I Can't Stop Cheating on My Boyfriend

Entry posted by FilthySTDPig in Infidelity Thursday at 01:39 PM

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Let me start by saying I'm not proud of myself.

My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 5 years now. Surprisingly, I was able to hide my infidelity for almost three years before he found out. It was the typical scene. He'd come home from work early and caught me in bed with random cumdump I'd met online. I was pretty pissed because I was moments away from breeding his sloppy hole. As you could imagine, my boyfriend was livid. It took several months of me apologizing and insisting it was a one time thing before he forgave me.

Except I was lying.

I've been fucking guys behind his back since the first week we got together. And it didn't stop the day I got caught. I just got even smarter. Now I meet guys at local parks, their jobs, abandoned houses, etc. And I wish I could explain why I do this. It's not like we don't have amazing sex together. We've even had several threesomes and orgies. But we've always had a rule that we only play together. Maybe that's why I do it? Is it the thrill of knowing I'm doing something I shouldn't be doing? Is it the thrill of knowing I'm doing something that risks his health and mine? I've caught multiple STDs and I've even given him one but I blamed it on the threesome we had earlier that month.

Are there any other serial cheaters out there? How do you cope with the guilt? I guess I could just stop but I know that's unrealistic.