So I'm a discreet married guy (to a woman, I'm bi), and have used toys on my ass before; but have always been a greedy top. I love using some mouth and ass for my pleasure and walking away. As some background, I was raised in a very religious household. Being gay was a huge sin... blah blah blah.... I didn't realize I was bi until I was in my 20s and couldn't find online pussy (Craigslist back in the day), and a random old guy kept responding to my add about being able to suck cock better than any woman. After a bunch of drinks and not responses from females, I took him up on it; and he was right. I didn't last 5 min before I was pumping a load down his throat.
Fast forward a lot of years and I've gotten sucked (and sucked) along with fucked a lot of guys. While I've toyed my ass and had my prostate massaged, I've never had cock, and I'd been thinking about that a lot. So finally, one night with a bottom who was rimming, I told him I wanted to get fucked. He acquiesced and fucked me (he didn't have a big cock), it took a few minutes to get used to it (it hurt), and he didn't last long, But I finally got fucked.
To add, I wanted my first time to be the full experience, I wanted it raw and I wanted to feel him cum inside of me. I've heard that some people can feel it, and some can't. Sadly in this occasion, I couldn't feel his cock swell and pulse. But he said he doesn't fuck guys often and that he's mainly a bottom, so its nothing against him at all. I asked and he was nice enough to fuck me.
So long story long, I got my first breeding, and though I still see myself as a top, I do want to feel it again. Based on how I was raised (religious), there is a HUGE [banned word] factor when it comes to fucking/getting fucked by another guy, and I only want bare, I want to know my seed is being pushed up in his ass, a load that should have been my wife's and my next kid, is now coating the gut of some guy that I hardly know. I want to come home full of another mans seed and kiss my wife with a pleasant smile, maybe even fuck her while his sperm is running around in my gut.
