I'm a Straight Man, But Want Gay Sex

[austin_submale]

3 hours ago, Yog1B3ar said:

I'm happily married man pre covid times I was getting more curious about gay sex and I watched lot gay porn and decided I wanted to try it. The first time I done it was as a bottom and not looked backed since its the best feeling ever. I even done bareback, I love the feeling of been used.

I love that too...

[Guest]

On 11/9/2021 at 4:44 PM, ohmalewhore said:

If you desire to experiment sexually with men, but are in a committed and sexual relationship with a woman ... then it's not gay sex. This is just a fantasy right now. Until you embrace the idea of being sexually active with a man and then take the next step, it's just a fantasy. Once you finally are intimate with a man, it's still not "gay sex." You're just having sex with a man - that's it. You're not gay. It's not gay.

But the only way you can determine if you want to move beyond the fantasy realm is to find a man and do it. Once you've enjoyed it, and keep going back to it, then you're crossing into a different territory. I know. I was there once. I was married, she got raped, I tried to make things work with her but she could not allow a man to touch her again, even me who had loved her for years. After we split, I began to explore BDSM as a submissive to women and they began to show me there was more to sex than just what straight porn shows.

As things moved along, one dominatrix in particular saw something in me - a desire to explore things sexually with men. She saw how I interacted with other male slaves in her stable and how I loved watching them play for her benefit. Her and I went different ways, as she wanted to move back west to the wetlands of Washington. But a chance encounter with three men outside a tranny bar soon showed me she was right. Being dragged into a van and "raped" altered me. I put the term "rape" in quotes because the first 3 times - once by each man, I wanted no part of it but I think deep down somewhere inside I really did because after each man had a turn I begged for another go. Two of the men - the ones who grabbed me - accommodated my request and because of it they let me walk away back to where they'd taken me from with me actually happy. Then guilt set in, then denial.

I tried to distance myself from that entire thing, went "straight" again and got engaged to a woman. She died at the hands of a drunk and I found myself once more floundering. Another chance encounter with a man showed me that my trip into man-on-man sex was far from over. We chatted for weeks online before he let on he was gay. We still met at a gay bar after work one evening and eventually things got hot in the bar between us. Before he could initiate the pickup, I begged him to take me back to his place. 5 minutes of a drive and an hour later I was feeling him cum in my ass and enjoying every moment of it.

Again I felt overjoyed when I left, but then the guilt and denial returned .... this time not as intense. Him and I chatted about it that night and the next night and met at the same bar that Friday night. Same result - we went back to his place and he fucked me. Several more times after that we did the same thing - I would talk to him about how I was feeling guilty and feeling that the sex we had was somehow making me wrong inside, he would listen and then talk a bit and eventually we'd meet up again and end up back in bed.

Finally after about 6 times of this he just came out and asked me when the last time was I thought about sex with a woman or even had sex with one. I admitted that I'd not thought about women since we fucked that first night. We fucked several more times before he got a transfer to Houston and I only rarely ever heard from him again when he'd come into town on business and want to "pound my pussy" for old times sake. But in all that time (about 2 years before he stopped calling because he got engaged to another man) I never once had sex with a woman and rarely, if ever, thought about a woman sexually.

Today some 15 years removed from him I still don't see myself as "gay" but I do know that it'd be nearly impossible for any woman to ever get me hard enough for sex, let alone have sex with a woman. But when I've ventured to a local ABS and gone into the theatre area or other common areas I've always been highly aroused, very horny and very eager to become somehow intimate with at least one man there.

When you can say you've given up women altogether and find 100% total attraction in every facet of sex and intimacy with a man, then you're having "gay sex."

Shame is pointless.

[Jaygusher]

If you want to fuck guys, you’re gay. If you want to fuck girls, you’re straight. If you want to fuck guys and girls, you’re bi. 
 

This isn’t rocket science. It’s clear black and white logic. No amount of rationalization is going to give you the straight title while still wanting dick.