him. “You got AIDS dick,” he said, flopping it back on my belly, as if even touching me was too much to bear. “Fuck. I can’t believe this shit.” “What the fuck are you talking about?” I asked. He pointed to the head of my cock. “Don’t fucking lie to me,” he said. “That’s AIDS dick.” A black lesion, dark and cancerous, had blossomed there on its right side, spreading a good half inch from the slit down. Smaller, darker irregular shapes like commas surrounded it, mostly near the shaft’s top. I ran a finger over the lesion, so flat and hard that it seemed like part of my own skin. While he cursed and sat back on his knees, I pulled my mouth into a grimace, licked my thumb, and moistened the spot. The would-be lesion peeled back almost painfully, glued there by my pre-cum. “This,” I said, holding up the black spot between my fingers, “Is lint. From my boxers.” With his fingernail, he gently peeled off one of the other spots. “It’s just lint,” I repeated. “Aw fuck, I thought you had AIDS dick,” he said, stubborn. “What’s AIDS dick?” “You know. Dick that’s got AIDS.” “Seriously, that’s how you think you tell?” He looked at me in surprise, as if everyone knew that. “Yeah, sure!” Then he pulled himself up onto the bed and crawled forward, hovering over me. “But now it’s okay.” He grinned. “Just lint.” His mouth went for mine, and for a moment I gave in to his insistent kiss. I could easily see how we could smooth over the moment, how I could fuck him the way he wanted, see each other more often the way he wanted. Only I couldn’t see it. Not really. He’d offended me on levels deeper than I could explain—not by his accusations, but his ignorance. “You know,” I said, wriggling out from under his muscled torso. “I think maybe. . . .” My cock still throbbed for him. Thinking real thoughts gave me a headache. “You’d better go.” “What the fuck?” I repeated the request until he believed it, and endured his silent anger as he pulled back on his clothes. A few moments later and I stood with my back once more on the front door, arms crossed, wondering if I’d been an idiot. It would have been just sex. Sex with a guy that most people might have assumed was out of my league. I couldn’t go through with it, though, because I had a conviction that he simply wasn’t in mine. Muscular / intelligent / educated. Only not so much the latter two. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here Earlier this week I wrote about the obsessive list I kept in my teens of the men with whom I had sex—every encounter I recorded in minute script and a code so elaborate it took me long minutes to figure out thirty years on, when I re-discovered the last last weekend. I had so many positive responses, both in the comments on my journal and in private emails, that I thought I’d share a few more of the brief entries and see what I could remember about them. Red hair beard 35 flannel shirt, Jefferson Hotel, + - $ This is the second entry in my list. It was the first stranger I had sex with. The second dick I ever took. The public library downtown, in the city where I grew up, was mostly a pleasant modern building that had opened just a couple of years before I became sexually active. The basement of the public library downtown, was a scary place in what was left of the building’s original section. The men’s room was a dark and gloomy two-seater near the children’s section, and it was the first place I ever saw any graffiti advertising gay sex action. Suck my Sock here Tuesdays 1-2, was the first ad I ever read on a restroom wall. It took my innocent self a couple of weeks of wondering why anyone would suck a sock to realize that someone had added a curlicue beneath the first C of the word cock. Once I made that connection, it completed a electric circuit to my dick and I was on my way. One Saturday morning, when I was supposed to be studying, I was down in the basement hoping to find some dick. I didn’t have long to wait. The door flew open with a shriek and admitted a man with an unruly mane of auburn hair and an equally unkempt beard. (He wasn’t homeless. This was merely the nineteen-seventies.) In his plaid flannel shirt, he looked a little bit like the Brawny paper towel man, which was not a bad thing. Through the crack in the stall door I watched him cross the little bathroom and sit in the other stall. Through the peephole between us I watched him drop his pants, then lower his head. I could see a green eye staring at mine. I knew enough about cruising etiquette that when he flashed his hard dick at me through the peephole, I flashed mine back, stroking it for him to see. It couldn’t have been very long back then, or very hairy, but god knows I was turned on and not ashamed to show it. A moment later, through the peephole he thrust a blue Bic pen surrounded with toilet paper. I unfolded the tissue. What do you want to do? it read. I don’t know, I wrote back. After I’d returned the pen and paper, it only took a moment for it to reappear. How old are you, kid? he'd scrawled. 14, I wrote back. I’d lied and added on two years to my age, naively thinking that it’d make a difference. There was a very long pause. I thought I heard him sigh. I watched through the peephole as he used the wall as a writing desk. His fiery red dick was still rock hard and pointing to the ceiling as he wrote. When he thrust the pen back, the tissue around it read, I’ll give you $10 to let me suck you here. Or $50 if you go to the Jefferson Hotel with me and let me do what I want. What do you want? I wrote. My dick throbbed at the answer. I want you to suck and swallow my dick and then I want to suck you off. Well, you can guess which one I picked. My allowance at the time was a dollar-fifty a week. We went to the Jefferson Hotel down the street—an elaborate, old-school hotel that at the time was slightly stodgy and in disrepair. He didn’t have a hotel room there, but instead took me to another restroom where we spent an uninterrupted twenty-five minutes sucking out each other’s loads before he gave me a combination of fives, tens, and a twenty. I went home with a stain on my shirt and a new knowledge that not all cum tasted the same. Gym Teacher, curly black hair mustache gym shorts gym shoes, Carillon drive, + - @ Apparently I was impressed by this guy’s gym attire. I remember the encounter well, though, because when I spotted the man cruising the restroom near the park carillon, he was wearing a pair of shiny shorts, a T-shirt, and a pair of those dreadful calf-high athletic socks with the multi-colored stripes near the top that everyone wore in the mid-nineteen-seventies. And I know he was a gym teacher because one of the first questions he asked me, after he demanded my age (to which I added two years), was what school I went to. “Oh, that’s okay then,” he said, when I told him which one (truthfully). He named a school on the city’s south side and told me he worked there. “I teach gym. Just wanted to make sure I wouldn’t be running across you unexpectedly. Whew.” Whew indeed. It was a late August dusk when I met him. This park was further away than the one I usually frequented, so I’d made up some bullshit excuse to my parents so I could stay out later than they might ordinarily allow. My bike was chained up, so I allowed the gym teacher to take me to his car. He drove away from the park and stopped on one of the dark residential streets, and turned off the ignition. When everything was quiet, we climbed through the gap into the front seats into the back. He sat me on his lap, and made out with him. Even at my young age I knew he wasn’t particularly good at it. It didn’t matter, though, because kissing and affection wasn’t what he wanted. He lifted me up and yanked down my shorts. His hand curled around his lips as he spat into his fingers. Then I felt myself being speared by his spit-slick dick. The entire time he fucked me, he kept his eyes closed as if he were thinking of someone else, or pretending I wasn’t there. There was a long moment of suspense in which he stopped fucking when a car drove down the sleepy street. Its headlights danced over us for a second. We’d arrested our movements and sat very still until it drove away. Then his piston-like fucking resumed. After he’d filled me up and we’d crawled back into the front of his boat of a car, he didn’t say a word to me until he’d driven me back to the point where’d he’d picked me up. “Okay. See ya,” he said, leaning across to open the door for me. And that was that. Shirley. + I didn’t need any more notation for this one. Shirley was a colleague of my father’s. A male colleague—he'd been named Shirley in the grand tradition of many fathers and sons in Virginia tradition. He'd seemed an ancient man to me in my teens, though he wouldn’t have been any older than his late fifties at the time. Shirley had one of the thickest southern accents I’d heard, and trust me, I’d heard many a thick accent from my Georgia relatives. When I think about Shirley I actually picture Colonel Sanders in my head, which is not at all what he looked like. But Shirley was of the same iconic archetype of grand old southern gentleman. And he was what was politely called, back then, a confirmed bachelor. Which is why I wasn’t surprised when I saw Shirley’s enormous automobile cruising up and down the back road in the park I normally haunted for sex, when I started cruising. He drove past where I sat pretending to read by the duck pond. On the second trip, he slowed down and looked at me with recognition. It was on the third trip that he stopped the car, called my name, and announced, “I do declare.” Then, after a moment’s silence, he said, “I was wondering if you wanted to set in my car with me a spell.” We parked near the picnic structure and sat there in silence for a long while, staring straight ahead. After a few moments, his hand landed on my left thigh and rested there, not moving. We continued to gaze out the windshield as if we were birdwatching. It was a good five minutes before he finally said, “Do you mind?” in the same tone he might have used if I’d put a drinking glass on one of his antiques that he intended to lift in order to put a coaster underneath. Then, when I nodded, he unzipped my pants and proceeded to give me the most polite and genteel blowjob I’d ever received (or have gotten since). When he was done swallowing my load and dabbing at his lips with a handkerchief, he said, “Shall we have a gentleman’s agreement not to mention our dalliance, then?” I nodded, not really wishing to talk about it with him. He shook my hand, I got out, and we parted. Until the following week, that is, when we did the exact thing all over again. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here I can guarantee we'll be back to our regularly-scheduled diet of smut on the morrow. For one thing, I already wrote the piece at four in the morning when I was having a bout of insomnia—it's going to be some more memories yanked from the list of tricks I kept in my youth that I covered in the Incriminating Evidence entry I made earlier this week. There are couple of things I'd like to draw my readers' attention to, however. Don't worry. You're not in trouble. 1) I'll be driving from Michigan to Virginia on the 23rd, and then back again on the 27th or 28th. I usually drive a route along the Ohio and Pennsylvania turnpikes, then head south from Breezewood in Pennsylvania down into central Virginia. If there's anyone who'd like to offer me a quick fuck pitstop on those days, let me know. Or if you're in the central Virginia area and would enjoy a good breeding, I'm up for it. It'd all depend on your availability, when I was passing through your neck of the woods, and how much stuff around his house my dad needs me to take care of, but I think we can work something out. If you're interested, drop me a line with some photos and let's talk! 2) On the sidebar of my blog I've set up a link to my wish list at stockroom.com. Because I am shameless. If you're ever inclined to send one of your favorite blog writers a sex toy, so he can take photos with it/use it in his romps/make his dick feel better, now you can do so discreetly and even anonymously. It'll be fun for everyone, I promise. 3) My buddy iBLASTinside is conducting an exercise this weekend in which he's soliciting anonymous sexual confessions on his blog. You can check out the confessions here. At least one of them is mine. I'd be interested in seeing yours, too. That's it. I've appreciated your comments and private emails over the last week, particularly on a couple of entries I was almost reluctant to write and post. Your support means a lot, guys. Thanks. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here This entry will take more courage to write than most. I’ve always been open about the fact that I was pretty much exclusively a bottom boy when I first started having sex with men. I stayed that way until the day I was twenty-one or twenty-two and I hooked up with a florist who took me in the back room of his workplace, stripped down to his skin, hopped up on one of the metal worktables, lubed up my dick, and guided me into him. The feeling of his ass around my cock was so electric, and my orgasm was so fast and amazingly strong, that I was hooked on topping after that, and rarely looked back. I attribute my years as a bottom to making me a better top. Once in a while, though, the old itch returns. The following is difficult for me to admit for a number of reasons, but I fantasize about bottoming more than I really care to admit. The last time I was successfully topped, though, was about six or seven years ago. It’s been a while. Last May the itch got too much for me to handle. I wanted it scratched, and badly. After mustering up the courage (which took a few days), I wrote a Craiglist ad that read: Let me be blunt. I've been pretty much exclusively top since my early twenties. Since then I've bottomed for three, maybe four guys, and liked it only with one. I'm looking for a versatile man or another top who's willing to take his time and be real gentle about opening me up and helping me want it. I'm nervous as hell even asking for some butt play. The stats: I'm forty-five, taller than average, more hung than average, 160#, bearded, good looking. I'm open to all ages and races. Only responses with photos will get mine. I got only three responses. One was from a guy I knew socially and disliked, and who did not impress me by sending a photo that was ten years and a hundred pounds out of date. Another was from a former playmate that I didn’t want to see again. The third, however, really caught my eye. I'm discreet, 48, 5'11", 160, 34w, 42c, br/blu, trim bearded, in great shape - swim & work out daily, well hung with 8"ct, shaved, clean, DDF, I'd would love to be the man to flip you. I have the understanding, patience and experience. The appeal of flipping a top is really growing on me as an exciting first experience. I can't send pictures through CL, but will send face pic for yours when you reply. We swapped photos. The guy was handsome. I mean, really handsome. He seemed to appreciate all the same foreplay I enjoyed. His lean good looks were really appealing. What hooked me, though, is that when I asked about a quirk in his email address, he responded with a thoughtful multi-paragraph reply about Native American tribal totems and their importance to him. It was that mixture of smarts and piggishness that appealed to me the most. I told him upfront in my email my sad limitations—that although I enjoy anal attention, I honestly have extreme difficulties asking for it when I’m with another guy. He’d know that I was enjoying it when it happened, certainly. Would he ever. But I told him I was essentially asking him in advance, while I could still do it comfortably, to take charge, set the pace, and get me to the point where he could fuck me. He was fine with that. It was only two days after I placed the ad that we met. Neither of us had any surprises from outdated photos. I found him astonishingly attractive, and he seemed very into me as he maneuvered me into the bedroom and onto the mattress. He knew how to take charge nicely, I had to admit. He loosened me up with a lot of passionate making out interspersed with talk about how attractive he found me. Piece by piece he removed my clothing, refusing to let me help. When we were both naked, he turned me over and raked his beard over my neck and back while he breathed warm air on my skin, all to make me gasp and shiver. My butt quivered when he gave more of the same treatment to it—and then he used his hands to separate my cheeks and bury his face between them. I was in absolute bliss for the half-hour or more he rimmed away. The guy was spoiling me, to be honest; I wanted it to last forever. When I was wet and wanting, he used lube and spit and eased his thumb up my hole. I gasped and clutched the pillows, but it felt good. I needed it. The prostate massage he began to give me had me quaking. “Do you like it?” I remember him asking me. The question unloosed my lips. “Oh god, oh god, oh god,” I remember saying over and over again. I couldn’t stop. For several long moments while he eased in and out, just playing with my chute with his fingers, I repeated the two words over and over, almost as if I was praying. Just as I always do, however, when I’m enjoying anal play, I started to feel guilty about it. I know it makes no sense, and I know it’s something I need to stop doing. I’m aware of my issues; I just have a problem overcoming them in the heat of the moment. My “oh gods” changed and became a soft and whispered stream of, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” I’m not even sure I was aware of it. “What’s the matter?” he asked, noticing the change after a moment or two. He left his thumb in my hole, but moved up so that his mouth was closer to my ear. I could feel his cock rigid against my back. “Am I hurting you?” “No,” I said, breathless. “You’re not hurting me.” For a minute I thought he didn’t believe me, because he stayed so still. Then he said, “You were raped.” The way he phrased the words wasn’t really as a question, so I didn’t really feel the requirement to answer. “As an adult?” That was a question. I raised my head once, then lowered it in as close to a nod as I cared to get. “Fuck,” he said. “I’m so sorry, baby.” “Please don’t be,” I managed to say. It was really too complex a topic to address right then, with both of us hard and naked and his left thumb jabbed up my hole. There are parts of my history I’ve made peace with, and that’s one of them. It’s just unfortunate that one of the lasting side effects has been a certain muteness and a lot of apprehension, in the heat of the moment. But afterward he changed. I don’t know if I was damaged goods to him (I certainly don’t think of myself that way), or the unicorn in a glass menagerie (I’m not), or whether he worried about what his drooling dick wanted to do reflected badly on himself (it shouldn’t have). He played with my ass a little more, and we made out and enjoyed each other, but then we ended up doing what’s happened every other goddamned time I’ve gotten up the nerve to bottom and sought out a top to do it—he talked about what a big dick I had, sucked it, and talked me into fucking him. Twice. Which, you know. Doesn’t take a lot of talking, admittedly. When he left, I wanted to kick myself for putting my ass in the air for a hell of a nice guy who was hot to top me, but astute and attuned enough to be insightful. I should’ve stuck with a dumb brute who just wanted to fuck, though intellectually I know that would’ve had me yelping and diving beneath the bedsheets faster than a virgin facing a boatload of pillaging Vikings. I have my issues. We all do. I try to be honest about mine when I can. Most of all, I try to be tender to this particular issue. Sometimes I poke fun of it, because if it takes itself too seriously, lord knows where that will lead. Mostly I acknowledge it, and honor it as a part of me. But on those rare occasions I get the itch, I’ll be damned if I don’t want it scratched. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here The best part of Wednesday afternoon was this: when Mikey stood in the doorway of the bathroom, a wet washcloth in his hands, and said across the darkened room to me, “You want me to clean off your dick before you go?” “Yes,” I said, almost shyly. “I’d like that.” I got up from the bed. The pig lying there with his legs in the air opened his eyes to watch me go, as did the lean, grizzled top man holding his legs. They’ve known for a long time what Mikey is to me. The black man who’d come late didn’t blink, but kept pounding away at his hole. I padded across the carpeting and into the bathroom, where Mikey was running hot water into the sink. He held the washcloth beneath the tap, wrung it out, and then very, very gently wrapped the hot cloth around my penis. That was the best part of the afternoon. This is how I got there. Mikey called me in the middle of the morning to ask if I wanted to go to a gangbang with him. The bottom who’d pulled it together was a furry pig we’d topped a few times together and someone I’d seen on my own several times since. The pig was, in fact, one of the very very few tricks somehow ever to become one my friends on my real-life Facebook profile. He’d spent the morning on that site posting links to political screeds against Sarah Palin, and then apparently was planning to use his lunchtime to take every dick he could find. That’s what I call breadth of interest. “I don’t want to,” I told him. “I just went to a gangbang yesterday. I lost a sock. I was kind of hoping you might be wanting to come spend time with me by myself today.” But he wheedled. He did that thing where he tells me he just wants the best for me, and how much he enjoys watching me fuck other men. Eventually I gave in. I regretted it an hour later, though, when I found myself sitting on an expressway not moving an inch for over twenty-five minutes. I have to explain that Mikey fancies himself psychic. I don’t buy it. Not only because I don’t believe in paranormal activity, but because usually Mikey’s so-called psychic ability is limited to looking at the daily 4 lottery numbers and saying something like, “God damn it, I knew I should have played today! That was the age mom died, and the number of my first apartment!”, or “That was the number of the month Uncle Bill was born, and the number of cats I had living with me when I was down in Atlanta!” Yeah, right. Today, though, when I text messaged him to say that I was stuck behind a 6-car pileup in which two of the cars had rolled over, he messaged back, I had one of my feelings about 696, little brother, so I took the surface streets and I’m already there. Thanks asshole, I texted back. After all, what’s the point of having a goddamned self-proclaimed psychic in the family if he’s not going to share his traffic premonitions with me? When I got to the cheap and sleazy motel along one of Detroit’s less savory avenues, I admit I was in a mood. I really hadn’t wanted to drive across town. The accident had upset me. Plus I was twenty-five minutes late. The hotel seemed to be filled with transients. But the sex was good. I shucked my clothes as soon as I got inside. Mikey helped me out of them; though the room was totally dark, there was enough of a glow from the pig bottom’s laptop screen that I could see Mikey’s lean and naked body as he helped me out of my jeans and sneakers. The bottom was on his back, legs in the air as another top ground his hips into him. I knew the other top; we’d shared bottoms before. His name is Sir Clay—which isn’t a blogger’s nickname for him. He actually requests that everyone, top and bottom alike, refer to him as Sir Clay. He doesn’t kiss, he doesn’t suck, and his dick isn’t as big as mine, but Sir Clay he is and Sir Clay I’ll call him. There wasn’t much talking at all, as we played. That was something of a relief, because I’d exhausted my repertoire of toppy exhortations the day before. Mikey sucked me as only he can suck me while I watched Sir Clay fuck the bottom. The pig is a furry beast of a guy with an unruly mop of gray hair, though he’s younger than I; he squirmed and moaned with every thrust. I let Mikey suck until Sir Clay pulled out, held up the pig’s legs, and motioned for me to start fucking. “Hi,” said the pig, with a shy smile on his lips, when I mounted. I’d been fucking for maybe about ten minutes when someone knocked at the door. Mikey tried looking through the peephole to see who was outside, but either it wasn’t working or it was too bright out, because finally he said, “Are you expecting someone?” “Yes,” said the pig and Sir Clay in chorus. Mikey opened the door and let in way too much sunshine. We all squinted. I’m sure that my balls-deep humping of the pig was visible from across the street, but I didn’t much care. I kept going at it. A big bulldog of a black man entered the room. Without saying a word, once the door was shut again he removed his jacket and kicked off his shoes. He disappeared into the bathroom, presumably to remove the rest of his clothing. I moved the pig to the bed’s edge and set him on his knees, so I could slide in and out more freely; Mikey took up a spot behind me and nuzzled at my shoulders and played with my nipples as I continued to fuck. His hard dick pressed against my hip. I could feel its sharp curve lie snugly against the bone. The black guy came out of the bathroom naked and hard and sporting a metal cockring. He was a good looking brute with a carefully-trimmed three-day growth of beard, a barrel chest, enormous arms, and a tattoo of the Jesus Christ Superstar logo on one bicep. He didn’t so much push Mikey out of the way as take his place when Mikey stepped aside. Next thing I know, the black stud was reaching between my legs and yanking hard on my nuts. His thumb plunged up my ass, like a cork. The abrupt sensation could’ve done two things. It might have pulled me out of my fuck trance altogether, or it could have pushed me over the edge. I’d been fucking long enough that it did the latter. I squirted immediately while everyone urged me on in whispers. When I pulled out, the big bulldog dropped to his knees and immediately began cleaning me off. I was actually pretty turned on that this enormous beefy guy was kneeling down to eat my dick when it was still dripping with juice, but unfortunately he didn’t stay on it for long. He spat on the pig’s hole, stood up, and shoved his own dick in, then gave the pig a rough fucking that had him gasping. Sir Clay took the opportunity to shove his dick in the pig’s mouth, and Mikey and I sat on the bed corner, watching. This time I held him in my arms, rubbing my big hands up and down his body, resting my cheek against his shoulder. I can tell why sometimes people think we’re lovers—that is, lovers of a more traditional sort. We have all these intimacies we share without thinking. We hang on each other’s shoulders, or stroke each other absently, or offer each other a hand of comfort or a cupped chin or a soft kiss on the neck. It’s not the kind of thing that strangers do, certainly, or even fuck buddies. The black guy noticed. Though he continued to pound, he jerked his head in our direction and said to Sir Clay, “Are these two boyfriends or what?” “No,” said Sir Clay, chuckling. “They’re not boyfriends.” We left it at that. The black guy shot his load with a single, brutal thrust and a shout. When he backed off, he slapped the pig’s ass so hard that the pig actually let out a squeal. Then, without warning, he dropped to his knees and sucked me again, while Mikey and I made out. Sir Clay fucked the pig. I fucked the pig, and came again. Mikey went in right after me and was so turned on to fuck in my load that he shot almost immediately, with a little quiver that made the end of his mustache tremble. Then the black guy started fucking once again, and I grabbed my T-shirt and socks. Mikey said, “You want me to clean off your dick before you go?” “Yes,” I said. “I’d like that.” The warm washcloth around my penis was almost too hot—but it wasn’t, really. It was just on the edge. Four times Mikey rinsed off the towel and wet it again, then quietly and gently wrung it out. I stood there in the ghastly pink motel bathroom with my arms crossed over my chest, shivering, with my eyes half-closed and a smile on my face. His face was only inches from my dick. He treated me so reverently that I felt like I was posing for a Mannerist painting of Martha washing Jesus’ feet, or some profane variation thereof. “Fucking washclothes are like sandpaper,” Mikey snapped, spoiling that particular illusion. “It’s okay,” I told him, still smiling. I ruffled his hair. “I just didn’t want to hurt you, little brother,” he said softly. I shook my head. “You don’t hurt me.” Once again he cleaned out the cloth and warmed it again. I felt its soft lick against my balls, the insides of my thighs, and scraping across the outside of my ass. Funny, but all I’d really wanted was this quiet moment, and I’d had to sit through ambulances and rescue squads and way too much traffic and dark room fucking to get it. The thought made me huff amused air through my nose. Mikey looked up. “Are you laughing with me or at me, peanut?” he asked, using an old nickname. “I’m laughing because this is the—” “—best part of the afternoon,” he finished saying along with me, at exactly the same time. You know, maybe Mikey is psychic, after all. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here I’ve known Daddy Tim longer than I’ve known just about any other sex buddies online. We met on gay.com over a decade ago, back in the service’s good years. We hit it off immediately. I’d travel out to Ann Arbor, where his executive’s salary afforded him a beautiful house on a double lot near one of the city’s more extensive parks. I’d enter through the rear porch. Then I’d jaunt down into his basement bedroom, where I’d find the latest boys he had to share. Sometimes they were tied up. Sometimes they were just lying there in the dark, waiting. Once in a while, there’d be two or three of them. Daddy Tim has a way of attracting college boys. He lives in one of the state’s largest college towns, after all, and every year there’s a new crop of freshmen, free for the first time from their family and old friends, and anxious to learn from a mature top. And sometimes the top’s buddies. That’s where I come in. I’ve always been the buddy who gets to sample the holes after Daddy Tim’s trained them. Then I get to give a blunt evaluation. Something like, “Yeah, he’s good all right.” Or maybe, “Damn, you’ve trained this boy well.” Once it was, “This one needs a little more breaking in before you let the real rodeo cowboys ride.” That went over well. Daddy Tim is a good fifteen years older than I. He’s actually a granddad, several times over. I think even he’d agree that he’s not the most typically handsome guy in the world, but in Ann Arbor, he’s like two hundred pounds of ground round thrown into the tiger cage. The young cats are all over that shit. Tuesday he messaged me in the middle of the morning to ask if I wanted to come over to his place: daddytim: cum and fuck the trainer today with me and my buddy bill...the trainer wants lots of cock...its been 2.5 weeks since he was fucked The trainer is his nickname for his latest obsession. That’s the guy’s profession; he’s a personal trainer for one of the larger and pricier gyms in the area. Daddy Tim has turned the guy from a total top to a whore bottom in the space of less than a year, ever since last July when he first convinced the guy to give up his hole. All I knew about the trainer is that he was supposedly gorgeous, built, and totally insatiable when it comes to getting fucked. He’d also never been shared, so getting an invitation made me sit up at attention: thebreeder: what time? daddytim: 12:30 he would have no idea another guy was showing up..... he is obsessed with getting cock today and u would like to be around my other buddy he is 60....very hot....and sexy...i know u lke older men.... this is the trainer’s email to me...10 seconds ago I'm beside myself with lust that I'd probably almost fall into the "menace to society" category. Like I said-good thing you've arranged backup for today. Insatiable doesn't even begin to cover it. I hope Bill doesn't feel rushed. I want to walk out of there completely filled up with cum, and your friend satisfied with my performance that he wonders when the next time will be. thebreeder: 12:30 is good with me. daddytim: now i will be presenting him as my pussy boy so just call him fuckboy or pussyboy or anything with boy in it he wants to be fucked silly his last email to me: I need an uninterrupted, complete dicking that only you can provide. I'm telling you, when I leave there I want to be so worked over that I can't even complete a simple sentence he doesn’t know I’ve invited you you will be the star of the show you have the biggest dick I want you just to walk in and surprise him with how big your dick is, ok? thebreeder: Can do, man. It’s a date. The drive to Ann Arbor is nearly an hour for me, but the meeting was early enough in the day that I could slip away without much hassle. After I parked in Daddy Tim’s driveway, I let myself in the porch door, kicked off my shoes, and made my way downstairs. It took a minute for me to blink the sunlight from my eyes and adjust to the darkness below, but when finally my vision cleared, I could see enough to remove my clothes and join the party in the bedroom next door. When I walked in, I saw that Daddy Tim had managed to round up a fourth top—a skinny younger guy I recognized from online but whom I’d never actually encountered in the flesh. The kid was finishing up as I stepped into the bedroom, pulling his condom-covered dick out of the bottom’s ass. I couldn’t tell much about the trainer from his position, and how crowded it was around him. All I could really tell is that he had a narrow waist, broad shoulders, and a perfectly round, muscular ass. Daddy Tim stood at the bed’s far in, plugging the trainer’s mouth, while another man referred to as Daddy Bill was taking the place that the skinny guy had just vacated. The skinny guy yanked the rubber off his little dick, threw it in a waste can, and scampered out as if he had somewhere to be. So much for meeting him. “Oh look,” said Tim when I started stroking myself to hardness. “Your other daddy’s here. Daddy Mike.” I’m still not sure why Tim was introducing me with a name that wasn’t my own, but for a shot at that muscular ass, I was willing to go along with it. “Daddy Mike’s got a big dick for you. Bigger than you’ve ever had,” he said. All the trainer could do was grunt and choke on Tim’s cock. Bill turned around to look at the eight inches I was stroking. His eyes widened. Like Daddy Tim had said, even at sixty-one or sixty-two he was a handsome fucker; he had a furry chest and a body that was still muscular and athletic. As he slid back and forth in the trainer’s hole, his head tilted and leaned to mine. I met his mouth in a kiss. The guy kissed well. Well enough, in fact, to distract me from the fucking at hand for a few moments. I ground my hard dick against his thigh, and ran my hand up and down his ass and back. He thrust back and forth while we made out, then abruptly yanked himself out. From the bedside table, Bill grabbed at a container of lube. He squirted some onto his hand and then slapped it onto my dick, rubbing the cold good up and down my inches. “Your turn,” he said at last, nodding at me to take his position. Daddy Tim had been keeping up a running commentary while he fed the trainer his dick. “You should see your daddies making out while they use your little boyhole,” he growled. “Yeah, they’re all turned on and shit while they’re fucking you. Now it’s Daddy Mike’s turn.” I’d forgotten that my name was supposed to be Daddy Mike, frankly, and I’m afraid I actually paused and looked at the other guy. Then I remembered. “Yeah,” I said, trying not to laugh at myself. “Daddy Mike’s ready to fuck this hot boyhole you’ve been telling me about.” I crouched slightly to get at the right height, and slid inside. For someone who was a total top nine months ago, the trainer was remarkably loose. Then again, he’d already had three tops inside him by the time I got there. He felt slick and hot and great around my meat, though. For the first time I was able to get a good look at the guy’s body—it was fucking fantastic. He couldn’t have been any taller than five-foot-five or so. He was a compact, tiny-waisted fucker with shoulders so broad that he looked like he’d stepped out of a Tom of Finland cartoon. Though his chest was relatively smooth, his legs and enormous calves were bristling with thick dark hair. When he turned his head back and forth on Daddy Tim’s dick, I got the impression he had a short goatee. That was then I felt the coldness in my crack. While I’d been accustoming myself to the trainer’s ass, Daddy Bill had squirted more lube into his hand and began rubbing it into my hole. He kissed my neck and shoulders, which is always something guaranteed to reduce me to a puddle of Jello. His bearded lips traveled up to my left ear. He growled, “You are so damned sexy, boy.” I murmured thanks, still fucking as he worked a finger into me. “Maybe it’s your hole I should be fucking.” I had two thoughts at that moment. One was panic, because I wasn’t at all prepared to be fucked. Not mentally, and certainly not from a standpoint of cleanliness—at least not beyond the depth of an inch. The other was a flattered pleasure in having a handsome and unfamiliar daddy growl obscenities in my ear about how fuckable he found me. I let him continue to explore until he had his index finger up to the second joint. It was at that point, with him creating sensations I hadn’t felt in a very long time, along with the gentle nibbles he made at my earlobe and neck, combined with the sensations of my dick slipping and sliding in and out of a very wet and cummy ass, that I lost it. “Fuck!” I said. My hips shot forward, carried by my orgasm. I plunged all the way in to my nuts, shuddered and shook, and shot my load as deeply into that muscular butt as I could. When I was done quivering, Daddy Bill removed his finger, pulled me out, and pushed me over to Daddy Tim. “Make that pussyboy clean your dick,” he said. “My turn now.” Tim stepped out of the way so I could feed the trainer my dick. Even though it had been in his ass only seconds before, he gobbled down with a hunger that astounded me. Meanwhile, at the trainer’s other end, Daddy Bill was fucking in the load I’d just left. His eyes were half-closed as he slipped in and out. “He’s a good boy, isn’t he, Mike?” asked Tim. Once again, I didn’t remember my fake name at first. “Oh yeah,” I said eventually, once recognition set in. “He is one good pussyboy. You’ve trained this one right.” The trainer grunted and groaned at the praise. His back arched and he thrust his butt higher in the air. Bill couldn’t contain himself any more. When he shot, it was with a spasm so powerful that he pushed the trainer onto his stomach. I pulled my dick out before he could chomp down on it. Then Daddy Bill fell atop the trainer and writhed around like a freshly-landed fish, as he finished coming. “Jesus,” he whispered, at last. “I told you,” said Tim, smirking. “This boy is good.” While I relaxed on the mattress and stroked myself, Tim took the trainer to the foot of the bed’s frame and made him clutch the curved iron railings. He bent him over and began fucking. “Jeez, boy,” he snarled. “You’re nothing but a little cum whore.” “Yessir,” mumbled the trainer. His eyes were shut tight. “Daddy’s little cum whore.” It was the first time I had a direct look at the trainer’s face. He was a handsome, handsome man. His chin had a cleft with a dimple. His nose was so blunt and flat at its end that he looked like an Art Deco Mercury, or the Leyendecker Arrow Shirt man. I already knew he was older than most of the twinks that Daddy Tim usually attracted, but now I could tell that he was no older than thirty-five at most. He could have had any man he wanted, but at that moment all he wanted were the cocks that his Daddy Tim gave to him—and he was willing to take them all without question. Daddy Bill got onto his knees and began twisting the trainer’s nipples to make him cry out. “Look at your Daddy Mike,” said Tim, as he slammed in and out of his hole. “He’s hard again. Did you like your Daddy Mike’s dick? You want more of it?” The trainer nodded his head. “Make him sit on it,” I declared. Tim withdrew from the hole and guided the trainer over to me. Obediently the muscle man hopped up onto the bed and straddled me. His head jerked back and he let out a moan as he lowered himself on me. “Come on,” I urged. “You know you want it. Take it all the way.” We both gasped as he sat all the way down. I noticed for the first time that the trainer’s dick was rock-hard, and dripping all over my stomach. “Yeah. Take it.” I let my head sink into the pillows. Daddy Bill wrenched my legs apart, and pushed the trainer’s torso down. He was trying to enter him with me, I realized. He wasn’t hard enough, or big enough, to accomplish the deed. So after a couple of minutes of trying, he settled on jamming his thumb up my ass as deeply as he could, while maintaining eye contact with me beneath the trainer’s armpit. “Goddamn,” said Tim. “I was hoping to get my fuckboy opened wide with two dicks at once. It's his final frontier. Right, boy?” "Final frontier," echoed the trainer in dazed agreement. “Yeah?” I asked. I pushed the trainer up and off my dick, and rolled out from underneath him. “Then make Bill lie down.” My hole was getting a little sore from the unexpected invasion, I had to admit. Even in the days I was an avid bottom, decades ago, I never liked fingers very much. “I’ll double penetrate the little bitch.” Bill immediately hopped into the hollow in the mattress I’d just vacated. His dick wasn’t big, that’s for certain. The trainer sat down on it and jerked around as if it were a foot long, though. I pushed his V-shaped torso down, spat on my dick to reactivate the lube and cum drying on it, and began to fuck it in. To make sure that Bill and I were both in the hole, I held onto his dick with my fingers, and kept my thumb atop my own as I poked at the hole. First I stabbed with my head. When I felt the ass open to take in with Bill, I thrust in another inch, and then another. Three inches was about all I was going to be able to get in, I could tell, but it was enough, both for my pleasure and for the trainer to know he'd been double-penetrated. “Yeah, boy,” I growled in the muscle bottom’s ear. “You’ve got two dicks in you at once. That boyhole's been DP’ed. How’s it feel?” The trainer was in heaven. He couldn’t believe how slutty I’d made him. “It’s . . . my final frontier,” he finally said. “You love being a little bitch for strange dick, don’t you?” The trainer nodded at my question. “You want another load?” This time, a nod wasn’t good enough for me. “You want another load? Tell me.” “I want another load,” he whispered. “I want another load.” “What'd he say?” I said to Daddy Tim in a regular voice, “I can’t hear your boy.” “I want another load,” said the trainer, more loudly. “Still can’t hear you!” I snapped. “I want another load!” he shouted, filling the basement with a bass roar. “I want your fucking load, daddy!” “I didn’t hear you say please.” He began yelling at the top of his frenzied lungs. “Please! Please give me another load! Please gift your cuntboy with another load! Please! Please! Just fucking breed my hole, please!” Over and over he repeated his pleas, until I couldn’t take it any more. Bill’s dick slipped out when I shoved mine all the way in. I unloaded again with grunts and shoves so hard that the trainer’s head banged against the iron headboard. There was a moment of silence in which I clung to the trainer's waist. Daddy Bill sat up and stared me in the eyes. His hand reached out, and then pushed the hair back from my face. Very tenderly, he stroked his fingers through my hair. I was still panting when I nodded at him, turned on by that simple gesture. My vision hadn't even completely cleared. “Now what?” I said to the trainer. “What do you say?” “Thank you,” he said. “Thank you, thank you, thank you.” “What was that?” I asked, raising my voice. “Thank you sir!” he yelled. I pulled out, wiped the still-leaking tip of my dick on his butt, and got to my feet. I rendered my verdict. “Yeah. You’ve trained this one pretty well.” I had to wash up before I left. Daddy Tim followed me to the bathroom, grinning at me. “You always put on a good show,” he said. He wasn’t far wrong. I didn’t need any of that shouting stuff for my pleasure, but I knew it would excite the trainer. And keeping a hole excited is sometimes what it’s all about, especially when it’s being fucked by multiple men. “What’d you think?” “He’s good,” I admitted. “Very good.” “You’ll come back again for him another round?” “Anytime,” I promised, as I finished washing off my dick and hands. “You know you can count on your buddy Mark.” “Mike,” he corrected, leaving me once again to wonder why he’d picked a doofy alias for me to begin with. It wasn’t until I got home and had been relaxing for an hour that I realized when I’d dressed again in the dark, that I’d accidentally come home wearing someone else’s sock. Ah well. A small price to pay for a hot piece of muscle ass. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here I’ve had a guy from across state hitting me up on BBRTS for the last I don’t know how long. Months, at least. Probably more like a year and a half. He’s a top guy, but he’s told me over and over that he wanted to give up his hole. In several graphic mails he’d told me exactly what he wanted me to do with it—and inevitably all the scenarios would have left his ass gaping, swollen, and cummy. My response was always the same. Sounds fun. Let me know when you get over to my side of the state, I’d tell him. Then we’ll set it up. Earlier last week the guy wrote and said that he was actually planning to visit my area, and that he’d be staying at a hotel ten minutes from my house and would be available all Sunday morning for some play. Great, I told him. Here’s my email and my phone. I’m available from eight-thirty until one, Sunday morning. Text or call me and I’ll come over. I’m not really a big fan of too much talk about what I plan to do with a guy, before a hookup. There are certain basics I like to cover, sure, but my main aim is not to provide the bottom with material to whack off to as he thinks about what a bad boy he could be. No, I want him in my bed, or me in his. Once I’m there, we’ll talk about sex. And do it. Until that point, I can be short to the point of curtness. This guy, however, contacted me on Saturday to ask if we were still on. I said sure, as long as he texted or called me the next morning to give me the particulars. What are you going to do to me? he asked. I told him that I was finally going to give him the topping he wanted. Well I think you should know up front I don’t get fucked, he wrote back. For one thing, guys, it’s not really ‘up front’ when you’ve led a top on for a year and a half and tell him twelve hours before you’re due to meet that you don’t intend to let him in your ass. I asked the guy exactly what in hell he envisioned us doing. Some j/o, he replied. Maybe some oral if I feel comfortable. Oral? Double you tee eff, I wanted to know. Why in the world had he told me all the nasty shit he wanted me to do to him, and then suddenly decided that all we were going to do was touch each other’s peepees like seven-year-olds playing doctor? Sometimes I just say stuff I don’t mean, he told me. I get horny and it just comes out. I read the guy the quick and dirty version of the riot act and signed off. Luckily I found someone serious who was willing to meet, Sunday morning. Another BBRTS fellow messaged me early in the morning and said he wanted to get pounded. Was I free? Hell yes I was. Twenty minutes later, Brant was pulling up in front of my house. I met him at the door. The guy was pretty much as advertised—around thirty, a shaved head, a light hand’s-wipe of facial hair, and an introvert’s smile. I pulled him to me the minute the door was closed and kissed. The softness of his lips against mine and the slow, wet way he made out convinced me we’d be having a good time. Upstairs we went to the bedroom, where he instantly began stripping. “God, it’s so hard to get a fucking in this town!” he said. His body was large and well-padded, we’ll say, but not at all unattractive. His chest was covered with fur. I asked him how long it had been since he’d been fucked. “Months!” he said. “Literally months.” “Are you going to be able to handle what I’ve got?” I asked him. He’d brought a knapsack with him. At my question he lunged over the bed’s side to open it. From the depths he withdrew a buttplug that looked like black rubber artichoke perched on a thick, heavy base. “All right then,” I said, impressed. We made out for a while. I grabbed his hand and put it on my hard dick, which hung like a lead pipe down the left leg of my jeans. “That’s daddy dick, isn’t it?” he asked. “I mean, you’ve made a kid with it?” I nodded. “Fuck,” he said, in awe. “That’s hot.” “Wanna see it?” I unzipped. Immediately he dove for my meat and took it in his mouth. The blowjob he gave wasn’t as expert as some, but it served to get my cock wet and slick. He helped me off with my pants and left me in my T-shirt and socks. “Let me see your ass,” I told him. I turned him over. He lifted his left leg to his chest to give me access. Now it was my turn to dive below his waist. The guy had the largest ass I’ve had in a couple of weeks, but it was sparkling clean and wasn’t prelubed (like most of the guys I’ve met in the last two weeks). Both were good things. He groaned when I started munching around his hole. “You’re gonna fuckin’ give me that daddy dick?” he asked. “Gonna give me some daddy dick and daddy sperm?” “You know it,” I growled. “As much as you can handle.” “I fucking love dad sperm,” he said between gasps. “Love it when a daddy breeder breeds me. Daddy sperm is the best.” “Why is that?” I elicited a groan from him when I slapped his ass. “Because it works,” he said. It was good enough for me. I spit on my dick, planning to rub it on his hole while I dirty-talked him some more. I was surprised when he maneuvered his hips back to meet my pole, however, so that it slid right in. There was no resistance, no struggle to find the entrance—just a smooth glide in. Pretty impressive for someone who hadn’t been fucked in months. “Oh Jesus Christ, daddy!” he said, barking out the words. “It feels so damned good!” “You feel good too, boy,” I growled. Loose as he was, he was a sweet and smooth fuck. My cock head parted his hole so easily that it was easy to pick up the pace without having to wait for him to get used to me. “I want you to piss in my ass,” he said. “Will you do that, daddy?” “I’d do it anywhere but in my bed,” I told him. “Not having you slop my piss around in my house.” “I want it.” He pulled the corner of a pillow into his mouth. “I want you to do that to me sometime. Fuck, tell me you’ll meet me again.” “Squeeze,” I told him. “Make it tight for daddy.” He wasn’t able to clamp down on it like some bottoms can, but I would’ve given him an A for effort. He grunted, and squeezed, and made an obvious attempt to make his hole as tight as possible. We swapped positions so that I was banging him with his legs over my shoulders, while his pierced dick flopped loudly against his belly. “Fuck me,” he started to say, over and over again. “Just fuck me. Fuck me. Fuck me.” He was in no hurry to get done. He was in some zone of pleasure in which every one of my strokes reduced him to near-wordlessness. “Fuck me. Daddy, please fuck your boy.” It didn’t take me long to cum. When I did, I shot deep in Brant’s hole as he shook and shuddered and shot a load on his stomach. His cum spewed everywhere. “Oh god,” he said before the last drop had started to cool. “I got it on your pillow.” “Not an issue,” I said, laughing. I swabbed it away with my hand and fed it to him. He sucked it off my fingertips gladly. I’d barely pulled out before he blurted out, “I lost weight, but then I gained it all back. I’m fat.” I’d not said a word about his weight, nor did I think he was fat, nor did I believe I’d acted in a way that would imply he disgusted me or anything. “Why are you apologizing?” I asked. “I don’t know.” “Your body is fine. Honestly.” He looked even more embarrassed than he had been moments before. “I just opened my mouth and that came out.” “Word of advice,” I said, meaning it kindly. “Don’t open your mouth after sex, if you’re thinking that kind of thing. Or before sex,” I added, reconsidering the events of the night before. He looked as if he was going to say something to rebut, but at the last minute he shut his mouth and swallowed the words. “Good boy,” I told him. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here During my teens and twenties, I kept the sheaf of papers in my journals. I left them folded up, tucked in the middle of one of the spiral-bound college notebooks in which I recorded my life, until I began to worry that someone might pry and find the damning evidence. I moved them from my diaries to a Greek textbook, which I thought would be surely the one place no one would ever think to snoop. When I sold the Greek textbook the bundle of papers moved to the inside of one of my LPs until I nearly had a heart attack the day a friend wanted to listen to the record where they were hiding; they resided in a book on stagecraft after that, and then in the back of collection of Restoration poetry. In my early twenties, so the story went in my head, I destroyed them. They were too damning to keep. They were unnecessary, and sure to bring me nothing but bad luck. When I spoke of them to anybody—rarely, if ever—I always said that I’d shredded them before I’d gotten hitched, that they were lost to me, and good riddance. Then, last weekend, as I was going through my old journals from 1983 to look up a name I’d forgotten, they fell out of a pocket. A folded sheaf of ripped-out notebook pages, ten or more, nestled in another twenty pages of photocopier paper. The entire batch was weathered and yellowed with age, and covered with the most minute of my scrawls. It was the complete list of all the men I’d had sex with, from the time I was twelve until shortly after I turned seventeen. For a minute I was absolutely stunned. How in the world had this relic of my past survived? I’d honestly thought it had been ripped into a thousand pieces twenty-five years ago, yet here it was, whole and unscathed and written in such tiny print that it was almost impossible for my middle-aged eyes to read. I’d begun compiling the list of all my tricks about six months after I first got fucked. December 17, 1976, to be precise—the entire first page of entries is in the same hand and written with the same pen. I don’t know what possessed me to start cataloguing every sexual encounter a few days before my thirteenth Christmas, but I do have a dim memory of thinking it was important to keep track. I wrote down everything from those first six months in one long sitting, alone in my adolescent room, rock hard the entire time, stopping only when called down to dinner and then picking it up again immediately after. When I say I recorded every sexual encounter, that’s exactly what I mean. With the uncanny precision of a future accountant or a catalog librarian, I recorded everything in the tiniest handwriting possible. I’m talking some serious Lord’s-Prayer-on-a-grain-of-rice microscopic script. I wrote down not only the date of every encounter, but a number of other characterizing details. Name, if I got one. A brief description, if I didn’t. Age, if I could tell. Where we met and where we played. Each encounter got a number. If I played with the guy more than once, I’d cross-reference so I could see how many times I’d been with the guy. I started recording every sexual act with a symbols that I could only decipher now by picking out encounters I remembered, recalling what I did during them, and figuring out that the + sign meant he sucked me, while the - sign meant I sucked him. An 0 meant a simple handjob; a @ was my subtle way of saying that I got fucked. The dollar sign meant something else. Industrious little beaver that I was, I managed to record every dollar amount guys offered me in exchange for my attentions. The first six months are kind of sketchy on details, but after I started keeping the list, I kept a tally not only of how much I got for each encounter, but a running total of how much I’d grossed to date. The cumulative total continues for about three years, when I reached a point that it seemed embarrassing to go on. Some of those details, though. Jeez. They bring back memories so sharp and strong that it’s a wonder that I ever forgot them. Chris. Redhead. 40. Apples. Bryan Park picnic table + - @ I probably haven’t thought about Chris, if that was his name, or his bright head of hair the color of a carrot, since the evening he picked me up by the waterfall in the park I used to cruise near my parents’ house. He smelled of green apples when I followed him from the tree where I’d pretend to be relaxing with my bike to the picnic shelter up the road. When he pulled me around the corner and thrust his tongue into my mouth by the empty stone fireplace, he tasted of apples, too. I remember how sweet and shy he’d seemed by the waterfall when he’d asked me if my folks knew I was out late. Once we were alone though, he’d been aggressive and hungry, making me strip my clothes off so that he could fuck me on my back, right there on one of the splintery wooden picnic tables. I had marks on my shoulders for a week after he was done slamming a load into me like some kind of rutting bull. Jim. Dk. hair mustache, 30. License plate LILJIM. Azalea Mall parking lot. - @ Oh, how I remember Li’l Jim, when I was fourteen. He had been staring at me from the window of his battered pickup truck for almost a half hour as I biked around the trails of the park. His mustache was like a bristle brush, and his eyes like obsidian. Like a good little redneck, he sported a confederate flag in the truck’s rear window and wore a red plaid shirt with his 501s. I couldn’t tell whether he wanted me, or whether he wanted to beat me up—not until I finally got up the nerve to bike close to the driver’s side window. When I looked at him, he looked down at his crotch. I followed his gaze and saw six inches of erect and dripping dick in his hand. He’d been stroking himself the entire time he’d been watching me. He drove us to the parking lot of a nearby mall and made me suck him until he fed me a load. Then he pulled down my pants, spanked me until my cheeks were red, and somehow managed to fuck me on the truck’s floor until he delivered another load in my hole. Then rough, tough Li’l Jim, so cocky that he’d put his own name on his license plate, broke down into tears and told me that he’d never fucked a boy before, but that his wife had given birth to a son three months before and that he was so horny that he hadn’t been able to stand it any more. Before I left, he extracted from me a promise to see him again, but he never showed at the time we set, and I never did see that pickup truck ever again. ? Blond bad skin, 45, chewing gum. Riverbank. - @ $50 “If you wear this and let me fuck you against that tree, I’ll give you this.” One of the blond man’s hand held a blue bandana, twisted into a rope. The other held a bill with the face of Ulysses S. Grant. He’d once been handsome, perhaps, but years of too much sun and tobacco had made him old and rough before his time. I remember nodding and hugging an oak that grew along the path by the riverside park. Both the blindfold and the tree’s bark bit into my skin as he pounded away at my butt with his small uncut dick. When it was over and I had sperm dripping down my leg, he zipped up, then snatched back his bandana without even unknotting it, and thrust it into his back pocket. Then he tossed the bill on the ground before I’d even managed to get my pants from around my ankles. I had to scramble for it before one of the nighttime summer breezes swept it off and into the James below. Each one of those lines is a story of its own, each with vivid sensations and scents and smells and associations of desire or repugnance. And yet, for every one that I remember with clarity, there are two or three more that mean nothing. Harry, 40, coconut oil green car means nothing to me, nor does the name Arthur Schulman, who gave me gifts of twenty or thirty dollars for mere handjobs, over and over again. There are dozens upon dozens of men whose names and faces I’ve forgotten, just as they’ve likely forgotten the skinny kid from the parks and restrooms who gave them a few minutes of temporary pleasure and respite from their everyday cares. Or, I don’t know. Maybe there are a few Chrises and Li’l Jims with occasional good memories of a really blond, bony, easy kid who made them feel good. It’d be nice to think so. The story in my head—the one I used to think was true before I realized I’d never destroyed the pages at all—was that after I turned seventeen, I added up the totals from the pages and realized that I’d hit a big milestone number of men I’d fucked around with. One of those big, round milestone numbers. Not so large that McDonalds would’ve changed their signs nationwide to trumpet it. It wasn’t 100 billion or anything. And it wasn’t mere encounters. That is, I wasn’t counting the second or more time I’d see a man. The number that startled me was of the actual different guys I’d sucked off or been fucked by, and it was a startlingly high number. Instead of swearing off sex, though, I decided to forego the bookkeeping from then on. I folded up the list and decided to shred it, so that no one would ever find it and know what a little tramp I’d been. Only I didn’t shred my records, apparently. I meant to. It seems as if I forgot, or put it off, and then assumed I’d done the deed, once the original impulse cooled. I’m glad I didn’t, in a way. The evidence of my sluttery is incontrovertible, but it’s a part of me I can honor these days. I did what I liked and enjoyed it. I followed my dick where it led me. And I have stories to tell and to remember because of it. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here While I spend the last couple of days of Easter break with the family, I'm going to post a few more of my responses to the formspring.me questions you've been asking. As always, I'll be happy to answer any other questions you guys might have, either privately through email or on that site. Don't worry. There'll be a real post tomorrow! Toys: For? Against? Who could be against toys? While I am wary of anyone who must have toys to have sex (like I am with anyone who requires anything to have sex, whether it be leather, or substances, or props), they can be fun. I'm fond of cock rings. I like using butt plugs and dildos on bottoms. I would really, really, really like to try a Fleshlight, though. If anyone out there has one they'd let me fuck, I'd be a grateful man. Heck, buy me one for my birthday. Please! Have you had sex with any Michigan elected official belonging to the Democratic Party? Thank you for giving me a question that made me laugh and laugh. I appreciate your confidence in me. Not to my knowledge, no. How often do you take it (and by "it" I'm referring to raw cock and loads of cum!)? Depending on my mood, my answer is either 'not very often,' or 'not often enough.' I was a big old bottom during my teens before someone showed me what I was missing as a top at about 21. I've only bottomed for a handful of men since. The last time was 6 years ago. There are times when I crave it, however. Ideally I'd enjoy being topped on a semi-regular basis by someone I find attractive and can trust. Every time during the last half-dozen years I've gone out to find someone to do it for me, though, the same thing happens again and again: we get naked, they see my dick, I end up topping them, they shoot during it, and pffft. There go my chances. When I am fucked, I prefer to take the dick raw and to have the load shot in me. Republican or Democrat. What's the strangest thing someone has requested during sex? Despite every depraved place I've stuck my dick, the absolute weirdest thing anyone ever asked me to do during sex was to get my hair soaking wet and to give him a blowjob while he shampooed me. In a bathhouse. For about ten minutes I got a soapy head massage until he delivered a load down my throat. It was actually pretty sensual. What's your favorite way to cum? While fucking. In an ass. Hands down. In the past, shooting while being fucked used to give me some pretty body-shaking orgasms as well. What are your thoughts on rimming - do you like? dislike? give? receive? I am a rim hound. Give me a clean, hot hole and I will be burying my furry face in that cleft for hours. I've had several guys shoot from my rim jobs. I tend to be very aggressive about it, too. I also enjoy being on the receiving end, but I'm shy about asking guys to do it. When getting rimmed, I enjoy from sweet and gentle to rough biting and everything in between. Watch any porn? Have any favorites? I watch porn, but I don't consider it a masturbation staple. I tend to prefer bareback films. I'll watch anything Treasure Island puts out. My favorite porn performers are Christian and Jesse O'Toole. I think Logan McCree is damned fine, as is Leo Giamani. What do you want for your birthday? For my last birthday I got a sweater. I really would rather have had a Fleshlight. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here I've got some family matters to attend to over this weekend, with it being the last of Easter break. In lieu of a post, I've rounded up some questions that people have been asking of me over on formspring.me. If you've been reading regularly, feel free to pop over to that page and ask what you'd like to know--anonymously or not. Additionally, please feel free to email me directly and I'll be happy to reply. I enjoy hearing from you guys! BOTTOM man, as well? I don't rule it out, but it doesn't happen much. I flipped from bottom to top in my early twenties and have rarely looked back. Have you ever been filmed engaged in sex? Str8 or Gay? I've been taped engaging in both gay and MMF sex. I dislike watching myself afterward, though. Have you ever pissed in a guy's hole? Indeed I have. However, to do it I have to be only half-erect or less, which means that if I'm still hard it won't happen. And I tend to stay hard for a few loads. I find a difficult time finding guys who can handle it as well; many men want it to be their freshman watersports experience, when I consider it strictly grad school material. Do you have any fetishes or anything that really turns you on or excites you sexually? I'm very easily aroused. I still have a big fetish for public sex in restrooms, rest stops, parks, and adult theaters, though I don't indulge in it as much as I did when I was younger (when I would take the day off and do those spots from sun-up to sundown). An unexpected encounter in a toilet still makes me shoot like nothing else, though. Another fetish of mine is totally dark anonymous scenes. Like a hotel room where I walk in the door and find the bottom butt-up and waiting in the dark. Or the dark room of a bathhouse or a bar, where you can't see whose mouth is on yours and what ass is around your dick. A friend of mine holds hotel blackout parties, in which he rents a suite and you'll have 20-40 men fucking in the total darkness. I love those. You first got fucked when you were 12?! Wow! This isn't really a question, but I can affirm it. Yes, I bottomed for my first fuck was at 12, during the month our nation was celebrating its bicentennial. How do you meet most of your tricks for fucking? Any particular web site that is your favorite? It's so easy to get guys (and gals) from online these days that it's almost exclusively how I meet people. My go-to site is usually Manhunt. It's got a huge population and there are usually men looking for action when you need it. However, there are a lot of men there who only want oral sex, or who are really inexperienced, and that's why probably the site I have most success with is barebackrt.com. At least the guys there are mostly into fucking. The problem with that site is that there aren't a great deal of men available in my locality. I've had a lot of success of getting guys from cam4.com, primarily because they can see me displaying the goods in real time--but the cam audiences are worldwide and I consider any scores I've made there to be pure luck. Adam4Adam.com and Craigslist work well for me when I'm on the road. In the area where I live, they both suck. I rely on Craigslist and swinglifestyle.com for the MMF action I enjoy. Do you have any to recommend? More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here I noticed the guy when I walked into the bar. In his gray, trimly-cut suit and shiny shoes, he stood out from the crowd of loose-topped women and gay guys of a certain age slathered with tanner and Abercrombie logos. His hair was longish, and curly, and silver at the temples; his nose was an enormous beak. With his dark eyes and sharp features, the overall effect was of a whippet-thin handsome Italian who’d just gotten off work and was slugging back a few drinks before his drive home. And he was staring at me as I walked in. His gaze continued to fix upon me as I sat down with my group of friends. Wednesday night I’d arranged for a couple of hours out at a gay bar that’s only a mile from my home, with a bunch of buddies I’ve known a long, long time. The bar itself is modern and updated and aspires for trendiness. It tends to attract a mixed crowd of gay men, straight women, and a handful of straight guys. The Italian was not at all straight, I was guessing as he craned his neck to continue staring at me. It’s not as if I was particularly dressed up. I wore a nice dress shirt and a pair of jeans and the ubiquitous sneakers, but I’d had to run in to the bar through the pouring rain and I felt bedraggled and soaked through. Perhaps, I thought, I looked worse than I suspected, and that he was staring at me like he might a train wreck. But no. The man was definitely staring at me. How could I tell? Well, other than the fact that his eyes bore down on me without respite, I was pretty sure I was getting the come-on when I looked over and began to rub himself through his trousers. His thumb and forefinger squeezed a lump that ran down his right leg, lasciviously kneading it while his glittering black eyes stared down mine. Then he took the heel of his hand and dug in, rubbing it against the spot where his dick lay. And in case I didn’t get the message, his fingers eased beneath the flap of his fly and moved slowly up and down. I blinked, then returned his stare. Where I grew up in the South, such kind of cruising is pretty common. It’s not seen much in the land of the Yankees, where men can’t even look at each other in the eye, much less maintain a steady and almost unnerving stare with the object of their interest. My immediate instinct was to rise from my seat, jerk my head at him, and let him follow me to the bathroom, so he could suck me off. I almost did it, too, but instead I turned my attention back to my friends. There were four of them around our little table. One was investigating his iPhone. Another was looking at one of the local gay rags. And the last two were regarding me with raised eyebrows and knowing smirks. “What?” I asked, already knowing the answer to the question. “I think you have a new boyfriend,” said one. “Oh do I?” I tried to look casual. By now the Italian was rubbing his beer bottle up and down the side of his dick. The brown glass left a slick wet spot where it traced. “Why does this kind of thing happen only to you?” asked the other, dryly. I narrowed my eyes. “Because I’m tall and handsome?” I asked, hoping it might be taken as rhetorical. “And easy,” my second friend retorted. Well. I couldn’t really argue with it, so I let it go. “He probably recognizes you from one of your sex profiles.” That could have been as well. As I looked back at the Italian, I noticed he’d moved further up the bar to display his wares from another angle. He lifted the beer bottle in my direction, took a swig, and then proceeded to fellate the neck. My two friends burst out in laughter. I couldn’t really blame them. After a solid five minutes or more of his single-minded come-on, the guy was seeming a little bit desperate. Plus it was obvious by now that handsome or not, he was more than a little drunk. I’d already made up my mind that no matter what my dick wanted to do, I wasn’t going to have a restroom assignation with the Italian. Not that night, not under the watchful eyes of my friends. I didn’t want to have to hear about remember that night you did that creepy guy in the bathroom? for the next several months. Again. My friend Terrence came in to the bar, then. Terrence is a older black guy, one of those social butterflies who makes it his objective to learn the life stories of every single person in every single bar he frequents—and he frequents them all. Immediately he came over and planted his hands on my shoulder on the friend next to mine, greeting us all. Almost immediately, the Italian made a beeline for Terrence. I wasn’t at all surprised that Terrence knew him. Over the bar’s clamor they talked for a moment. Finally, after the Italian shouted a request in his ear, Terrence turned to the table and started introducing people, one by one. I was last. Terrence introduced me by name. “I’ve known him since he was knee-high to a drag queen,” he said. “Hello,” said the Italian. He actually had an accent. “I am Giorgio.” Though he’d only nodded at the other guys at my table, he reached out and shook my hand. Hard. I mean, bone-crushingly hard. Then he didn’t let go. “Hi, Giorgio,” I said. Then I repeated his name. He stared meaningfully in my eyes, still squeezing my hand. I didn’t think he was ever going to let it go. After way, way too long, I had to withdraw it with force, and even then he continued to clutch at my fingertips. My friends snickered. The bar was doing karaoke, Wednesday night, and I had put my name in for a turn. Luckily the hostess called me up right then, so I had a good excuse to scoot away. I sang, received drunken applause from the audience, and then started to sidle through the crowd to return to my seat. Giorgio was blocking my way, at the end of the aisle. His beer bottle was planted squarely east to his dick. “You sing very well,” he said. I thanked him and tried to push past. “I bet you do other things very well, too.” “Ah,” I said, caught between laughter and horniness. “Perhaps.” He grabbed my arm and pulled me in close so he could talk directly in my ear. “I have had a bad day.” “I’m sorry!” I said, politely as possible. “I don’t want to have a bad night, too.” When he spoke, his breath was laden with alcohol and his speech was slurred. “I don’t want to have to masturbate. Alone.” “I’m with friends,” I said, pointing in their direction. “I came with them. I can’t just leave.” His lips brushed my earlobe. “You are sssssso sssssssexy.” I felt a hand grab my crotch and squeeze, hard. I yelped, and jumped back at the unexpected grope, knocking into the nearly-naked shots boy wandering behind me. I didn’t spill any of his test tubes filled with candy-colored alcohol, but it was a near thing. I did manage to squeeze past and return to my table, however, where by now all my friends had watched me leap a foot backward in the air. They all smirked as I sat down. “Just don’t say it,” I begged. Save for staring at me soulfully from across the bar for the rest of the time I was there, Giorgio didn’t say anything to me again. Not until I was pulling on my coat and preparing to head out into the bad weather again, anyway. At that point he rushed over. “Goodbye,” he said, calling me by name. He reached out for my hand and covered it with his own. “I hope we are friends now.” “Um, sure,” I replied. "Good friends, you and I.” “Of course.” Because you know, under any other circumstances. . . . When Giorgio pulled me forward and shoved his tongue between my lips to give me a long, sloppy, and beery kiss goodbye, he and I were the only persons in our vicinity not chortling in laughter. When he was finished, he smacked his lips, pointed his finger at my face, and then winked at me before stumbling off. “I didn’t realize he was so drunk,” said one of my friends. “That explains it,” said another. “Fuck you all,” was my grumpy response. More...

To see Breeder's original blog post click here I got a text message from Scruffy, Wednesday morning. What are you up to today, handsome? I was in the middle of something and couldn’t get right back to him. A couple of minutes later he sent another: I’ve really missed you and hope you’re free to get together. Text me? My dick was hard in my jeans when I punched out a message back: My bed is yours. Come over. I hadn’t seen Scruffy in too long. He was last here two weeks ago exactly. I’d invited him to come spend the next night while the spouse was out of town, but he came down with food poisoning or something at the last minute and had to cancel. It’s unusual that we’ve gone so long without seeing each other—for the last three months or so, it’s been at least once or twice a week, minimum, that he’s been naked and in my bed. Often it’s been more than that. I met Scruffy on Manhunt when one January morning he opened his photos for me without comment. The photos showed him as a tousle-headed, fair-skinned blond boy with an shy grin and a chin covered with a growth of bristly fuzz. The kid was completely adorable to me, though he resembled no one else more closely than Shaggy from the Scooby-Doo cartoons. I wrote and told him he was extremely cute; he was naked and at my place in less than twenty minutes. If only all online hookups were as quick and simple. Wednesday I met Scruffy at my side door and let him in. Once the door was shut, I leaned down from the upper stair where I stood and took his face between his hands. His mouth pushed out to meet mine; I felt his teeth rake against my lower lip as he sucked it in. “God, I’ve missed you,” I said, pulling him into me. He rested his head against my shoulder. “I missed you too. So much.” We made out by the door for a little while longer before I took him by the hand and guided him through my kitchen and living room to the stairs leading up to my bedroom. Once we were inside, he shoved me down onto the bed, straddled my waist, and grinned. My hand shot up to stroke his adorable face once more. “You are so damned pretty,” I told him. He always flushes when I praise his looks. He doesn’t believe me, I think, because he doesn’t yet believe it can be true. Part of Scruffy’s charm is that he doesn’t know how truly attractive he is; I think he looks in the mirror and sees a tall, awkward dork barely out of adolescence, an overgrown kid in dirty jeans and a Cereal Killers T-shirt. I look at him and see a handsome young man. Uncertain, perhaps. Undecided about what direction to steer his life, yes. But I see the prettiness and the sweetness of his face, and the sweet white skin of his body, and I can’t help but sigh with admiration, every damned time. “You’re the good looking one,” he said. I wouldn’t let him shrug off the praise. “Don’t make it sound like I’m fishing for compliments. You’re beautiful. Seriously. Own it.” We looked into each other’s eyes for a moment. Then he swooped down and devoured my mouth. His lips traveled down my jawline to my neck, to my ear, around the back of my head, to all the places he knew I liked. His hands reached for mine, and our fingers curled together. Then he forced them up and over my head until he had me pinned. Hungrily we kissed. Our tongues darted in and out of each other’s mouths. Then, with a fluid and beautiful motion that would have done a gymnast proud, he arched backward and raised his hands into the air. “Watch your fingers,” I said, warning him to avoid the ceiling fan overhead. He ignored me, crossed his hands at the back of his neck, and pulled off the Cereal Killers T-shirt and discarded it on the floor. Then he sat there and waited, watching me look at him. I took in his long, pale torso, with its pink little nipples and the trim waist. I looked at the little puffs of hair beneath his armpits, and the natural muscles beneath his arms, and the scuff on his elbow, and said, “You really are beautiful.” Scruffy’s grin is crooked, and bashful, and I’m always glad to see it. It was my turn to take control. I pulled him down to the mattress and held him in my arms, letting my fingertips dance up and down his stretched-out stomach as we continued to make out. Then my lips began to follow them, moving up and down his torso. I licked at his nipples and bit them gently to elicit his shivers. I ran my furry chin up and down his sides, and dug it into his ribcage, so that my beard could give him goosebumps. With his eyes closed he lay on the bed and sighed, and groaned, and writhed like a fish needing water as I kissed his soft, sweet stomach. My left hand expertly tugged at his belt and undid it, then unfastened the button of his jeans before I pulled down the zipper. Beneath the jeans he wore a pair of blue briefs. His cock was almost popping from the elastic band. I put my mouth on his hardness and exhaled. He gasped at the sudden feel of the warmth blooming around his dick, and tried to sit up. I wouldn’t let him; instead I pushed him back down, softly, quietly, and stood on the floor by the bed’s edge. My fingers hooked beneath the band of his briefs and prompted him to lift his hips. As if I were undressing a boy for bedtime, I pulled down his pants until they had cleared his waist. Then I tugged at the hem of his right leg, then his left, and gently removed his pants. Whether he believed it or not, Scruffy was beautiful just then. His right hand lay on his stomach as if he was abashed of his nakedness, with me still in my jeans and T-shirt. His dick lay in curve, looking like a thick, pink comma. His balls, shaved and smooth, hung low between his legs. I took his dick in my hand and squeezed. Immediately it began to harden and swell. His hips thrust in the air, involuntarily. He wanted to be sucked. I gripped the shaft right at the base and hooked my little finger around his nuts, pulling them up so they brushed my chin as I opened my mouth and worked my way down the shaft. Scruffy’s cock is almost as large as mine, though he prefers to bottom. It always hits me at the back of the throat an inch before I’ve swallowed it all, but I always manage to get it all in. He grunted when my lips touched bottom. To add to the sensations, I reached between his legs and tickled his hole. For a long time I sucked and played with his tackle, until I couldn’t stand it any longer. I had to eat his ass. I pushed Scruffy over so that he was lying face down. The kid has a beautiful, round, slappable butt, and he likes it treated roughly. I let my hand land on the right cheek with a loud smack that made him shudder and whimper. Then the left, leaving a red mark behind. Once more on the right, and then the left, and then I alternated between them with deliberate hand slaps that made more noise than caused any pain. Each time he jumped, and clutched the blanket. When his cheeks were blushing, I pushed them apart with my hands and dove in. I love to rim. I tell guys that I can rim for a long, long time, and they never believe me; I licked and sucked at Scruffy’s hole for over a half hour and I still wanted more. I’d dig my tongue in as far as it could go until I reached the slightly metallic-tasting inside of his hole. I spit in the hole and blew cool air in it to drive him crazy. I bit and nibbled at the cheeks just so I could listen to him yelp and moan. Then I’d bury my face in between those beautiful buttocks and lick and munch and gnaw and rub my beard over his skin while he breathed pleas and filthy obscenities. My own cock was rock hard while I worked him over. I could feel a puddle of my own precum in my shorts where I lay. When he tried to struggle free, I switched position and sat on his shoulders and continued rimming him from the other direction, just so he couldn’t escape. When I came up for air, he was begging. “Please,” he said. “Please let me see your dick. Let me taste it.” I didn’t say anything. I merely undid the top button of my jeans, then yanked open the other buttons of the fly. He was shaky as he sat up. “I really dig your underwear,” he said, burying his face between the denim flaps. I was wearing a pair of cheap Gap trunks with horizontal stripes in different shades of military tans and greens. “Can I have ‘em?” “Maybe,” I said. “If you do a good job.” He proceeded to do a very good job. I let him ease down my jeans and remove my socks. Then he proceeded to suck me. I’ve said before that I find it difficult to shoot from getting a blowjob, but with Scruffy I have been getting increasingly closer and closer to losing it in his mouth; I think he’s due to get a gullet full any time now. He also does this thing—words fail me at trying to describe it—with his mouth on my nuts. He’ll take my entire sac in his mouth and suck and suck and somehow manipulate it with his lips and tongue so that I end up squirming. He won’t touch my dick at all while he does it, but it still feels like those cum-churning last moments before I start to lose my load. For long minutes he kept me on edge until at last he very gently spat out my balls and said, “I want to eat your beautiful hole.” “Really?” I said, hopefully. “Fuck yes.” Without any ado he pushed my legs up in the air so that my ass met his mouth. "I love your hole!" Then he proceeded to rim me twice as vigorously as I’d done him. I don’t remember much about it. I just remember it felt very, very good. At some point he flipped me onto my stomach and ate me from behind, but then I found myself lying on my back and rimming him while he licked me out. Both of us were harder than cement and dripping all over each other by the time I lowered him onto his stomach. I sat beside him and played with his wet, open hole. “You know what I’m going to do.” “Yes,” he whispered. “You know I’m going to leave my seed in you.” “I know,” he said. “I want it.” “What do you want?” “I want your seed in me.” “What?” I said, feigning temporary deafness. “I didn’t hear you.” Louder and more clearly, he enunciated. “I want your fucking seed in me.” I didn’t have to lube him. I spread spit on the head of my dick, swung my legs over his, and began sliding in. “Go slow,” he said. “I haven’t been fucked since the last time we. . . .” I didn’t have to go slow. After a tiny bit of initial resistance, his hole opened wide and welcomed me. He let out a guttural noise that was more animal than verbal, and sank deep into the mattress. He pulled the pillow close and hugged it; I thrust my fingers beneath his armpits, guided them under the pillow, and ended up clutching his hands with mine as I began slowly to grind my hips. “You feel good,” I whispered. His voice was near tears. “I love sex with you. I love it so much.” "You need it, don't you?" His head nodded. "I need it bad. I need you. It's like your cock was made for my ass. Ever since the first day." I continued fucking while I whispered low and close into his ear. “I know you’ve got your own life. But when you’re here, when you’re with me, you’re my boy. I own you here.” “Yes,” he said back, nodding. I honestly thought he might cry. “Who are you when you’re here?” “Your boy,” he said. “Always and forever. Your boy. Oh god. I want it to keep on going and never stop. Don’t let it . . . stop . . . .” Still holding his hands, I fucked him sweetly. I used my knees to push his legs together and moved in and out. Scruffy excites me. He overexcites me, actually. I hadn’t been in him any longer than ten minutes than I began feeling the old familiar sensation, dragged up from the soles of my feet, that made my balls thrum like a speeding freight train. He knew by my increased breathing and the vigor with which I fucked him that I was getting close. “Breed me,” he said. “Please breed me. Please let me have your cum.” He kept begging for my sperm. When it finally came, I was silent—too busy trying to catch breath to make noise. I exploded in him with four or five gushes. “I can feel it,” he said, laughing and delighted. “I can feel it in me. Thank you. Thank you so much.” I was still rock hard when I rolled over with him onto our left sides. My arms held his chest. He tugged at his own dick maybe six times, and then contracted. His own orgasm was not quiet. In fact, my first panicked reaction was to remember that I’d neglected to close the windows, and that the whole neighborhood could probably hear. But I didn’t care. When he was finished yelling, he shivered all over, and lay very still and quiet in my arms. It was maybe four minutes later when he finally said, “I shot all over your pillow.” He rolled to show me the globs of semen that had soaked into the navy blue sheets. I didn’t care about that, either. I stayed in him, still inserting myself and withdrawing very slowly, until he began to move his ass in time with mine. It didn’t take him long. It never does. Spooning we lay there as I kissed the back of his neck. “You’re so wet,” I said. I took his hand and made him reach to feel where my dick was sliding in and out of his distended hole. “You feel that?” “Fuck yes,” he said. Over and over the said the words, sounding as if he spoke from the depths of a very good dream. “I love it. I love being with you. I’ve never had sex like this.” “You are so beautiful,” I told him again. I hoped he believed it. He twisted his neck so that we could kiss over his shoulder. I continued to fuck him until I came again. My second orgasms tend to arrive quickly. The sensation of my dick sliding in and out of my own wet, warm cum always excites me. I love the slippery sensuality of it. When I shot this time, he reached around and pulled at my ass, trying to drive me deeper inside him. “I don’t want to keep you if you’re busy,” he said, when I wiped him down with a towel. “I’m not busy." To prove it, I held the back of his head and pulled him to me. We intertwined and made out. Scruffy is one of those boys who doesn’t turn off once he’s shot. I love that about him. The kissing after we’d both come was as intense and passionate as it had been the moment he’d walked through the door. “I love being yours,” he whispered to me at last. “I like being your boy when I’m here. I think about it all the time.” “You are mine,” I told him, as I stroked his cheek. “Your hole,” he said. “Your cum dump.” He knows the words to say to arouse me. Within a few moments he was straddling me and sitting on my still-hard cock while jacking furiously at his own. “I wish you’d been the one who’d cunted me,” he said. “I wish you’d been in me first.” I held onto the wooden slats of the headboard, helpless. “I'm in you now.” “Yeah, I’ve got you, and you don’t get to go anywhere until I’ve got another load.” I honestly wasn’t sure if I’d have a third in me, but when he really started to buck and slam his butt against my hipbones, I suspected I might. “I’m going to fucking take you captive until you give me what I want. I'll fucking rope you to the bed if I have to. Your boy wants another fucking load.” “My beautiful boy,” I echoed. “Your goddamned hungry boy.” He pulled his feet forward and lay them flat on either side of me, then squatted over my dick so that he could bounce his ass up and down over it. The bed creaked in protest. “Your owned boy who wants another fucking load out of you.” I wanted to close my eyes and enjoy the sensations he was milking out of me, but he was too pretty to block out. Our eyes locked. “Give it to me!” he demanded. I usually dislike bottoms or cocksuckers who demand a load on a schedule, but I fucking love Scruffy. He does stuff to me few others can. I nodded, then grunted. A third load oozed out of my dick and into his hole. He felt my dick contracting and expanding and slammed down, greedily gobbling up every drop. I could feel his muscles trying to suck it in. “I’m going to keep it in there,” he said, beating himself wildly “I’m going to keep your hot sperm in me all day, the way I do every time we meet. Because that’s where it belongs. If I can’t have your dick in me all day, I want your nut in there.” “Promise me,” I said. “I promise you,” he said, loud and fervent. “I am never, ever going to push any of your sperm out of me.” “Why not?” I asked. We’d been through this catechism before. “Because I’m your boy,” he said. “You own me. Your boy.” He begged me to sit on his face while he jacked himself off. I lowered myself down on top of him while he continued to thrash his own meat in his fist. By the time he came a second time, he’d managed to make my hole feel as if it was having its own mini-orgasm. I was actually sorry it had come to an end when he panted, and heaved, and went limp, like a rag doll. We lay and talked for several minutes before he had to get up and leave. “Whose boy are you?” I asked before I let him out. He kissed me deep. “Yours,” he said. “For always.” My upper lip smelled of Scruffy all afternoon and evening. From time to time, whenever I had a private moment, I’d curl it up and breath deeply, and think about my beautiful, beautiful boy. More...