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It's been a bit. I took a break, but started playing again. More topping the occasional hole, but no such luck with vers or tops to breed me.  That's alright, as I have a lot of fun doing the breeding as well.

Some chats here and there with neg and poz guys alike, who don't live in the area.  Some chats with flakes here and there who fantasize about my unknown load.

This week, though, a bear bi daddy reached out.  If he is a bi married guy like me, then maybe my boat just picked up a passenger.  After the holiday I will be seeing about getting together with him.  He can host daytimes (while the wife and family are away) or late nights (while they sleep, pump & dump only).  I suggested we get together between the holidays for a... gift exchange. He didn't skip a beat.  A few messages exchanged, and we agree that our interests overlap quite a bit. 

Either his horniness is speaking or he was legitimate in also telling me that he wants to include me in group play.  Even now, as I type it, my heart beats loudly and a wash of excited energy surges through my body. I'll jerk to it, but not get my hopes TOO far up, in the potential outcome of a regular 1 on 1 hook up that also has a benefit of being a part of existing group play from time to time.

I was sick again, and decided to get tested.  I'm neg.  Kinda surprised!  It's a good thing, but I'm still having fun and seeking hard cocks to send me down the bareback slut path.  I topped 1 ass since finding out: a 'neg' slut.. so again technically into the 'unknown status' territory, though likely neg.

I was recently contacted by a guy who doesn't live here, but I suspect travels here on occasion, and his status is 'do not care'.  His build is to my liking, he has a great cock, and he's verse.  He was very direct and says he wants to slide his poz cock into me.  My hole twitches and my cock stiffens, thinking about the social situation and one thing leading to another. Once a move is made I wouldn't stop the fun and his poz cock would, indeed, be deep inside me leaving the first of what I would hope to be many loads.  Woof!

I've been ill the past few days.  Aches.  Swollen glands. Sore throat.  

I've been topping guys for a year now, plunging my raw cock into a few regular holes every 3 months or so, and adding in the occasional 'quickie' with single-serve holes.  A few claim u=u, some claimed neg, and I definitely went all in on a poz "i'm not taking my meds anymore" guy.

While the chances are.. slim.. and I don't get myself checked out like I should.. This adds to the continued mystery of 'unknown status'.  I have yet to bottom, and it's my goal to get into trouble before 2024... clock is ticking.. but I wasn't expecting to be ill right around this holiday. I *had* plans to meet up with a guy to get my first load.. but here I am.. wondering.. my cock completely erect at the prospect.

I changed my 'looking for status' on BBRT to "No Preference". I've been contemplating it for awhile, and the truth of the matter is that when I meet potential sex partners discussions of STIs or HIV status simply never take place.  Thus, to be in line with how these transactions have been going, and to hopefully encourage the U/+ guys to reach out or respond, I've made the change to my profile.

Super thrilled to have just ordered the Vixen Outlaw!  Years ago I had the most amazing Doc Johnson Supercock that felt incredible, but I was bummed to discover none of the products I've since tried on the market are quite like that one toy I had.  I don't want to spend the money on the RealCock 2, either, so I think the next best thing will be this Outlaw. Reviews are solid (pun intended), and it's nice and big.

I also ordered a ring + ball stretcher to try, as well as one of those chrome looking rings I see some of the daddies wear.  Next time I'm topping a bottom slut, sissy, or CD, I'm totally wearing that hardware.

Now I know what they mean by there being 'a lot of flakes out there'. Ah well.. I'm keeping at it!

I've begun recording my self-pleasure and talking about my sexual history and motivation.  I hope to add to it encounters with guys so I can chronicle my growth/change into the sexual being I aim to become.  A video journal of sorts.

I still have a few prospects I'm trying to 'nail' down (or nail me, in some cases). Cross your dicks for me!

Small steps.

I put partial face pics up to share with a potential hook-up on BBRT. Yum.

It came on the heels of being in heat today, bouncing on my huge king cock and in a new-to-me thing to do: ATM'd the fuck out of it.  I was so turned on.

I'm nervous.. which is probably good.. to meet up with this person.  Fancy ideas in my head of regular fun.  Fancy ideas about his 'undetectable' status.  I know in my heart of hearts that once I feel my cock slide into an ass, or once I feel one slide into me, I will be hooked and the nervousness will melt away.

Catching up here.  Boston was bust!  Either the options were too far for me to easily get to, or I was completely booked up for work-related events.  The two guys, in particular, that I fancied completely ghosted me... but I already know that happens more than it should.  Ah well.

It's a shame, too, as I was given an accessibility room and the bathroom was the style that had no barrier from the shower into the tiled flooring so there was a drain in the middle, nice open space, and a comfy bench that was at one end of the shower. It would've been so fun to play in there. At least I had some fun alone time.

Very interested in chatting w/you.  I'm up in Seattle but will be in PDX and have a night free in a few weeks.

Been looking for fun while on my business trip, lined up a few guys. One is an older horn dog who is super into poz talk. Claims to be negative but you know how THAT likely goes. He was hoping I'd be taking poz loads before I come to his neck of the woods. He has a gorgeous cock. The other is an 'ask me' status type, of which I'm not asking, but down to earth "poz friendly" guy that seems to have the right personality for me to click with. He wants to flip-flop and that sounds fun.  I might still make the 2hr trek (by public transport) to Megaplex, but I'm worried I'll be disappointed on a Monday night. No shortage of bottoms if I need that.

I was searching for fun on the trip when a local (to my area) contacted me and, for the first time, I was not only having a back and forth convo with more than 4 word replies, but I was legitimately attracted to ALL of him, and have been looking forward to finding time to get together.  Bear build, but smooth, vers.  Since this is BZ I'll mention he is poz, but undetectable (which is great for me at this stage of life). Hoping for a good connection for being FBs.

The best of situations has fallen in my lap: A business trip entirely across the US! 4 nights! No co-workers! The first time I'll be submitting to my desires while traveling and hopefully finding some fun.

Well.. there we go.. banner and profile.. not ready to share my face/body entirely publicly but uhh.. this is a start. I also discovered I get super horny taking pictures. I didn't have time but I would've pounded myself with some toys and made more content. I'll do that when I have time next.

Been looking at posts here for years.. been playing with my toys for longer.. it's time to explore and experience.  Nervous, but in a good way.  Hmm.. next step is pics for profiles.