The thing I’ve learned about as I continue to learn to be the best sub I can be is that the fantasies I’ve had from the start of being treated roughly, being degraded and physically punished, bred, peed on or in, being spit roasted, being videoed, forgoing safe words, ignoring warning signs from anonymous hookups who turn out to be unstable, violent tendencies, homeless or just weird, these fantasies don’t usually give me much pleasure when I first experienced them, and even in the moment I’ve thought I never want that again, but then after it’s done and I think about it, the memory turns me on so much that I want to do it again, and before long, after another try or two, I start to enjoy it just like in my fantasy. So if you go for total submission, which is what I strive for, you need to stick with it and realize you won’t become an expert overnight. If you can manage to remain submissive and do what your dom says even if you don’t like it, that’s all they want and they’ll have a great time and you’ll feel good about that. Also, someone said be prepared to pamper the dom in other ways also, put their drinks, take their empty glass and put it away, light their cigarettes, make sure they are comfy, ask if you can fold or hang their clothes, offer them a snack. You are there to serve!!