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[submissivebottom74]

As I have been sober as of the 11th for 7 months, I have began thinking. Spending my time practicing piano to posting on my tumblr, I have began to recollect information from when I started my first drug ever in December 2014. Before that time, I had never had a drug in my life, including marijuana (THC allergy) and didn't drink alcohol very often. Yes, I was very open and no inhibitions sexually, but after my introduction to meth through booty bumps and slams, I found that I was more open to idea's in public.

 

The first time I was given a booty bump and slam, the booty bump was given to me 7 times and the slam, 9 times, in a three day period the very first time. I remember watching video's that these guys took of me and what actually happened (as I did not recall anything.) I went to different adult shops and adult theaters, gas station bathrooms, etc... and they video taped me cleaning the floors, walls, toilets, with my tongue and using me as a toilet as well. Though I don't remember, it looked as if I was having a great time.

 

As time went on, I could recall images and other things that I did, that I normally would not have done in public. The question is, does this happen to anyone else? I kind of miss having someone blindfold me and take me to a place without my knowledge. I don't know, what are your thoughts?

[einathens]

my first thought is that these guys are not your friends.

 

my second thought is, you're lucky you didn't end up dead from overdose, violence, or accident.

 

my third thought is, drugs are a great excuse. they let you rationalize truly insane behavior and absolve yourself of responsibility for your actions.

 

and finally, relinquishing control of your body and mind is scary enough when you're sober. what would you do if things go wrong and you're incapable of processing the information you need to save yourself? 

 

being a blindfolded cumdump shouldn't require chemical enhancement. if it does, it's not an activity you're ready for.  what's the hurry?