StlBottom

One less item on my sex-bucket list

Grew up in an era when white women hooking up, even marrying, was forbidden, illegal! in some states.  White men, especially as a bottom for  black males, made you the extreme low life in some peoples (small) minds.

Naturally, I was naturally attracted to black males at a young age.  Females too. 

If it outraged them, raised their blood pressure till they almost exploded, that was for me!

And it was, and still is, special to bend over for non-white cock. 

Like most everyone else, all cock is good when it is hard, bare and in in your ass.

jack into my mouth, want to taste it, need to at least swallow and spit before they cum, minimize dilution.  I suck for the cum

I have never stopped looking for condoms when i am outside where cars can park.  Lived close to a small state park on a power plant lake.  Nobody camped in the small campground, but the semi+ secluded campsites were well used by the locals.  Sat, Sun and Mon mornings were the best.  Couple of local parks had spots that always had at least one almost fresh cum filled condoms.  Swallowed, in my ass and cock, and smeared, i was in cum filled heaven.  Eighteen months and the job ended and had to move.

never required from anyone who fucked me.  never carried them with me.  A few used them, a few didn't, and a few said no thanks.  I never cleaned out, was always up front with that information.

Read about a study published by the nih, that found those who cleaned out had a significantly higher chance of being infected.  Theory was cleaning removed the protective barrier normally found in the colon.  Worked for me.  

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Smallest sucked was 3-4", less than a mouthful.  Smallest i ever tried to suck but could not - <2".  This was at a local park him standing up, me kneeling.  If he was on his back, probably could have. 

Felt really bad for the dude.  Damn.  I would be thinking of a sex change.

Have not found a Top interested in doing a video fucking me,  no face, just his cock and my face.  Have stopped looking locally. 

Cum, i want his cum.  i only suck to get the cum.  My preferred blowjob would end with him jacking off into my mouth after i had swallowed his precum and my saliva so as to not dilute his cum.  i want to taste it, savory it essence, how it feels in my mouth, swished through my teeth, coating he inside of my mouth, feeling it start to drip down my throat. Feel it fill my throat as i slowly swallow. 

Technically, yes, i was molested.  i never remember a time when i ever felt forced to do something, and there was never any violence, not even fun spankings.  Just sex.  Being everybody's bottom was truly me for as long as i can remember.   Always age appropriate stuff, feel good, gentle and lots of encouragement to be sexual, to have sex, with everyone.  I totally embraced it, jumped into the deep end, went looking for those looking for sex.  Was never bullied.  How can you bully someone you cannot embarrass by calling him a faggot and other descriptive descriptions when everybody knows he is whatever it is.  So school was as easy as i was.

Recently finished  two and 1/2 years of therapy (1/week to 1/month) for migraine after it put me in the hospital.   Was curious what it would do to my sexual persona.  Make me straight?   Make me VANILLA!  Would porn still turn me on?   Would i still want sex?

So far, as a result : 

i no longer needed anger management

i no longer drink, way too much, daily.  Now dry with no desire to drink alone.  I never saw that coming at all.  Still have 8+ cases of wine, 6 3L boxes/case, would have been gone by now (purchased shortly before hospital, local store going out of business, Great prices!  LOL,

And more stuff, too.  All good.  

Including the migraines.  Clean for over a year.

And as horny and perverted as ever.  Thankfully.

On 4/11/2021 at 10:02 AM, Cumfilledbottomboi said:

I’d totally do this but I wouldn’t be able to top. Especially locked in the chastity cage.

Not into chastity usually, but would insist,  do not want to break my no fuck ever oath.

On 2/7/2022 at 1:28 AM, Stealthed2006 said:

For me it is about being used and degraded. It goes back to my first fucks being broken in and told I was a dirty secret. Years later when people tried to make love to me tenderly and passionately, it failed to turn me on. I’d go out cruising to compensate and allow myself to be used by anyone in a seedy setting (and I mean anyone) 

Now the older I get, the more I want to be degraded, humiliated and used. If that means getting so drunk I pass out when used, or on all fours in a sauna whilst others watch, then fuck it.

I wasn't a secret, everything else spot on.   Always difficult for me to respond when 'making love',  would have to fantasize about my last/next park cruise.  From regular strangers to someone new, bareback friendly with everybody.  I miss those days.   I'm hoping to make some porn to post around, live cam stuff too.   

Sucking the guy who is next in line, then sucking the dirty cock that just finished.

Before getting old and out of shape and bent in a couple of places, and phones with camera's, had dreams of being used in homemade porn [unpaid].  And i am 1 of millions just like me, looking for their own taste of the apple.

adding to my prior comment, sexually i very much feel my sexual role is as a female - 98.7% is mental feeling only and 1% is physical, hence i have no desire to use makeup or partake in any activity when wearing female clothing that does not involve sex in some way. 

Why only sex and then as a slut in every sense of the word, why i would want my cock made into a cunt, but keeping the balls,    one on each side of my cunt, slammed into with every stroke when getting fucked, reminding me that i was a male once

yes, and have my virginity taken before being born [if that is possible]

Was not my choice.  My choice would have been Bi-Top, probably into the same stuff as now, and not into the same stuff.  Unless that part of my brain changed too.

After several years of adult sex exploring most everything that sounded interesting to me.   being extremely promiscuous, sex with anyone, especially strangers, no cuddling after, no kissing, petting, an okay substitute for jacking off.

On 1/24/2022 at 11:05 AM, coastalbender said:

You and every other bottom (including me).

Bottoms in the area (stlouis) seem to become reluctant when they are given an opportunity to be photographed, make a video or have a cam session. And most Tops seem have very shy cocks, which has been a real surprise.  Only my face and/or ass and his cock, but no takers.

On 1/17/2022 at 4:33 PM, James1796 said:

You should insist upon it. I was appalled by the idea until a forceful top made me do it, but liked how slutty I felt afterwards. So overcame my disgust and kept doing it til I liked it. Now I do it every time but not every top likes it, some are a bit freaked out. Others a bit sensitive after cumming. Should be a compliment that I want to taste them 😜

Have had similar experience's with tops who freaked when i wanted to suck his cock.  A few got rather upset about it, said there where disgusted, never hookup again.  They made jacking later so much hotter.  One guy did came back, turned into a real nasty top.  He was hooked on how he felt, just as i was hooked on how it made me feel.  We fed off of each other.  Would be nice to find someone similar.

Male or female, i would be all for it.

10, my sister's bf [both 15].  she talked him into it by a combination of he can't fuck her anymore and she will yell rape.   He was happy to comply and so was i.  This was right after school was out for the summer.  Sis and i went home for lunch, after lunch, i went back to what was now our bf's house.

  i was introduced to many other Tops that summer, many times introducing myself to anyone i heard liked long-haired, fem boys like me.  From that time on, i looked at every stranger i encountered, any age,  for any tell they might flash as to their interests. 

Have always enjoyed cleaning a cock fresh from cumming in my or any other ass.  The dirtier the better.  Especially like when 2 guys take turns in my mouth and ass, rotating when the cock in my ass needs cleaning. 

My sister was 5 yrs older and was giving me baths and other stuff mom was to busy to do herself.  She, and her friends stuck fingers and other stuff in my ass, dressed me as a girl, and enjoyed playing [abusing]  with my cock and balls.  At 10 she took me to her bf's house for my first real cock in my ass and atm.  With no way to do a clean out without being caught by his mom (or our mom at home), dirty atm became something i was known for.

Later that year she told my mom's bf that i was was available.  I never looked back, seemed so natural to be used, so easy, and felt so good.

Definitely not looking to be or want to be hiv positive. 

my sexual role it to submitting to anyone, everyone, as anonymously as possible, with no intimacy, just sex, just sexual pleasure for the cock fucking me.  Made even better if i am submitting not only to the cock fucking me but also to the voyeur who sexually owns me for her/his/their pleasure too.

7 hours ago, JustSluty said:

I will do IT for sure.

Something to look forward to and dream about until then