Breeders and cheaters! Initiation into the bb-brotherhood!

Coming OUT in the bareback scene; it's like 'coming out' all over again! (Over-coming jealousies and CHEATERS - Embracing 'promiscuity and sports-fucking'!)

    So my man and I met ten years ago, give or take. He was basically a teenager but smart and an 'old soul' which appealed to me because I could technically BE HIS DAD, age difference and all. Well his dad never caught on about 'the age thing' until about two years later. Unlike 'the dad' (who is younger than me) I didn't let myself go and I can easily get into a size 31. And only now do I struggle with the 'silver' and the abs having disappeared a bit... Anyway, I look younger than most of my peers... hell, at 30 I still was called a 'twink'. Not anymore, lol. So, although my teenage bf's family was basically conservative, they approved of me! Odd, and dad was a preacher too! Well a 'defrocked one' after his issues with pain-pills...

   I actually didn't plan on my man and I to become boy-friends. I wanted an 'equal' not some twisted 'daddy/son' thing, the fetish that some of you have but it grosses me out! Incest grosses me out too! I'm 'trying to stretch my range' to bears and pigs! But in the past the young ones kept flocking to me! (it happens a lot in the South) But too many 'pet-monkies' in my life turned out to be 'high maintenance' and cheaters. So my 'man-to-be' told me I was rude to him, yes I was. I know I was purposely fucking at LEAST two hotties, basically to 'drive my prospective man off'. Both the other contenders were the same age as him: one a gorgeous lean dancer and the other an irritating loudmouth punk with a big-headed lollipop-cock that looked awfully appealing to me as I bred him missionary-style... wait, 'face-to-face', whatever. Anyway, he had a pretty cut dick with a vulgar, big knob, the kinda cock that has a spell on me. Both of them two players did bareback on the first 'date' like virtually ALL the younger hotties from the club. I picked 'selectively' avoiding the ones I was told 'are dirty'... you know how 'the queens do' in backwards towns in the South. But in my twisted reality, 'poaching selectively over the fence at the bb-rodeo' as the TOP-breeder was fairly 'safe'. And fraught with guilt and inhibitions... but as time would go on, a series of events had us 'face the music' and my man (with a turbulent 'dark' history) and I are now both 'sworn members' of the bareback brotherhood! No jealousies! It's like 'the thrill of the hunt', separate and together, team-work or sport-fucking in anon groups... all the once 'forbidden, dirty words' are now a big turn-on! (I tried to attach pics to 'illustrate the theme', but there are technical issues and I'm new on here) the pic that you 'might' see in the BG is my man taking raw dick from a dude named Toby. Turns me on looking at those pics!

HOW I EVENTUALLY OVERCAME THE VANILLA LIFE-STYLE...

     I had a gorgeous 'toy-friend' before all that, let's call him 'Brian', for on and off 4 years. He had me completely pussy-whipped with his sexy booty-butt but 'the kid' was a congenital liar and cheat, having learned to 'survive' in a dysfunctional broken home with a violent dad. I recall the first night he cheated and I saw this guy that I knew from the clubs slip out of his apartment. Forgot his name but he was a boots-salesman and rumored to have an extra big dick. Well Brian was a liar and manipulator so the story he told me was absurd and he twisted the reality and acted like I HAD DONE SOMETHING BAD instead... you know how con-men do in politics! (in years-back-retrospect: HE TOOK THAT SALESMAN'S COCK RAW, balls-deep, and the load/s to booty)

   So the next few years more stunts followed: first he ran off with these local two hardcore players who gave him coke and X I guess. He played them real good until he got tired. Came back like a guilty runaway dog and I took him back in like dummies do. His ass wasn't that tight any more. HMMM! Go figure! Kinda hot, thinking of all the sexy fuckers breeders him (in years-back-retrospect - confirmed by the 'players': HE TOOK THEM BOTH RAW, balls-deep and every nut like a champ) But out of caution; I wouldn't let him breed me any more... a slight that he didn't like. And going to 'get tested' was too spooky...

   His revenge was swift: a stripper circus came through town, 'doing their thing' at BACKSTREET and the head-stripper (with a huge hose flopping in his thong) fell for my man and promptly recruited him for a nationwide tour. That put me in my place! heart-broken and well, jealous... but whatever. At first his phone-calls back to me were cocky, the rutting bull always close by 'asserting his dominance' over him. Brian seemed to glow! Then the gritty side showed: the guys basically 'pulling tricks' for extra cash, doing TINA and him 'the novice' being expected to be on stage with a hard-on like the 'professional sluts' do in DC, was more reality than he could handle. The little con-artist had a plan! On my door he was again after 'staging a defection' as he manipulated the head-fool of the tramp show to detour through Memphis. What was his name? Jake maybe. Big-dicked Jake! Well at 3 am the door-bell rang and I see Brian, with the aura of an 'urban slut-stripper' (form-fitting sexy top and tight high-dollar denims)  and next thing my phone is ringing off the hook. 'Big-dicked Jake', the rutting bull, throwing dust to get his favorite heifer back. He shot off the big guns! "BRIAN AND I HAD BAREBACK SEX EVERY NIGHT! I'M POZ AND NOW HE IS TOO! YOU SHOULD THINK BEFORE YOU TAKE HIM BACK!" 

   Well what do you say to that? I took Brian back, trying to 'avoid the subject', the toxic one! Was Jake, the stripper-king lying? COCK-BLOCKING? Was he hoping I would kick the 'tainted love' to the curb? Luckily he didn't know where I lived. I left town that week on a far-away trip; yes I took the tramp with me. But there was that 'cloud' over the situation. (in years-back-retrospect: the POZ status, but probable! He got the fresh meat BAREBACK EVERY NIGHT and DAY, several times HOT kinky positions and BALLS-DEEP)

   ...well, how this story continues could be interesting to some. Hit me up, add feed-back, Share thoughts, stimulate me to 'spill more beans'