A month or so ago my best friend let it slip that I was bottoming one night when he was drunk. My bf was pissed and there were some really tense moments. Then he calmed down. So I laid off sex for a little while - didn't want to fan the flames too much.

But since he knew I figured I could be more open about it, a bit over a week ago now was Folsom Street East. Before we went I tried to clean out, but as it turned out I cleaned too deep and by the time I got there I was slightly messy again - so getting fucked wasn't really an option. He kept a pretty tight leash on me though that night. Then a few days ago we went to the Eagle again for Pride. I cleaned out really well this time - even told him I was doing it and he was OK with it. I wanted him to fuck me before we went, but he said it would kill his sexual energy.

I was clean as a whistle this time and determined to get fucked. We went a little later so we'd be there when guys started getting frisky. The normal places (the bathroom and a back corner) were really difficult and there didn't seem like much sex to be had. But when I went down to the first floor this hot little Latino cub started flirting with me. He pulled out his uncut dick and I jacked him until he got hard. Then I sorta turned a bit so he had better access to my ass and he took the hint and started fingering me. I pulled out a little bottle of lube, lubed up my hole and lined my ass up with his dick and in he went.

The game you play at the Eagle is to pretend you're not fucking so security will leave you alone. So I was standing there (not bent over) and he was shoving his dick in and out of my hole. Problem was that I have a beefy ass and his dick was "average" in length, so he'd slip out pretty frequently and couldn't really fuck me properly. I told him I wanted his load, but he said he couldn't cum in that position - he wished he could get me with my legs up.

That went on for a while and my bf passed by a couple times while that was happening. I couldn't tell whether he was OK with it or not. When it ended I went around looking for him and when I found him he seemed happy and was flirting with a couple guys who were his type. So I went off looking for more dick.

I wasn't having much luck so I was in the process of heading up to the roof to check on my bf when I ran into this hot Middle Eastern guy who'd fucked me at the Eagle 6 months ago. As soon as he saw me he was all over me. Funny part was he didn't remember fucking me previously. I had to remind him and then he had no recollection. Anyway, last time he fucked me he managed to give me two loads and the same thing happened this time as well.

By the time we were done I was overdue to find my bf and when I looked at my phone it turns out he couldn't find me and had left in a bit of a huff and gone home. It took a little work to get him to open up - he was upset and embarrassed that I was getting fucked in public. But I've done stuff like that as a top before - the only difference was this time I was the bottom. I tried not to fan any flames, and eventually he calmed down and apologized. In hindsight part of the problem might have been that he was drinking and did a little Coke with a friend of ours - that couldn't have helped his state of mind.

Then last night a few guys came over to shoot a porn video for a well-known studio. The top had performance issues so we called it quits and sat around with some of the guys talking and drinking beer. The last one to leave was this young, cute little otter who was completely forward sexually. He suggested going out to the roof deck and jacking off. So off we went.

I haven't done a 3way with my bf in YEARS - they just never went all that well in the past. Because we were a bit on display this one was rather quick. The little otter started jacking his nice sized dick and then my bf went down on him. When he stopped the otter continued jacking and I told him "I don't want you to waste your load - jack off and then insert the tip of your dick in my ass when you cum." Took him a little time to figure out what I was asking, but a minute later his orgasm was coming and he did exactly what I asked and I got a nice sized load up my ass - right in front of my bf!

It felt really good being able to have my bf see me take a load. He still hasn't fucked me - that's frustrating and I don't know if it'll change. I think I'm too much of a whore for him - he's afraid of STDs or something. My goal is to start getting his loads as well. He jacks off once or twice a day - his loads are always pretty small, but I'd still like them up my ass rather than wasted on his belly.

So slow, steady progress - even if it's a bit precarious…