Direct Injection

[OKCmarriedguy]

 

 

I will say that I was a late bloomer and didn’t really understand my attraction to men and mainly to dick until my late teens or early twenties and by then I had an established life and friends and was almost to ashamed to come out and say that I was curious about having sex with guys.   I kind of grew into my own way of living, I loved the gym, absolutely loved being lean and having a 6-pack.   But I hardly took advantage of it, for almost a year I hardly went out and did anything other than school, the gym, homework and video games, but while everyone else went out and partied, I would indulge in my secret desires online.

 

Chatting with guys online, reading stories, including fictional stories about guys like me being tricked or trapped into having sex with older men.  I would usually fantasize about it and masturbate, but every time after I would cum, I would almost feel ashamed or not interested in men, but about 10-15 minutes later, the fantasy would come back and I would get back online and this would repeat and I would jerk-off two-three times a night on the weekends. 

 

This went on for a few years as I dug deeper and deeper into my online life.  I had come very close to acting out the fantasy, but living in a small town, there were not many options to act out my fantasy. 

 

I had a friend who lived in a town about 30 minutes from my hometown, it was a little bit bigger than the town I lived in, but still less than 10,000 people.  We went to a small Mexican restaurant and our waiter was very feminine and my friend told me “Yeah he is gay and has aids”.   Did the guy really have aids?  Probably not.  Was he even gay?  I have no idea.  But that is the stigma that I grew up with, growing my desire to keep my identity secret. 

 

But that sentence that was probably false set me on a path that would change me forever.  I got home that night and fell into my usual weekend night habit on the internet, but I found myself curiously searching about Aids and HIV and found it absolutely exhilarating!    My heart was pounding, and dick was hard as I found HIV dating sites and started searching areas with high HIV populations.  This went on for a few weeks before I stumbled across a website called “The Breeding Zone” and discovered that I wasn’t alone in my fantasy. 

 

For months and months and months I went there at night, reading stories about guys taking hiv positive loads and becoming poz themselves and just feel in love with the idea.  I couldn’t explain the sexual draw to it, but it was like nothing I had ever felt before. 

After a few months I began writing my own fantasy stories on there and had a few guys comment on them, which made me want to write even more. 

 

I would rush home from work and began to write, it was almost all I could think about.  I would spend weeks writing detailed stories and post them longing for people to tell me how much it turned them on. 

 

I would get some comments that highlight my lack of any actual physical experience, but I would take that and learn from it.  After a few stories, I started getting men messaging me, telling me how much they liked the stories, but they all fizzled out.  They would be halfway across the US or even in another country.  And they didn’t seem turned on by the idea of having a sexual pen pal.  But nevertheless, I kept writing, it was the closest I had ever been to actually having sex with a man.  Getting to detail a sexual experience that I fantasized about and having other guys talk to me about it.

 

I would say a little over a year into discovering this website, I posted part 4 of a 4 part story about a nice young man from a small town (sound familiar) who moved to the city and ends up letting a homeless man who he gives money too frequently outside his downtown apartment, come up to his apartment during a frigid cold winter storm and ends up getting raped and robed by the homeless man, but this tragic event leads to a destructive cycle of letting them man back into his apartment which repeats the same events, forced sex (which is not seeming to be too forced now) and being robbed and ultimately leads to the young man becoming HIV positive.

 

A couple of nights after posting the story, I received a message from a guy halfway across the country.  He told me how much he enjoyed my stories, and he offered up his poz cock to me anytime I wanted.

 

It was such an exciting feeling, but again, he lived in Wisconsin, and I was in southern Kansas.  But this guy was different, he wanted to chat and talk about it.  I explained my situation and he felt bad and encouraged me to take a trip and act out one of my fantasies.  We talked for months and exchanged different fantasies.   One night he sent me this fantasy that sent me wild.

 

From him:

“We finally meet up, I am so excited to finally get to see you and meet you, but ultimately, I decide that I am too much of a risk.  You’re too good of a person and I can’t do this to you.  I try to leave, but you ignore me and pull me into you and start kissing me.  We fall on the bed and again I try to stop you, but you continue, pulling my clothes off, I try to resist, but you’re so sexy and the emotional connection to you is so strong, I want you more than I have ever wanted anyone.  We are both naked on the bed, but again I realize how young you are, you have the rest of your life to live and you’re such a good innocent person, I can’t let me load consume you. 

 

I stop and say “my viral load shot up right before I got here, I’m not safe for you, it’s too dangerous”, but you’re too turned on by my rock hard cock rubbing against you.  Your ass is dripping from the lube and wanting it so bad, you push me back and say “I don’t care, I am gonna ride your fukken dick whether you like it or not”.

 

I try to resist but the feel of your silky ass sliding down on my cock is too hot for me to push you off.  You keep sliding down on my rock-hard cock until I am fully inside of you.  You start riding my bare dick and I start coming to my sense and tell you “Babe, seriously stop!  My cum will result in you becoming positive, you need to stop and pull of now!”.  But you don’t, you ride harder until I suddenly unload a torrent of my hot highly toxic jizz in your tight little hole.  As you slide off my dick, red jizz drops out of you and the only thing I can then is welcome to the family son, you just got pozzed.  You think for several seconds, then drop back down on top of me, kissing me deeply ands say “Thanks dad!  Glad to be your son””.

 

 

 

After reading that, if he was close to me, I would have totally let him shoot his load inside of me.  This was the closest I had ever been to it, I believe that up until this point, this was just all a secret fantasy that I would never act out.  I mean, if I am too afraid to come out of the closet, how would it be to come out of the closet and infected with HIV.  But this story, a story from a positive guy directed towards me, I had never experienced anything close to that in my life and it was intoxicating. 

 

We talked for months and months and grew very close.  I stopped writing and just looked forward to talking with him.  He told me that he was a retired wood worker (lol) and became infected in the 80’s so he was pretty viral and had suffered some health complications from it.  He said that he had taken meds, but being retired and on a fixed income it was difficult for him to afford.   He was in his mid 70’s, I was only 25, so there was definitely an age gap but I was always attracted to older men, not sure why, but older men turned me on. He had to use a cane to get around and suffered from ED and said he hadn’t had an erection in a few years but loved giving blow jobs.  Since we would probably never meet, this wasn’t too much of an issue, after all I could fantasize about his dick being hard as stone and unloading a river of poz cum.   He also told me he was married, but his husband was ok with him messing around, if he used a condom, so he didn’t infect other people, but with ED he hadn’t done that in a long time. 

 

He was a wealth of information for a guy like me, being so inexperienced.  He helped me understand some basic questions about anal sex between men and a lot of information about HIV and one thing that I didn’t know is that the likely hood of becoming infected was quite low.  He did say that one of the biggest factors in becoming poz was the viral load of the top.  He also said that any tears in the rectum could greatly increase the likely hood of infection and that blood in blood was really the only sure way to get infected.  He said that with me being a virgin, I would need to be careful that there were no tears in my rectum wall that could expose blood vessels, cum can carry a large viral load, but nothing close to blood, so a top with an open sore on their cock would be extremely dangerous for a bottom.

 

In October 2024 I got a message from Tim (the guy I had been talking to) and he informed me that him and his husband were taking a road trip for fall and he had casually mentioned Kansas and his husband wasn’t thrilled about the idea, after all Kansas isn’t known for its fall foliage, but he thought he had him talked into it. 

 

Tim: my husband used to be cool with me sleeping with other guys, but that has been a couple of years, and I don’t think he would be cool with me and him driving halfway across the country so I could meet another guy that I have been talking to for half a year.  After all it doesn’t feel like its just sex with you and me.

 

Me: OMG!  That has my heart pounding!  So nervous and excited

 

Tim: I know!  I wish I didn’t have ED issues!  But would still be great to see you and I can still shoot a big load if you want to jerk me off or suck me off

 

Me: oh and glad to hear that you see this as more than sex too

 

Tim: Wow!  I was so nervous to say that, didn’t want to scare you off, thinking I was falling in love lol

 

Me: you better tell me you love me before you cum in me lol

 

Tim: Oh, don’t you go falling in love, I’m a married man

 

Me: Sorry, I didn’t mean that

 

Tim: Lol I was joking!  I think we both are starting to have feelings for each other, but you’re so young, why would you want an older guy like me

 

Me: Lol, you can’t poz me and leave me.  Your husband good with another roommate lol

 

Tim: after he saw you he might be lol!

 

 

All of my sexual frustration and fantasies were being directed at this one person.  This guy had no idea of how much he was biting off.  I was feeling as though I wanted him more than anything, I wanted him to leave his husband and move in with me and just fuck me raw every night.  How long this would last I had no idea.  In 5 years he would be in his 80’s and I would be in my thirties.  Are there legit emotions involved or just sexual tension?  I was blinded and all I knew was that I wanted to be with him.

 

A couple of weeks later I get the message that they will be staying in a town 30 miles from my home town for 2 nights and couldn’t wait to see me.

 

The time flew by, and the day was here and I was a nervous wreck, but felt somewhat comforted by the fact that he had ED and we wouldn’t be able to have sex.  I really wanted to, but the reality of becoming poz was terrifying. 

 

His husband still didn’t know he was coming to see me, so we planned for me to rent a room at the same hotel, and he would tell his husband that he was going to go for a quick walk or get some ice and would stop by for an hour each day.

 

The day was here, and I was in my hotel room waiting to hear from him and I was ready to leave and chicken out, but I was comforted by the fact that Tim had ED, was a good guy and was happily married and wasn’t trying to poz me, he just liked having sex.  He encouraged me to get on prep before we met but told me that it was very unlikely that I would become poz, like less than 1% chance since his viral load was very low, and the chances of becoming poz from oral sex was next to nothing.  And he was a good guy, happily married and I could trust him.

 

I brought a 6 pack of beer with me and opened one up to try and relax when I got the message that they just got to their room, and he told his husband to unpack while he runs to get some snacks and asked what room I was in to come say hi really quick.

 

My heart was pounding out of my chest, I was so tempted to chicken out, but I just quickly put down my room number and pressed send before I could talk myself out of it.

 

Within the next 10 minutes there was a knock at the door.  I slowly approached to the door and opened it to see a taller bigger man standing there with a cane, he was older than I imagined him being, but still a lot of man.  He immediately walked in and gave me a hug.  He could tell that I was nervous and tried to console me telling me that it was ok and I could relax.  He then pulled me in for another hug, pulling me in tight to his body and kissed me deeply. 

 

I began to relax and feel somewhat excited as he pulled me into his body tightly with his arms around me kissing me deeply.

 

Tim: Fuck!  We better stop or I’m going to fuck you right here and right now!

 

Me: (nervously) Ok

 

Tim: Damn you look better than the pictures

 

Me: thank you

 

Tim: I am not going to lie I felt my dick move for the first time in years kissing you

 

Me: (just smiles)

 

Tim: come here

 

Tim pulled me in again and started to kiss me deeply

 

Tim: we don’t have much time, but I fucking want you now

 

Tim: My dick is getting so hard for you, I haven’t had an erection in years, but it fucking wants you so fukken bad

 

Tim grabbed my hand and put in down his pants feeling his cock which was getting incredibly hard.   He then began to pull down his sweatpants to the ground and reaching over and unbuttoning my pants and pulling them down as I held his cock in my hand.

 

He pushed me back onto the bed and directed me to slide back as he reached down and grabbed a tube of lube out of his pocket and squirt it into his hand.

 

I was scared to death.  I wasn’t prepared for this to happen, I didn’t think he could get hard, I wanted to chicken out but watching him rub the lube on his cock was so exciting I was getting so turned on and then he told me how much he wanted me.  All these years of wanting to experience this from afar, wanting, but never being wanted and now to finally have someone tell you how much they want you.

 

Tim: I can’t believe this is happening.  It shows how much I want you.  Do you want me as bad as I want you.

 

Me: (with a Shakey nervous voice I try to squeak out) yes

 

Tim: I am so glad to hear that baby, I want you so bad, I want us to be together.  You’re the only one who can get my dick hard.  Do you want to be mine?

 

A part of me was saying, you’re not ready to make this commitment, the rest of your life is about to change.  How will you tell everyone “Hey I’m dating a 75 year old man and he gave me hiv”?  How are you going to tell everyone that?  And another part of me that didn’t care about anything outside of this room, my body craved his body and whatever the consequences of this were, it would be worth and and besides, he has a very low viral count, and the chances of becoming poz are less than 1%

 

Me: yes

 

Tim slowly crawled on the bed and on top of me.  Feeling his naked body up against mine, the first time I have ever been naked with another man.  He started kissing me deeply as I wrapped my arms around his big shoulders.  He reached down and grabbed my leg behind the knee bending my knees up one after the other and I felt his rock-hard rubbing against my ass and he slowly moved his hips back and forth until the tip of his cock pressed against my hole, he pushed just enough to not penetrate me.

 

Tim: are you sure you want me

 

Me: yes

 

Tim: I really care about you, do you care about me

 

Me: yes I do

 

Tim: I want to be with you so bad but I have to tell you my viral count is really high and this is dangerous. 

 

I laid there nervously looking at him, fuck I wanted it so bad but even he was scared for me, maybe we should stop, but then he started grinding his hips in a sexual motion and it felt so fucking good

 

Tim: FUCK!  I want you so fucking bad!  Tell me to fuck you raw

 

Me: Fuck I want it too, but is it safe

 

Tim: Don’t you want me baby

 

Me: yes

 

Tim: then tell me to fuck you raw!  Let me slide my bare cock inside of you.  We can be together.  I love you baby

 

Me: Ok!  Fuck me baby! 

 

Tim:  Yes, tell me to fuck you raw!  Tell me you want this viral load!  You want me inside you and nobody else, tell me that you’re mine!

 

Me: Fuck yes!  I want you!  I want you to fuck me and shoot your poz load inside me!

 

And immediately I felt the head of his rock hard cock push in and stop and then gradually push deeper and deeper until it was all the way in.  Nobody can describe how good it feels to have a bare cock slide into you, you have to experience it for yourself and here I was with the first bare cock inside me ever and I never wanted anything as bad as I wanted this. 

 

Tim: this is dangerous, my viral load count is so high, are you sure you want this

 

Me: yes baby!  I want it!  I am yours, take me!

 

Tim started taking slow strokes and with each stroke I felt my breath get knocked out of my chest until we got into a good motion.  As he pushed in harder and faster my arms and legs wrapped around him tighter and tighter.  There was so much man on top of me pushing into me with all his force, he cock getting deeper and deeper. 

 

Tim: (repeating) fuck yeah, oh fuck, this feels so fucking good! 

 

Then out of nowhere

 

Tim: oh fuck I’m cumming

 

And I felt his cock explode a river of hot cum inside of me, just pumping poz cum out of his cock deep inside of me.

 

Then he collapsed on top of me breathing heavily.

 

Tim: oh shit, I have to get back to my room

 

Tim got up and got dressed quickly and using his cane limped out of the room and as he left, he said, ill message you later.

 

I was just lying there naked in the bed with his cum still dripping out of me and just like every time after you cum, reality comes flooding back and I realized what I had done, and I began to cry uncontrollably.  I’m going to have HIV everyone is going to make fun of me and treat me like a diseased leper.  What have I done!

 

I laid there like that for about 10 minutes and decided I was going to get up and get packed and leave.  I wasn’t going to stay and do this again.

 

I got up and got packed but before I left to my car, I started to relax and talked myself into staying.

 

Later that night I got a message from Tim.

 

Tim: hey

 

Me: hey

 

Tim: we are out of ice, want me to stop by?

 

Me: Yes!

 

Tim came back by and said his knee was hurting from earlier so he laid on his back and told me to strip.

 

I started taking off my clothes and Tim pulled his cock out of his sweat pants and grabbed some lube and began to jerk off his cock.  He threw the lube to me and told me to lube up, which I did.

 

He then told me to “Come here” so I climbed on the bed and straddled him.  We began to kiss and he stopped me

 

Tim: My cock is so poisonous right now, so fucking dangerous.  You sure you want it?

 

Me: Yes!

 

Tim: then grab it and take it.  Ride my fukken dick until you take all that poz load

 

I reached back and grabbed his dick and aimed it towards my hole and slide back on it slowly.  It hurt pretty bad after earlier today my ass was really sore, but I kept going, sliding down on it until it was all the way in and then I stopped for a second trying to relax and get used to it and then I started ridding his dick.  I wanted him, I wanted his dick and I wanted his poz cum.  It lasted longer than this morning, and it started hurting but soon I felt him unloading a torrent of hot toxic jizz inside of me.  I got off him him and bloody cum just poured out of me. 

 

Tim: oh man!  You’re going to end up poz this weekend after all

 

Then he got up and left me lying there and again I began to cry thinking about what he had just said.  So I made up my mind that I would leave first thing tomorrow and again by the time morning came I had changed my mind.

 

I didn’t hear from Tim again until that night.

 

Tim: We have been out sight-seeing all day, if you can call it that in Kansas lol

 

Me: lol, yeah pretty flat

 

Tim: we leave first thing in the morning tomorrow. 

 

Me: ok

 

Tim: I don’t want to leave you, I thought about you all day today.

 

Me: I thought about you too!

 

Tim:  We should have one more time together

 

Me: Ok!

 

Tim: and make it special

 

Me: how so?

 

Tim: do you trust me?

 

Me: yes

 

Tim: do you want me?

 

Me YES!

 

Tim: ill be there shortly

 

 

Tim knocked on the door about 15 minutes later and said his husband was in the shower and he coudlnt wait any longer.  He pulled me in tight and kissed me

 

Tim: I want you so bad!

 

Me: I want you

 

Tim: I wish we could be together

 

Me: I do too!

 

Tim: we can make it so we will always be together

 

Me: how?

 

Tim just pulled me and kissed me and we made our way to the bed with clothes coming off along the way.

 

I was laying on my back and he started rubbing my cock and then down to my hole and started to finger me without lube.  It hurt but I didn’t stop him.  It was incredibly uncomfortable and then his finger nails started to scratch me inside.  I was trying to keep it in, but it hurt really bad so I eventually let out an “ow!”  and he pulled out his finger and told me to look at it as it had blood all over it. 

 

I had my legs spread wide and he was laying between my legs and then he got up on his knees and squirted to lube down my ass crack and pushed into my hole and then he pulled out a knife

 

Me: what the fuck is that for!

 

Tim: watch

 

He grabbed the knife and made a cut down the shaft of his hard cock and watched as it started bleeding.  He smeared the blood all over his dick and then grabbed some lube and lubed up his cock.

 

Then he laid down on top of me and started kissing me again and making thrusting motions with his hip.  It wasn’t long before I was getting back into it and ready and soon I felt his cock pushing against my hole.

 

Tim: do you really want me?

 

Me: yes I do

 

Tim: I want you too!  Do you want us to be together

 

Me: yes baby!

 

Tim: no, I mean do you really want us to be together

 

Me: I do!  I fucking want you so bad

 

Tim: your ass is bleeding badly; my cock is bleeding badly. If you grab my cock and slide it inside of you, it will be like injecting my blood into your blood and you will become poz and we can be together.  If this is what you want, grab my cock and slide it in you now.

 

Without hesitation I reached down and grabbed his cock and aimed it towards my hole and kissed him as he pushed his cock inside of me.  He pushed it all the way in and sat there kissing me, injecting me with his positive blood. 

 

After a few minutes he began fucking me harder than ever before.  Each stroke knocked my breath out and I could feel my insides ripping and the soreness of my ass intensifying.  What he said was true, I was being pozzed this very moment and I wanted it, I wanted him

 

He shot his load inside of me and collapsed on top of me catching his breath and then got up, got dressed and started to walk out and as he walked out, he said one more thing to me:

 

Tim: now we will be together forever

 

I thought he wanted us to be together, but it turned out he just wanted to poz me.  I had no idea that was his plan the entire time. I had no idea he was pumping himself with dangerous amounts of Viagra and Cialis to get hard, it wasn’t because “I made him hard” it was the drugs.  I had no idea he wasn’t married, and this was all some story that he uses to make people trust him.  It was all part of a plan and it worked perfectly.

[Devianturge]

Love the “nice guy” who’s got more than a little evil in him. 

[plisken]

Dirty story - from a dirty mind? I like it.

[Knightfalconer]

On 10/10/2024 at 11:18 PM, Devianturge said:

Love the “nice guy” who’s got more than a little evil in him. 

Yeah, the ones that tempt you in with careful; measured; plotted suggestions; hints and hot memories etc, until (far too late), you realise that he has had you in his lair and he's already 'bitten' and injected his poison into you. A poison from which you can't escape.