I have always considered myself straight. My entire life has been consumed by women: I am attracted to them; I want them; I desire them; and I have sex with them. But — and this is a big but — I have always had a fascination with cocks. When the internet came into being, I was obsessed with looking at porn. Eventually I made my way to some gay sites and my curiosity was piqued. Then you start to fantasize about acting out: maybe I could hook up with someone without getting caught. I joined several gay sites; it seemed so simple, yet I was scared to death to actually go through with it. It was one thing to fantasize about it, quite another to actually do it. Could I really go and meet someone and have sex with them? If I was going to do this, I was not interested in just jacking off with a guy, or even just a blowjob; I wanted to experience it all, including getting fucked by a guy. I eventually met a guy from this site who was gay and was interested in meeting with me. His cock was average in length, but wow, was it thick! I took his cock and looked at it, trying to get the nerve to bring it closer to my lips. I knew if I did that, I would be forever known as a cocksucker, even if it was only me calling myself that. I did it anyway: I brought his cock to my lips. I licked the head, letting my tongue swirl all around it. It was the most natural feeling, like I had been doing it all my life. I knew I had to have his cock in my mouth. As I started sucking, all of a sudden, he placed his hands on the back of my head and pushed himself deep. I did in fact gag a few times as he kept pushing deeper and aggressively started fucking my mouth. His cock was even thicker than I thought, as it completely filled my mouth. I started to think I was going to choke when he cums, because he wasn’t allowing me to breathe. His thrusts kept getting faster and deeper, and I was taking all of it. I surprised myself as I had never even touched a guy before, let alone sucked a cock. After what seemed like about ten minutes, he unloaded deep in my mouth. I had a mixture of emotions going through me: I wasn’t sure I wanted him to cum in my mouth, but it did happen, and I wasn’t grossed out like I thought I might be. Actually, it wasn’t at all unpleasant, and I knew then that I wanted more. I was a little disappointed that it was over so soon: I really didn’t want to stop. I now want that thick cock stretching my virgin ass… It hasn’t happened yet, but we are making arrangements for him to pop my cherry very soon. I can hardly wait, as I’m pretty sure I’m now hooked on cock.
