Confessions from a Neg Guy

[Promiseyoullpullou]

I'm new here, so I should introduce myself. I'm William. I live in NYC and have spent time living in other places too. I'm one of those who considers himself straight. . I love fucking a wet pussy and have only ever dated girls, but there is a darker side to me. Not only do I love bareback sex (I can't remember the last time I used a condom) but I also enjoy bareback sex with guys. It's been a gradual progression from jerking off some random guy in a book store glory hole, to knowingly taking a raw poz cock in my ass.

When I finally got brave enough to have sex with a guy, the first time was in one of those digital movie porn booths. Some guy came inside the small box and somehow it just happened, I ended up sliding my bare cock in his ass and fucking him until I shot my load deep inside him. This went on for a while, me topping holes bareback, at book stores, bath houses, and the such. Eventually it was my turn to get fucked. It was late one night, I had met him on AOL, and I ended up at his house. He had a beautiful cock and I knew I had to have it inside me. He put a condom on and began to fuck me. I was enjoying the fact I discovered I loved to bottom. At some point, I was riding him and pulled his cock out, sliding the rubber off. I immediately slid him back inside me. He began to pump me, then I felt something warm running down my legs. it wasn't his cum, but rather my own shit. This being my first time, I didn't realize this could happen. I ran to the bathroom and he proceeded to shower. Night over.

That was in 1996. Since then I moved to Los Angeles and discovered a couple bath houses in the valley. North Hollywood Spa and Roman Holiday Spa. Both bring back so many fun memories. From time to time I would find myself nervously parking and rushing inside in the early morning hours. From there I would end up topping a tight raw hole, or sometimes letting myself get fucked. Never did a guy cum inside me (as far as I know). I always asked the top his status and he always told me he was neg. One late night, I was drunk and in my rented room. Some guy came in and shut the door behind him. I always kept the lights down so I couldn't really see him and to this day i have no idea what he looked like. I ended up fucking him, really going to town on his hole. My cock is around 7 inches uncut and of average girth, but I do have great hip movement and I seem to fuck pretty good, ladies and men. So I was fucking this guy and as I am getting close to cumming he asks me if I am poz. i tell him no, that I'm neg. He answers that's okay cause he is poz. My brain froze knowing I was barebacking a poz bottom. I was terrified and incredibly turned on at the same time. I shot a huge load.

So I had my first bareback poz experience under my belt. I would never do that again I tell you. Except something had been stirred inside me. Now I began to think about BB sex with poz people, men and women. From this point, I began to actively seek out poz bottoms. Over the next couple years I bred several poz bottoms, all the while enjoying the 'risk'. In addition I was fucking as many girls as I could, giving them my seed as well. I didn't get fucked very often, and I never had a guy blow his load in my hole. Until that time in New Orleans.

I found myself in a bar called Rawhide. I was very drunk and very horny. I felt free to explore the "gay" section of New Orleans, because I was in town alone. So I was in this bar, and somehow ended up with my cock in some guy's mouth. My pants had dropped to the floor and the bar crowd was watching with enthusiasm. As I was getting blown, a worked out black guy came in behind and started rubbing his cock on my crack. Between the blowjob and the cock teasing me, I was in heaven. Slowly the black guy started to push inside me. For some reason I asked him if he was wearing a condom. He told me yes. So, the black guy was fucking me and whoever was sucking my cock. I reached back at one point and felt his cock sliding inside me. I didn't think i felt a condom. I could feel my balls swell and I began to shoot into this guy's mouth. He swallowed every drop sucking my balls dry. Just then as I was coming down off my orgasm high, the black guy withdrew from my ass and walked away. I was standing in the middle of the bar with my jeans around my ankles while everyone clapped. I was embarrassed. I went into the bathroom. I looked in the mirror. The black guy was washing his cock in the sink next to me. It made me wonder why he was washing himself. I asked him if he had worn a condom and he told me 'no'. I asked him if he came inside me and he laughed, asked me what I thought he did, then walked away.

This kind of covert fun went on for years. But I felt myself begin to crave something more risky, something more taboo. I chatted on-line with many poz tops who always said they would fuck me. Some I told I was neg, others I said I was poz, and some didn't even care to ask. One of these on-line friends was actually a couple. They lived a few miles from me in Studio City. I chatted with them back and forth, they invited me over a few times, to which I always chickened out. Then I would jerk my cock into a frenzy thinking about a poz cock slide bareback inside me. Well one night I came home from the bars, was quite tipsy, and got on-line. I found one of them (the top) online. He said he and his boy had been partying all night and that the boyfriend was asleep. I asked him if he wanted me to come over. He said 'yes'. Decision time. I said "fuck it." My drunk brain rationalized I must have had raw poz cock in my ass before, now I was just going to do it knowingly.

before I changed my mind and I got in my car and drove to their apartment. My heart was racing a million miles an hour. I called from the door and he buzzed me in. After a short ride on the elevator I was standing at their door. I knocked. The poz top opened the door inviting me in. He was short, thinning on top and was wearing glasses, but because he was naked, I could see what I came for. His cock was hard and staring at me. I quickly entered the bedroom. His boyfriend was laying on their bed, eyes closed, quiet snores coming from him. I asked if we would wake him up. The poz top told me his man was out of it, from lack of sleep and party favors. He told me that he had fucked him an hour before and the boyfriend didn't even move. He told me to feel the ass crack. It was sticky with cum. I was on fire. I had poz cum on my fingertips.

I got naked and we lied down on his bed, away from the boyfriend. We began to kiss and touch. I thought my heart was going to burst through my chest. I was rock hard. He began to suck my cock. As I lay there my cock in his mouth, I was turned on how good my cock felt in his poz saliva drenched mouth. Still I was so nervous. But I knew what I wanted. I wanted his raw poz cock inside me. I quickly pulled away from him and turned him so he was laying on his back. I saw some lube on the night stand. I grabbed the bottle and lubed my crack up good and wet. Then I positioned myself on top of him, kissing him. I held the shaft of his cock and rubbed it back and forth along my crack. I couldn't believe I was doing this. i knew I should leave right then and there, but instead I positioned his cockhead to my hole and let gravity do its job, my body sliding down on him, his cock sliding inside my ass.

It had been done! I had finally let a bareback poz cock inside me. I could feel him begin to piston his hips. I moved my body trying to sync his movements. This was the hottest fucking I had ever had. Just knowing I had crossed that taboo and knowingly exposed myself to hiv had me hard and in a dream like lust state. I worked my hips, grinding his cock, forcing him into me as far as he would go. As I road him, I reached over and ran my fingers up his boyfriend's ass, scooping up the poz cum that was oozing out. I then fed the poz cum to the poz top. He eagerly sucked my fingers clean.

I was really enjoying this. He had started to tweeck my nipples and started making moaning sounds. Before this he had just been quiet and fucked me silently. I started to jerk my own cock, which now leaking precum. I tasted my own seed, all the time pleasuring the poz top, who's moans were getting quite loud at this point. He was clearly really into it. I told him how I loved taking his poz cock bareback. His fucking slowed to a stop. He was still inside me and I could feel his hardness. He asked me if I was poz. I told him I was neg, but it was okay he was poz. I guess I said the wrong thing.

He immediately pulled out of me and told me it was time for me to go. That it was late and he was really tired. not much for me to say. So I threw my clothes on and left their apartment. I went back home, still so hard from what had just happened. I jerked myself off and came buckets thinking about how I had just crossed the line. I e-mailed him several times never getting a reply. Similarly he never responded to my IMs. Finally one day he replied, but it was actually the boyfriend. I asked him why the top disappeared. He told me that the top was pissed because he said I had told him that I was poz in our conversations. Honestly, I don't know if I did or I didn't. I asked the bottom if he thought the three of us could ever play and he didn't reply. That was the last time I ever heard from either one of them.

So many emotions and thoughts ran through me. I knew I shouldn't get fucked bareback by a poz top, but I was past it and I knew it was only a matter of time before I did it again.

Edited June 9, 2011 by Hotload84

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[Hotload84]

Interesting tale. Captures the lure of the forbidden. Nicely done, PromiseYou'llPullOut.

[Promiseyoullpullou]

I've never knowingly taken any poz loads. I do know I swallowed a poz load, but that is another story coming soon.

[Promiseyoullpullou]

My posts are going to jump around a lot, but "bare" with me. I hope you like my stories. It feels so good to have a place where I can "unload" my personal experiences.

It was Jan 2010 and I was drunk. I'd been drinking with friends all day and now I was home, horny, and on the computer cruising. As you read more of my stories, you'll learn I'm one of those guys that get hot chatting with poz guys online, but when the time comes, I usually chicken out. Even though I took the big step of knowingly taking bare poz cock a few years ago, I still get nervous.

On this drunken night, I was horny. Super horny. And super drunk. I hopped on A4A and was seeing who was available. I saw one guy who I'd chatted with several times, but had never done anything about it. His name is Bryan. I don't remember his screenname because he deleted his account a month after this story.

Anyways, whether the moon and the stars were aligned or something was in the water, my itch needed to be scratched. I hadn't been fucked since Halloween of 2008. From chatting with him, I knew he did bareback, but when I asked his status he told me he was neg. I thought this interesting because I also chatted with another guy who had dated Bryan previously. and that guy was poz. But oh well. My pickings were slim this late so I decided to fuck Bryan.

I said fuck it. I gave him my address. I told him my apartment would be dark and he would find me in the bedroom, naked and waiting.

He told me he would be there in twenty minutes. I used the time to take a quick shower and wash my ass. I am not yet to the point where I douche, but I did use a soapy finger to massage my hole for a minute. I dried off, turned out all the lights, put a blanket over my bedroom window, making it pitch black. I left the front door slightly ajar. Now I waited. I was lying on my bed when I heard the front door open. he said hello. I called for him to follow my voice back to my bedroom. I heard him enter the room. I told him I was already naked. he took his clothes off.

As he walked to my bed, I felt with my hands and found his legs. I moved them and quickly found his cock. His hard cock.

I immediately began to suck him off. I was so fucking horny and loved feeling his hard cock in my mouth. I did this for a few minutes, moans escaping from his mouth telling me he was enjoying it. Then I pulled him onto the bed with me.

We kissed a little, moving our lips and tongues around each others necks and chests.

I grabbed the bottle of lube I had stashed under my pillow. I wanted to get fucked, so there was no time like now. I poured an ample amount on my hand and proceeded to lube his shaft and my crack. Then I turned around on my knees and placed him behind me. I told him to fuck me. I was like a cat in heat. I hadn't taken a load (that I know of) since March 2006, and tonight was the night I wanted my next one.

he pushed inside me. I could feel his hard cock sliding inch by inch deeper in me. He didn't have the biggest cock, maybe six inches, but it was doing the trick right then.

He started fucking me. really good fucking too. He took me doggy style, on my back, on my side, legs, up, legs down, and I rode him. We were really into it and I started talking dorty to him. As we fucked we were having a conversation about bareback fucking. I told him how I loved it and it seemed to be all I did anymore, but I hadn't been fucked in a while. I told him I had been topped by poz guys, but that they never came (that I know of) and that I had deposited my load in several poz bottoms. I asked him if he had barebacked with poz guys before and he told me he had. I asked him if he ever took a poz load when he bottomed. He didn't answer me. So I asked him again if he was neg. he said he was. The monet and all the dirty talk was getting to me because I started telling him how hot I thought it would be to feel a raw poz cock shoot inside me. he told me he thought it was hot too.

All the while, he is plowing my hole. I am really, really enjoying this.

After a little while more, he asks me where I want him to cum.

Decision time.

I really, really wanted him to explode inside me and send his seed deep in my belly. But for some reason I felt nervous about something.

He told me to answer fast.

I asked him if he was neg again. I told him if he was really poz, it was okay to be truthful. He again told me he was neg.

He told me he was getting close to cumming.

I decided.

I took his cock out of my ass and quickly slid underneath him, taking him into my mouth. I began sucking him hard, using my tongue and throat to massage every inch of his dick. he told me he was going to cum.

His cum blasted the back of my throat. I began to swallow his load. (FIRST TIME LOAD SWALLOWER). I had always wanted to swallow a load, but just never had. The first guy to ever cum in my ass had started to cum in my mouth when I was sucking him, but I turned around and let him finish in my ass. (But that is another story, Aug 2005)

He was shooting a huge load. I jerked his cock, milking all his seed. I swallowwed every drop and loved it. It was so hot and tasted so good. I started to feel him getting soft. he pulled out of my mouth and moved down to kiss me. We kissed for a bit.

I asked him if he wanted me to fuck him. he said he wasn't in the mood to bottom tonight. But he did suck my cock for a little while though. Nice of him. I didn't cum, but nice gesture.

Eventually he got up and I could hear him putting his clothes back on. I told him we would do it again. He agreed. Then he left.

We chatted a few times on Adam4Adam, him always asking when he could come over again or me to him. he also wanted my picture, since he didn't know what I looked like. I told him he had been inside me and I had his dna in my system, so what did a picture matter. He didn't seem to like that answer because I didn't hear from him for a while.

Then one night I get online and see an email from him.

He told me that he had had a great time with me that night and thinks we should do it again. And he told me that he is actually poz, and that I am probably too. And now that we got that out in the open, he and I should just start fucking all the time.

I was instantly horrified, an electric chill went through my body. But in that same instant, I was so incredibly turned on and hot. if what he was saying was true, then I had swallowed a poz load. And like I said before, it was a huge load. Also he had been leaking precum like a faucet when he was fucking me.

I sat and reread the email several times. Then I jerked myself off thinking about his poz cum in my body.

I replied to him. I told him that I somehow knew he was poz and thats why I hadn't let him cum inside my ass. But I'm sure he spurted a little out while fucking me. He told me he hadn't.

We went back and forth a couple more emails and then he was gone. His account had been deleted. So much for any more contact with bryan.

But it was done. I had crossed another line. I had taken a huge poz load into my body. really turned me on. But scared me too.

Interesting sidebar to this story. A couple weeks after my latenight fun with Bryan, I came down with the flu. I felt absolutely horrible. I lay in bed for a couple days suffering. I downed as many over the counter products as I could find and eventually felt better. At the time I hadn't thought anything of it. I had been drinking heavily that day, it had rained that night, I had walked in the rain soaking me to the skin. It had also been very cold. It was Jan afterall. So I figured that the cold and the wet body, coupled with being drunk had lowered my immune system.

When he emailed me and told me that he was poz, I mentioned somehwre in there that I had been sick. I told him it was probably his fault, that he made me poz. I was joking... Maybe that's why he deleted his account.

So it's almost a year and a half later. I now live in NYC, in Hells' Kitchen. I haven't been fucked since Bryan. (long time I know) I did suck one cock, but he didn't cum. Poz guy though who lives in Chelsea.

I think back to Bryan many times, when I am jerking myself to cum. Makes me hard to think about that night.

more stories to cum.

[gkz68]

Mate, thanks for sharing your stories - they are very hot!

[subboy81]

im currently talking to a guy who's just told me he is poz undetectable and would like to meet.ive always being curious about raw poz cock, is it worth the thrill

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