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[Daddysissyprincess]

A few years ago after I started working out losing weight and getting attention again ( I was 56 and assumed put out to pasture as too old to be desirable to “the gays” )  I started enjoying a Dominant streak and realized how much fun it was to use fags, make them be sissies, boss them around, make them worship my body and obey etc.  they seemed so happy with it it made me feel I was doing a good thing.  so I rode that wave for a while but still had the lifelong nagging desire to be an obedient femmy sissy princess myself.    I dabbled in online play.  Had an online Dom. Did chastity, bought some sissy stuff.   But never found any real time fun.   I continued to be hit up by bottoms who don’t read profiles and think I’m Dom Daddy judging on my pics alone.  I didn’t think it was fair that I’m always expected to be in that role a never explore my other desires but Exactly zero men will feminize me in real time.  They may want to fuck me but that’s it.    I don’t even care about fucking.  It’s the head trip and the feeling I’m looking for.   Gay men are so frustratingly single minded and obnoxious I’d start hating them except for the fact that good or bad they are my tribe and I can’t stand heterosexuals.  As it turns out sissy play is mainly a hetero thing too with women dominating their husbands.

Jump to this week and a really dirty slutty minded old guy sissy hit me up and our online chat, and pics of him wearing a fake vagina and big fake tits and his begging and desperation and obedience has got me all horny to just start using fags again instead and put my own sissy fun away since no one will indulge it.

Now I feel like channeling my frustration with fags and using it to Dom and use them like the little bitches they are. 
 

is there literally ANY part of life that isn’t an unfair bitch?

Maybe I should just go be old and fat and and eat myself into my grave.

lifting weights at 58 is not fun. Trying to keep up with the standards in the community is an exercise in frustration.

 

is it that much to ask to have a roomful of men dress me up and whistle at me and grope  my tits and call me princess? 

Does no gay man uderstabd this?  I mean I’ve lived in SF / bay for 40 years for fuck sake and still sexually frustrated 

just venting here I guess.

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Edited January 12, 2023 by Daddysissyprincess
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1 hour ago, Daddysissyprincess said:

Trying to keep up with the standards in the community is an exercise in frustration.

Yes, it is, because those standards are not based in reality. They’re based in an image perpetuated by the media, and specifically the porn industry, that is extremely difficult to reach unless you’re genetically gifted, and impossible, in the long run, to sustain even if you do. And no, it isn’t fair, but you won’t find a guarantee of fairness written anywhere in the user manual gor human beings.

1 hour ago, Daddysissyprincess said:

is it that much to ask to have a roomful of men dress me up and whistle at me and grope  my tits and call me princess? 

Yes, it is. No group of people is going to take their time to indulge your individual sexual fantasy unless there’s something in it for them individually. In this case, that would involve feminizing and sexualize another (58-year-old) cross-dressing man. That particular fetish, while not particularly rare, isn’t so common that you could expect to populate a room with them anywhere other than a convention held for the purpose.

 While I have no interest in cross-dressing, feminization or sissification, and would refuse if asked, I nonetheless sympathize, having just turned 56 myself. There is no escaping the fact that we are not the freshest apples on the fruit stand. I realize that the time I have in which to fulfill my desire to serve numbers of men as a cumdump is limited, and a time will come not long from now when I will have to face the fact that the ship has sailed and my desires no longer have a realistic likelihood of being met. At that point I can then decide to either continue trying and endure the inevitable frustration and disappointment, or turn my energies to more attainable and worthwhile pursuits.

 I didn’t start this until I was 37, and didn’t become a cumdump until a little iver a year ago. Since then I’ve felt the hit breath of Time on my neck and the sense of Time running out has driven me to do more radical things than I otherwise would for fear that I would lose my chance. I would love an opportunity to break my personal-best record for cocks taken in one day, but I realize that probably isn’t going to happen now and I’m just going to have to be content with the memory of the accomplishment.

 I realize that the only way to keep from being disappointed with outcomes is to distinguish between the things I can control and the things I can’t. The way my body appears in some ways is in my control (I can exercise if I choose) and in some ways isn’t (I don’t have an ‘attractive’ face). I can’t control whether other men feel inclined to fuck me or not; I can only control how I choose to react if they don’t. Nobody, after all, owes me a fuck.

In your case, you may find greater satisfaction in searching out one or two individuals whose fetishes complement yours - an attainable goal - and developing sexual relationships with them based on quality, rather than holding out an impractical hope for a fantasy roomful of them to materialize.

I would add to this that the level to which anyone ultimately lives out these sort of fantasies has a great deal to do with the level of effort put into making them happen. I’m no porn star (alas) but I’ve had sexual experiences reminiscent of what one might see in some pretty edgy porn. That’s happened because I decided to get out there and put myself in situations where it could happen. Often, opportunities have to be manufactured, and sometimes it’s necessary to go to extremes to do it. I really can’t advise you on what would be needed to engineer a situation such as you desire, as I’m too far removed from that lifestyle, but you may have to put yourself out there - possibly further than feels comfortable - to achieve it.

[Daddysissyprincess]

Yeh Considering I work nights and weekends and have a husband ( open) and a long   list of responsibilities and don’t even have  the most basic gay social life…  at all  .yeh wild sex fantasies won’t  be happening. 
I  go with being Daddy top since I do , get a lot of “hey daddy hey daddy”  If that’s what I have then take it and give up on the rest.

It’s a much easier road.  Being orally serviced is  less complicated and doesn’t require costume changes and stage direction. 

You know it’s not just the porn but so many gay men our  age  look so amazing and jacked.  Don’t they eat? Wtf.    I’m not giving up though.   I’m going to try keeping up no matter how much juice I have to jab in my ass.  
Aging and fat give  me anxiety. 

 

[Daddysissyprincess]

It just occurred to me . I could just pay for it.   Simple.  There’s the answer.