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I've just started to feel better after what I can only describe as another of the worst weeks of my life. Why? No reason at all. I had a bad downer after parTying, something I think I won't ever do again now, and being on a reduced dose of my antidepressants.

I went from feeling ok on Monday to feeling suicidal on Tuesday and Wednesday then to thinking I'd damaged my brain. After that I started slowly to get better, but only after going back to my original dose of meds.

So I'm starting to think I may also have a chemical imbalance. I have also now found that relaxation and self-hypnotherapy work really well for me.

If anyone has really bad downers, go see your doctor!

Just had a hot session this weekend with my daddy and his boss. They strapped me into the sling in a rubber wrestle suite then fisted and played with my hole and topping me up with water. They wouldn't let me out of the sling until I'd pissed myself.

They hit that spot and pretty much have me an all over body orgasm as bladder emptied, then kept going until it happened again.

I consider myself a true pig now, and it definitely wasn't a low. Think I made them both proud that I'm becoming such a good dedicated pig.

Also breast milk' date=' precum also can.[/quote']

Damn it! I knew I'd miss something. Though the breast milk isn't a big one for gay guys is it? I don't know many that lactate lol

More often it's the cock. I'm heavy into anon fucks' date=' mostly tune out who it's attached to. I thrive on getting more and more dick and loads once I've started with the cum-slut mode.

Sometimes I hook with one guy and the whole time I'm focused on him and our pleasure. Default is drop/spread and take everything that wants in.[/quote']

I hadn't really considered it from that point of view.

For me it's the Man I fuck/is fucking me, I don't really do anon although if I did it might become more about the cock.

If I'm getting fucked I like a man who can get inside my head as well as my arse and give me a whole mind/body fuck, the kind when you start to shake and kinda loose control of your body a bit.

You can't get that from just a cock pounding your hole.

There are also many guys out there both hung and average that just don't know how to fuck, and I have to admit I used to be one of them, but I had a good teacher so it's not a problem now lol

And yet another within weeks!

This time Karim from Colt Studios. Possibly suicide again. It pains me when people see suicide as the only way out, been there myself and know how hard you have to fight those feelings so they don't take hold.

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Bearing in mind that most holes will bleed a little during vigorous fucking and that even shit often contains small traces of blood' date=' the primary means of transmission seems to be anal blood or infected shit getting into the urethra ( piss tube of the cock ). The urethra is lined with a delicate membrane and a pre existing infection such as urethritis or gonorrhoea makes it more vulnerable. [/quote']

A bit of incorrect information there I'm afraid. HIV can only be transferred through infected blood, semen or vaginal fluid. It cannot be transmitted through faeces, urine, saliva, tears or sweat.

The only way shit could infect with HIV was if it was loaded with fresh blood in which case I dare say the bottom has more serious issues to deal with at that moment in time.

See: http://www.aids.org/topics/aids-faqs/how-is-hiv-transmitted/

Be very careful fella, auto asphyxiation is a bad idea, all it takes it that second too far and you can die. It happened to Kristian Digby: http://www.telegraph.co.uk/culture/tvandradio/7351843/Kristian-Digby-the-BBC-presenter-may-have-died-in-sex-game-gone-wrong.html

I've noticed there seem to be a high number of current and past gay porn stars committing suicide lately. Such a shame.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mobileweb/2013/02/05/arpad-miklos-gay-porn-star-dead_n_2624369.html

"The body of Arpad Miklos, 45, was found Sunday next to a suicide note that instructed close friends on what he wanted for his memorial.

A gay porn star has been found dead in his lower East Side apartment from an apparent suicide, it was revealed.

The body of Arpad Miklos, 45, was found by friends on Sunday — next to a suicide note that instructed close friends on what he wanted for his memorial.

He also wrote that he “knows there will be judgement, the haters can hate and speculate” but he did not give a specific reason as to why he killed himself.

Police found pill bottles and alcohol containers scattered around the body, police sources said.

The tragic news was confirmed by New York writer Randal Lynch on the latest instalment of the GwistTV “Gwissues” show.

Of Miklos, whose real name was Peter Kozma, he said: "He was a great guy on top of (being a porn star). There was a lot more to him than just that surface persona.

"He was a very active person in the gay community. He wasn't happy, I would say, but he wasn't going into crying fits. He was a hard nut to crack.

"I knew he was depressed, but I didn't realize the severity of it, because he was not a very talkative person about his own emotions.

"He wanted people to know that he was OK and wanted to put on a front for everyone around him."

Hungarian-born Miklos, who worked as a chemist before being discovered by the Kristen Bjorn porn studio in 1995, starred in 60 gay and straight films over his 15-year career.

He was also voted Best Top Escort at the 2007 International Escort Awards."

That genetic test company was 23andme.com

Wasn't expensive so long as you live in the states.

I love my PA. I'm at 5mm, have worn 6mm and tried 7 but it was just too painful. Wish I could get it bigger.

My other half used to have one but caught it and ripped it out one day. He can't get re-pierced either so he's a bit gutted about that.

My advice to anyone with a PA is when you're in the kitchen or doing things around the house, wear underwear at the very least!

Now that's hot! When my partner and I upgraded our PAs I had them sterilise the rings and use them to replace the rings I already had. My partner died five years but I still wear his first PA as a titring. I don't know which ring was his (they never told me)' date=' but i think the whole thing is kinda romantic...[/quote']

That is romantic

Can't say that I have' date=' Bttmboy4daddy. I'm a bit too shallow. I've gotta find the guy a sexual turn-on, or I won't play with him. I've even found that if I intellectually know a guy is hot, but if I also know he has a nasty personality, I don't even register his sexual quotient: my brain focuses exclusively on his unattractive personality, and so don't want to have anything to do with him.[/quote']

I'm with you here - I was in Gran Canaria with my partner and a really hot muscle bear came up to me and started taking. Then he asked me if 'that' was my partner. I said yes to which he looked at him and said, "oh, that's a shame", made my man feel so small I told him to fuck off.

Instant turn off that he was such a nasty piece of shit.

If I ever pozzed I'd probably get two. One just below my waistline above my cock so guys know when they are suckin me what's going up their hole.

The other would be around my pucker so when I bottom the top can slide his cock through the biohazard symbol.

I have to say this again. I have already put it elsewhere and it needs to be mentioned here.

This study was of 752 or so men who use Grindr in New York City. Now in any major city you will normally find a higher concentration I gay men and also a higher percentage of those who bareback/have HIV. It's the nature of the gay community.

However I don't see how a study of a tiny proportion of men can constitute an accurate picture. How does this represent all gay men?

At best it's a poor study trying to draw attention to gay men barebacking.

Show me a study of say 100,000 gay men from mixed cities an rural areas around the world, or better 1,000,000 gay men, and not just those who use Grindr and I will then be more willing to believe the results.

When I have a big load or shoots even with my PA in. Sometimes it just runs out, though most of the time I can't see cause its up someone's hole when I shoot!

Are there any guys who've been in this kind of relationship for years already?

I have a daddy, he was the first guy to fuck me and the first guy to breed me. I don't see him as often as I'd like but when we do see eachother it's electric! The connection is strong and I trust him implicitly.

The daddy/boy relationship can be incredibly strong and in my view you only have one daddy. Bosses, masters and doms can change but daddy is there forever!

Smooth is ok, so long as its not shaved!

I don't think men should shave any part of their body. Trimming is ok to keep things tidy but I like my men to be men. Men should have hair.

I love rimming a hairy hole and then fucking it, seeing the hair matt together with the lube or cum while I'm sliding my hairy cock and balls in and out. Then I go back to rim again.

I don't agree that a hairy hole is hard to keep clean. My hole is spotless and I'm damn hairy back there. If you have a hairy hole, use a bidet or a flannel to clean properly after a shit/douche!

That's my 2 pence worth.

Yes, though normally you pay to get in then redeem a drink with your entry voucher.

That's how it works in many places in Berlin, Gran Canaria, London (though more expensive).

In GC nearly all the bars have darkrooms, others are just plain old sex clubs.

You have clubs where you can pay to get in but then once in you don't have to buy a drink, others have free entry but you have to buy a drink.

People buy porn? I was kind of interested in Slammed until I read somewhere it was about guys on meth.

Thing is, you don't actually see anyone do Crystal, so it's more the idea they try to put across. Now there's a fair chance that the guys in the film have slammed, but how do you know for real?

The other question is how many porn film from TIM and elsewhere have you seen where the don't make mention of drugs but there's a fair chance the guys are tweaking or high on other things?

Fuck me mate!! awesome cock...

Thanks fella. I love fucking a nice hairy hole with it

I have fucktards, it's ok, not one of TIM's best but has some good scenes.

For me Liam Cole's in the flesh is a good one.

Be careful in Newcastle jimjams, there are a lot of arseholes about (and elsewhere I'd guess) who will have no problem in dicking you then telling you they are poz after.

What type of guy you lookin for?

I got no problem with that!

I love fucking a hot masculine beefy hairy man! The less like a bottom he looks the more I want to give him my 8 uncut inches up his hole!