Leaderboard

My load count for the past few years has been really horrible. Sadly it’s been single digits (per year!) since 2018. 2015-2018 it was triple digits. The past 3 years I can kinda blame on COVID, but it’s more than that. Fall if 2017 I did the week in Key West where I left my Truvada in NYC (intentionally) and took as many loads as possible. That started a “am I sure I want to be doing this?” phase which lasted a while. Then COVID happened. Needless to say I want to get back up to triple digits. Problem was my year started with a lot of family stuff. But I was hoping things would change when I went to SF and stayed with some piggy friends. But then I was reading that the SF bars don’t have much sex going on. First night out at Powerhouse was a bust. I just wasn’t attracting anyone I was remotely interested in and not all that much was going on. Second night was a Castro bar crawl. I don’t think any of the bars had stuff going on though. But 3rd time is a charm. The last. Igor we went to the Eagle and they had a dark room set up. For the first hour (plus) that we were there no one was doing much of anything in the back room but then there was a burst of activity and I was in the right place at the right time. The first guy to fuck me was this (~) late 20s guy with bleach blond hair who looked a bit LA. Not completely my type, but definitely good enough. He blew a load in my ass. Then a title holder from a small(ish) gay bar (not in SF) fucked me, but didn’t breed me. I noticed I was REALLy sloppy afterwards which means the first guy blew a nice big load 😁 A really cute guy wanted to fuck me but he was walking around with a condom on, so I said no. There was a lull in activity in the back room so I took a break. When I returned a little later some guys were fucking so I jacked my dick watching them and then let a cocksucker blow me. I got hard and wanted to fuck, but the bottom was busy with other tops. Then the first guy who fucked me started fucking me again which put me in bottom mode and my dick went soft. A couple of bottoms wanted me to fuck them but I wasn’t hard enough. I did rim 2-3 guys. Unfortunately none of them seemed to have loads in them. At that point I went into bottom mode and was sucking whatever random dick was shoved in my face while guys fucked me. Some other guy I can’t remember (cause I didn’t really see much of him since I was bent over sucking random cocks) fucked me, but didn’t cum Then another cock was shoved in my ass and after a bit it was pretty clear he blew his load while he was in me. When he pulled out I noticed he had a condom on with a big load in it, so I pulled off the condom. I was trying to get the load out of the condom and up my ass when the next guy wanted to fuck, so I bent over and took his dick. He then blew his load and again I found he was wearing a condom. I started to pull his condom off and he didn’t understand why. The other condom top told him I was collecting loads so he gave me the condom. At which point I pushed both loads up my ass. Then there was this guy with a gorgeous dick with a mushroom head. Thankfully he fucked me raw but he didn’t cum. When he pulled out a hot, 30-something slightly muscled bear (with tattoos) started fucking me. After a bit he asked if he could come in me and I said “please do!” and he proceeded to blow his load. Then the first guy fucked me a second time. It wasn’t long before I could feel his dick pulsing as he shot his load up my ass. So that’s 3 proper loads, plus two “indirect” condom loads, plus 2 guys who didn’t cum. Needless to say I was on cloud nine. It felt SO GOOD to get back to being a cumdump. The best part is none of that made me think I should be taking PrEP. I’m now completely comfortable with the risk. In fact it would make me really happy if I got pozzed in a scene like that.

Jackson—March, 2022 It’s always nice to be wanted. The Cub who took my load in February, after a marathon of bookstore sex, sent me a text. He was hoping I could breed him again at the bookstore. It was a Saturday morning when I got his message. I knew I was going to play somewhere that day, so it was an easy decision to say ‘yes’ to him. We set a time. We both wanted to play at the same place in Jackson, with its many screens of porn. I quickly packed a lunch for later and hit the road… I’m early. The parking lot is not crowded, but there are enough vehicles to suggest a potential good time. I go in and pay. I say polite things about the owner’s tiny dog, who stands on the counter as I am handed my ticket. The lounge is fairly empty. A couple of guys just groping themselves at the straight screen. A guy jerking in the secluded Trans area. I go to the gay area. There’s my guy—sucking off one Daddy while jerking on a second one. He acknowledges my arrival and looks slightly embarrassed to have started without me. He obviously doesn’t know me…I find him hotter for wanting more dick. I sit nearby and get my cock out. The guy he’s jerking pulls away and comes over to me. He is older with very soft hands. He strokes my dick to full erection. The guy the Cub is sucking is getting close. His breathing is ragged. He suddenly stands up, pulling his dick out of the Cub’s mouth and shoots his load on the floor. It’s a massive load and a real waste of cum. The guy pulls himself together and leaves. The Cub turns to me. “You want to fuck me now?” “Sure.” He comes closer and all but whispers in my ear, “Let’s go downstairs to the booths.” I tell him I find them cramped and I didn’t pay for them. Instead he walks out into the main area. I follow, trying to fit my erection back in my pants—which proves hopeless. He nods toward the smallest area. It has a curtain to close it and seems to alternate between bondage porn and hetro grannies with young men. I am relieved that today it is showing straight Black guys on barely legal girls. There is just the big television and one chair. The Cub closes the curtain before he strips down to just socks, tossing his clothes in the corner. “Get on the chair. Knees on the seat.” He does—presenting me with his hairy ass. I go to my knees. I lick and stroke. The Cub grunts contentedly. The curtains open. A 40-something guy looks in, his cock in his hand. I’ve seen him watching the straight vids. He mumbles an apology, and starts to leave. “Let me suck that,” the Cub whispers loudly. I see the guy stop, consider and then come in, closing the curtains behind him. He strokes, close to the Cubs face, as he watches me eat out the hole I am about to fuck. I stand up. My cock slaps the Cub’s butt. Straight Guy has a nice dick, but he gasps as he sees mine. I prod the Cub’s butthole—and it flowers open. I sink in a good two inches. Straight Guy steps in and gives his uncut cock to the Cub, who sucks it in with enthusiasm. “How can he take it?” asks Straight Guy. “He loves big daddy dick,” I tell him truthfully. I love seeing the kid spit-roasted. The guy in the Cub’s mouth begins to fuck his face at the same speed I am fucking his ass. The Cub is jerking himself. I don’t think those two can last long. “Do you want to try his ass?” Straight Guy looks at me. “I’m too close.” A couple more strokes and the guy is exploding in the Cub’s mouth. I feel the Cub’s ass constrict on my cock. I am sure he is cumming all over the chair seat. But he manages to swallow all Straight Guy has to offer and to clean his cock up. As SG leaves, the Cub asks me to stop plowing. He has indeed shot a massive load. “Sorry, I can’t take anymore after I shoot.” He cleans up and takes off. The fuck was maybe twelve minutes. I go to see what other trouble I can get into… * The rest of the men on this particular Saturday seem to think stroking my cock is the ultimate form of sex. I have good hand jobs and horrible ones. Not one remotely gets me off. Eventually I find one man who sucks my cock in the main room. He seems to love to show off that he can take me. He’s a good bit older than I. His knees give out quickly. But he is good and I tell him so. He goes off for lunch—telling me I should fuck him when he gets back. I eat my own lunch in the car. I stroke to 2 men, 1 women porn. My cocksucker comes back. He nods and leads me to the Trans area. He drops his pants. “I dropped by the house to make sure I was ready for you,” he whispers. I thank him. And I think my cock will, too. He leans forward braced against the wall—staying off his knees. I kneel and begin licking his freshly prepped ass. He begins to whimper. It sounds more like crying than a sexual reaction. I stop. “You ok?” He nods. Then turns to me and pulls me to my feet. He kisses me, holding me tightly. When he finally lets me go, he whispers “No one has done that to me in years. Literally.” “Then let me worship your ass.” “You really want to?” He can’t seem to believe me. I hug him again and guide him back to the lean he was doing. I kneel and give him the best rim job I know how to do. I am deep in his hole one minute—and sucking on his ass lips the next. He whimpers again—but now it’s the sound of sexual gratification. “Put that beautiful dick in me,” he pants. “Please.” I lick a little more before I stand up. I have made him so wet, I have no problem getting into him. He gasps. And then tells me to fuck him. “Hard. As hard as you want.” I begin a slow pump and build quickly. I really want to give him just what he needs. “Will you shoot in me?” he pants. “Do you want me to?” “Oh, fuck, yes…” I fuck him harder. I am surprised to feel that I am close to cumming. “I’m close…” “Oh, God. Please. Give me your cum.” His whispering has become louder. “It’s been so long…” And I’m there. I shoot, holding onto his hips, bucking into him with each pulse of my cock. I marinate in his ass until his breathing calms. I pull out. He moves around to clean my cock of every stray drop of seed… The original is posted here: From My Side of the Sling: Giving Them What They Want (felchingpisser.blogspot.com) April 11.2022

Well, I'm still testing neg (last test was 3 weeks ago) - not that I've been taking all that many loads. My main concern lately is that I've had a bunch of trips this year. There was one around July 1st, then another early August, then one in early October, and then over Thanksgiving. And coming up there's a 2 week trip around New Year's / early January. So, doing the math… if I got pozzed fuck flu could have messed up one of the trips. I'm just too much of a control freak to let that happen. BUT, after the trip in early January there's nothing until probably April, so my New Year's resolution is to take a lot of loads starting around New Years and focus on situations and people where I'm most likely to get pozzed. The January trip is to California - so should have some decent opportunities to get take some poz loads to get the ball rolling. There is one top here in NYC who apparently is toxic and wants to poz me, but he's also into other STIs. I just wanna get pozzed. The other stuff is a major turn-off. The other complication has been work and other "life" stuff keeping me busy. Not to mention at the end of the day I'm more likely to want to have a drink and take it easy than go out. Part of that is pandemic habits which I need to break, but the other part is just growing older and not having unlimited energy for sex. But mentally I'm definitely "there". I want this and and I want it bad and basically have zero reservations about it. I've worked through whether this is some form of self harm that I should be worried about, or whether it's due to depression or something - it's not. The risk of becoming poz has turned me on for nearly 30 years. And about 10 years ago I had come to the conclusion to just let it happen – but then PrEP came out and I figured it would be easier / less complicated to stay neg. That didn't last long though - a few years later I started gradually taking less and less of my PrEP until I finally stopped. Then there were a couple years of not much sex as I examined what in the hell I was doing, and then just when I was getting ready to take real risk the pandemic hit. So now the desire to be poz has grown and it needs to happen. So much so I might even let the toxic top here in NYC breed me - even if it involves other STIs… The next few weeks I'll probably focus on topping, but once I'm on the trip to CA I'm gonna need poz cock and loads in my ass!