My first time taking cock and bareback

[lalala2552]

I will try and keep this short as possible. I am a 33 year old "Straight" guy. Never had any issues getting girls. Over the last few years I have become more and more obsessed with gay porn to the point where it was all i watched. All I would watch was breeding porn, glory holes, cumdumps etc but every time I came I felt guilty and would close down the laptop and move on. I must have downloaded squirt, grindr at least 50 times and instantly deleted it. I did try a few times with guys but I was so nervous and out of my depth that they weren't great experiences. I did suck one guy to the point of him cumming in my mouth, that was hot but I struggled to get hard.  So I just went back to my regular "straight dating" . The sex with girls was always hot but after a while it got boring and I was back wanking off to breeding porn

 

The problem was, I was never really attracted to men, mostly just cock and ass, so to me I wasn't "gay" but why in gods name did I fantasize and watch no holds barred breeding porn. all the time?? All I wanted to do was go to a bathhouse/ theatre , take my cock out and stick it up a hole and dump my load. I didn't want to kiss, touch, just drop loads in dirty cumdumps. But I also knew the danger in doing this so I always stayed on the sidelines. I recently got out of a relationship and AGAIN went back to the gay porn. I was at the stage where I was like " dude you have been watching this for years, its time to take the plunge, you will regret it if you dont. I always thought it was "Weird" that I didn't find EVERY guy attractive cos in my mind Gay= attracted to all men. stupid lol 

 

 I wrote down what I like: 

Trans 

Twinks/fem asians with no body hair 

 

So with all my failed attempts I decided to go slowly, I had to get this experience right or I would regret living " a straight life" . So I went online and booked an appointment with an TS escort that had good reviews. I got to hers expecting to top. she started to lube my dick, I again was very nervous like the past few times but this time I brought my friend Viagara with me. 

I calmed down and just went with it and before I knew it I was gagging on her cock with my rock dick also rock hard. She then started putting lube on her fingers and putting the fingers into my ass. I thought " this is strange , I am the top" I went with it as it was enjoyable, she started off with one finger , then two then 3... I liked it, I assumed since she was an escort raw was out of the question and she was from  a reputable site and had many reviews. Next thing I know she sticks her raw dick in my ass... it was GIRTHY , at first I was like  " fuck we are doing this raw" but then I was like "dude you haven't used condoms in ten years, dont pretend like you want her to put a condom on" . She then said " I am on prep, do you want me to put on a condom or will i keep fucking you raw" I didn't even answer.... I spread my cheeks and she went to town wanking me as she fucked me ( missionary style) 

 

This was the first time I was fucked so it was quite painful but I kept breathing and pushing my ass outwards ( I read this helps somewhere? lol) . I begged for her load inside me, then the pain went from soar to ecstasy and next thing I know I am cumming all over my stomach while she is fucking me raw. We had been fucking for a while and my ass was soar as fuck so unfortunately she didn't come inside me . I had gone from expecting to fuck her with a condom to getting fucked by a raw cock and cumming while she fucked me so it was a lot to take in. I got up and left but the best part was, I felt ZERO guilt, zero shame and I thought it was hot as fuck. She wasn't the hottest TS but just thinking of her raw dick inside me makes me so hard. I immediately went home and set up a consultation with a doctor to get on prep. I tried going through the public sector but thee wait list was months so i am paying $200 to skip the queue. My appointment is March 10th. I hope I can start taking prep that day or do they give you the prescription after they have done your testS? 

 

I have downloaded grindr and already have a few twinks and trans lined up for when I am on prep. I feel zero shame and can't wait to start barebacking, I dont know whether I will continue my plan to top or after this escort encounter start bottoming. All I know is I will take my time and this feels 100%% right. I even had a wank today to some glory hold porn, again zero guilt, my jaw was nearly at my knees looking at it. Not sure what changed, maybe I just accepted what I like ? I read  online a few days ago, someone saying the had the same nerves and issues I had and the only way to fix it was to just keep pushing through and eventually it will get easier... 

 

I am going to Toronto end of March for work, I used to live there and know from research they have some slutty theatres bathhouses, I really just want tot bareback through a gloryhole or dark room.. As I mentioned , not necassarly turned on by guys face etc but a good ass and cock with the addition of the sleaziness of fucking through a hole or dark room drives me insane and this is me writing this after a wank. Normally I turn off the laptop and go back to my straight life . Now I just want to breed, I unfortunately have to wait until I get on prep and its going to be hard waiting until March but there's zero chance I am putting a condom on, I just can't do it. I haven't used one in years and my biggest fetish/turn on is the sleaziness of breeding another man. I know prep won't help me with STDs but I have to be honest with myself, I can't lie anymore. I want to breed ass, I want to fuck dudes through glory holes and not pull out, I want to cum inside a man in a darkroom and leave...

 

I am so fucked amnt ? The fact I am saying this one day after being fucked and having another wank and still thinking this is the thing I want really leads me to believe I am.... 

 

 

 

[Pigforcum]

That's so hot. Congrats and glad you enjoyed it

[h2d2]

Well played so far. You are on the right path, being true to yourself.  Top, bottom, verse - you will find your place... 

[lalala2552]

thanks for the support! 

 

onwards and upwards, I will take my time! 

[WimBi]

Welcome to the other side!

[Portbtm]

Well done. You'll love PrEP. I started on it earlier this year and haven't looked back. I've had so many raw loads in me since!

[Whitehole]

On 2/22/2022 at 7:56 AM, lalala2552 said:

I will try and keep this short as possible. I am a 33 year old "Straight" guy. Never had any issues getting girls. Over the last few years I have become more and more obsessed with gay porn to the point where it was all i watched. All I would watch was breeding porn, glory holes, cumdumps etc but every time I came I felt guilty and would close down the laptop and move on. I must have downloaded squirt, grindr at least 50 times and instantly deleted it. I did try a few times with guys but I was so nervous and out of my depth that they weren't great experiences. I did suck one guy to the point of him cumming in my mouth, that was hot but I struggled to get hard.  So I just went back to my regular "straight dating" . The sex with girls was always hot but after a while it got boring and I was back wanking off to breeding porn

 

The problem was, I was never really attracted to men, mostly just cock and ass, so to me I wasn't "gay" but why in gods name did I fantasize and watch no holds barred breeding porn. all the time?? All I wanted to do was go to a bathhouse/ theatre , take my cock out and stick it up a hole and dump my load. I didn't want to kiss, touch, just drop loads in dirty cumdumps. But I also knew the danger in doing this so I always stayed on the sidelines. I recently got out of a relationship and AGAIN went back to the gay porn. I was at the stage where I was like " dude you have been watching this for years, its time to take the plunge, you will regret it if you dont. I always thought it was "Weird" that I didn't find EVERY guy attractive cos in my mind Gay= attracted to all men. stupid lol 

 

 I wrote down what I like: 

Trans 

Twinks/fem asians with no body hair 

 

So with all my failed attempts I decided to go slowly, I had to get this experience right or I would regret living " a straight life" . So I went online and booked an appointment with an TS escort that had good reviews. I got to hers expecting to top. she started to lube my dick, I again was very nervous like the past few times but this time I brought my friend Viagara with me. 

I calmed down and just went with it and before I knew it I was gagging on her cock with my rock dick also rock hard. She then started putting lube on her fingers and putting the fingers into my ass. I thought " this is strange , I am the top" I went with it as it was enjoyable, she started off with one finger , then two then 3... I liked it, I assumed since she was an escort raw was out of the question and she was from  a reputable site and had many reviews. Next thing I know she sticks her raw dick in my ass... it was GIRTHY , at first I was like  " fuck we are doing this raw" but then I was like "dude you haven't used condoms in ten years, dont pretend like you want her to put a condom on" . She then said " I am on prep, do you want me to put on a condom or will i keep fucking you raw" I didn't even answer.... I spread my cheeks and she went to town wanking me as she fucked me ( missionary style) 

 

This was the first time I was fucked so it was quite painful but I kept breathing and pushing my ass outwards ( I read this helps somewhere? lol) . I begged for her load inside me, then the pain went from soar to ecstasy and next thing I know I am cumming all over my stomach while she is fucking me raw. We had been fucking for a while and my ass was soar as fuck so unfortunately she didn't come inside me . I had gone from expecting to fuck her with a condom to getting fucked by a raw cock and cumming while she fucked me so it was a lot to take in. I got up and left but the best part was, I felt ZERO guilt, zero shame and I thought it was hot as fuck. She wasn't the hottest TS but just thinking of her raw dick inside me makes me so hard. I immediately went home and set up a consultation with a doctor to get on prep. I tried going through the public sector but thee wait list was months so i am paying $200 to skip the queue. My appointment is March 10th. I hope I can start taking prep that day or do they give you the prescription after they have done your testS? 

 

I have downloaded grindr and already have a few twinks and trans lined up for when I am on prep. I feel zero shame and can't wait to start barebacking, I dont know whether I will continue my plan to top or after this escort encounter start bottoming. All I know is I will take my time and this feels 100%% right. I even had a wank today to some glory hold porn, again zero guilt, my jaw was nearly at my knees looking at it. Not sure what changed, maybe I just accepted what I like ? I read  online a few days ago, someone saying the had the same nerves and issues I had and the only way to fix it was to just keep pushing through and eventually it will get easier... 

 

I am going to Toronto end of March for work, I used to live there and know from research they have some slutty theatres bathhouses, I really just want tot bareback through a gloryhole or dark room.. As I mentioned , not necassarly turned on by guys face etc but a good ass and cock with the addition of the sleaziness of fucking through a hole or dark room drives me insane and this is me writing this after a wank. Normally I turn off the laptop and go back to my straight life . Now I just want to breed, I unfortunately have to wait until I get on prep and its going to be hard waiting until March but there's zero chance I am putting a condom on, I just can't do it. I haven't used one in years and my biggest fetish/turn on is the sleaziness of breeding another man. I know prep won't help me with STDs but I have to be honest with myself, I can't lie anymore. I want to breed ass, I want to fuck dudes through glory holes and not pull out, I want to cum inside a man in a darkroom and leave...

 

I am so fucked amnt ? The fact I am saying this one day after being fucked and having another wank and still thinking this is the thing I want really leads me to believe I am.... 

 

 

 

Have you breed an ass yet?

[NannerMan]

I relate to this so much. Im 28, been watching breeding porn and sissy hypno porn for almost 10 years, never worked up the courage to bottom yet.

My New Year’s resolution was to get on prep and go for it this year and see what happens. I really need to take the leap

[Whitehole]

On 4/9/2023 at 10:05 AM, NannerMan said:

I relate to this so much. Im 28, been watching breeding porn and sissy hypno porn for almost 10 years, never worked up the courage to bottom yet.

My New Year’s resolution was to get on prep and go for it this year and see what happens. I really need to take the leap

Same here. Looking forward to hearing your new experience