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I work for a major market network-owned television station. It is sometimes stressful and bears watching how it affects my numbers in the future, but at the present time I'm not terribly worried, especially since I have yet to see any major side effects from the Atripla.

UPDATE: After a week long break from here (not my choice, made for me. But this is not the place to air that grievance) I figure it's time to update on starting the meds. The doctor opted to put me on Atripla. I'm blessed enough to have health insurance which covers all but a $50 copay - and thanks to the largesse of our friends at Bistrol Meyers-Squibb, my copay is covered as well. I work a graveyard shift, which my doctor thought might pose a problem with how the medicine works, but so far it hasn't. I generally go to bed as soon as I get home from work, so I take the pill then. So far I haven't noticed any of the possible side effects like vivid dreams or inability to stay asleep. When I wake in the afternoon, I feel fine. On the two days I was off during the past week (Mon & Tues) I kept to the same schedule of taking the pill (anywhere between 8 & 10 am) as the other days and noticed no major side effects aside from a little light headedness (buzziness on day 2) and a bit of fatigue in the afternoon (day 1 and which went away after a short nap). I'll be interested to see where my numbers are when I go back to the doctor in June versus the first week of February.

Thank you for your well thought out response. I feel mentally prepared to start treatment and have already been thinking of ways to ensure that I take the pill every day, including getting a daily pill box. I initially hesitated about starting treatment to see if I was perhaps a "long term non progresser." But after reading the responses by Tiger and others, I realized I would rather be able to continue my sex life with less guilt and fear of infecting someone else. To defend green, I'm actually the person who originally brought up the subconscious chasing aspects of my sex encounters. The more I think about it the more I believe it's true. For the last two years (at least) I rarely asked about status when meeting someone from craigslist (where most of my encounters originated), but when confronted with someone's honesty I wouldn't follow through with the encounter. That's why it wasn't as big of a surprise when my GP informed me I had tested POZ.

Made an appointment with my doctor today for a consultation on side effects of the different meds. Thanks guys for the advice.

(Accidentally hit post and editing period timed out while typing the rest) ... since infection date. As for the time frame between the first visit and today's visit it was about 4 weeks - owing to the scheduling system employed by the physicians group/network I go to. However they have an online system where they post all blood work results and I was able to see them about 2 weeks ago. I knew my cd4 count was good because they posted the standard range, however I want sure how to read my load count so wasn't sure about it until today. As for medications I'm not averse to taking them. I'm on daily depression and statin medication already so it would just be another pill. Again thanks so much for the feedback it is greatly appreciated!

Thanks guys I appreciate the feedback. Again it was an option she offered with the stipulation that if I changed my mind at any time I could call and get a prescription. I'm pretty sure I was infected sometime between July and September. I got really sick with flu-like symptoms in late September that I'm pretty sure was my conversion. So I suppose it's been 6-8 months

Update: Saw the ID doc today and received some pleasantly surprising news: my load count is only 7070/mL and my CD4 count (731/uL) is basically in the middle of the normal range. Additionally, my virus is not resistant to any of the current class of drugs. The doc, who says she is normally a proponent of aggressive therapy, said because my numbers are good, I have the option of starting meds now or waiting. At this point I've decided to wait at least until my next 3 month blood work visit to decide. Pros, cons, advice is accepted and greatly appreciated.

http://www.edgeonthenet.com/index.php?id=155651 Says he met the kid on the app Jack'd and had unprotected sex with him.

The doctor I saw this week made a similar comparison, though not so starkly. Saying basically HIV is a manageable condition like heart disease or diabetes as long as I take my medicine and have my levels tested regularly. She's fairly young, probably 5-10 years younger than I (36). Maybe it's a generational thing? As we were wrapping up the consultation, she commented that I was one of the most well adjusted patients she has seen in a while. I guess having known people for years who are living with HIV (20+ year survivors, one of which is a former roommate now in his mid 60s) has helped lessen the blow and fear of what it can do to me.

Went for my first chat with the ID specialist yesterday. Wasn't quite what I expected... Had hoped the doctor would be able to tell me right away what my cd4 and vital load was. However that was not the case. They want to do all the drug resistance tests at the same time. So now another waiting game begins... It will be at least six weeks before I find all this out. I did get a short primer on which drugs are available and how they are prescribed, though to be perfectly honest it kinda went over my head. I'm hoping I don't have to take the three separate pills everyday. But I guess we'll see.

Couldn't add this to previous post because I timed l out: Of the sex partners I've told, one was the person I thought pozzed me. He said he couldn't have because he can't ejaculate during sex. One is the person I mentioned in the first post. One disclosed to me a couple weeks before my diagnosis that he came back poz (but we first fucked well after I came down with the "flu" so I know I couldn't have gotten it from him). and two others told me they are poz/undetectable (I didn't ask, they didn't tell so perhaps I have been chasing subconsciously for a while). Of those two, though, one I have been fucking semi-regularly for about two years and had tested neg at least once in that time so I don't think he was the source of my infection. At this point I've decided to stop worrying about who it might have been as i think it will only serve to make me crazy and in the long run not really give me much comfort. I'm a big boy and I made a big boy decision to take loads and this is one of the consequences of that decision.

Since the diagnosis, I've told a few people, mainly some recent sex partners that I knew how to get ahold of. But for the first time since my doctor broke the news to me, I was confronted by it and what it means. I went to see an ENT specialist, within the medical services group I use, for an unrelated issue. Afterwards, he suggested surgery to correct the problem I was having. He then casually asked if I had seen their "ID" specialist yet (my appointment is Tuesday). Turns out I might have to wait until or if I go on meds to have the corrective procedure done. Waiting is fine, it's just sobering having to think of it ahead of what should have been a routine decision.

Thanks guys. right now I'm not hating on myself or anything. I don't feel like a pariah or that I'm going to die in a few months or weeks-I know far too many people who are long term survivors (like those who have replied to this thread). The medical group clinic I go to here in Houston has an infectious disease section that my doc says will call me next week to schedule an appointment to get more testing (I'm assuming for my load count and to talk about meds). I've pretty well traced my infection date back to around the first of September (i got terribly sick the week of 9/24 for about 4 days) and I think I know who infected me. As I said before I wasn't chasing but I was talking greater and greater risks and I sorta suspected this guy was POZ and still let him fuck me. Maybe sub consciously I was chasing. But on the night in question I think I took three or four loads. Also I'm not a drug user or much of a drinker so neither of those played a factor in getting me pozzed... My vice is sex. So I dunno.

I know the headline sounds flip and that's a bit on purpose. I just honestly don't know how to feel about finding out I'm POZ. It's, I guess fairly anti climactic. Years ago even though I was barebacking regularly I had this vision in my mind that I would break down and have a good cry, throw a fit or curse my luck. Today when my doctor broke the news I just felt. Ehh...OK. I wasn't actively chasing it but I wasn't actively avoiding it either (by that I mean asking about HIV status before opening my ass for a strangers cum.) I know I have a long road ahead of more doctors apts and testing but in a way I feel somewhat relieved. Is this normal? Will I crash and burn sometime in the near future? One of the first things I did after learning my status was to tell one of my regular fuck buddies. I felt he deserved to know. I even bought him an Oraquick kit (neg, to my relief). But I have had a lot of anon, didn't really even get a look at their face encounters over the last 4 or 5 months so tracking them down is going to be next to impossible. How should I address/confront this? Thanks for about advice you offer. PS: I'm fairly certain this isn't a false alarm. Doc says the lab ran the sample twice, both times coming back POZ.

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Monday night is my Friday night so it's a chance to get slutty and take as many loads as possible. Started off at my fuck bud, "Gulfgate Twink." I love sucking on this skinny dude's fat 8" cock and letting him breed my cunt. His dick is the perfect size and shape to take down my throat with very little gag problems -- that is until he starts twitching it when my nose is buried in his pubes. After he's nice and hard, I offer up my ass and he slips in. He's good for a 10-20 minute fuck and he loves when I tighten my ring around his dick. I keep it pretty tight the whole time he pumps away, which feels so fucking awesome on my hole. The friction has a secondary benefit, it causes the skin to swell up just a bit too. He's usually a pretty quiet fuck, so when he starts moaning I know he's about to breed me. Pretty soon he buries deep and unloads his usual big load (don't know if I've mentioned before, but this dude has a huge set of low hangers in addition to his nicely sized cock. Always able to pump out a huge load). Once he's done using my ass, I clean his dick (which I think turns him on a bit), dress and leave. On the hunt for more cum. There's an email from my CL ad. Black dude on the SW side what's to breed my ass. Pictures show a nicely sized cock, so I head his way. While driving, he sends me this email: "Can you suck too I need a good sucking to make me good and hard...give a veteran some good ass on Veterans day!!! Serve your country I did!!!!" Read More Here

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Love getting my ass bred and taking multiple loads. This all started Sunday night. Thought it was going to be a bust, at first, because my Craigslist ads weren't getting much action (and the only that had sent me a text was like 60 miles away and I didn't feel like driving that far): "White cumhole needs filled up now! looking for black/latino BAREBACK ONLY tops....not your thing don't Need to travel to you MUST SEND A PIC (at least of your cock)" Then BAM two texts back to back. One was from a guy that's bred me several times in the past. He's a "straight" black guy that lives in a SW Houston suburb. He has a "man cave" above his garage that he breeds me in. I used to live really close to him, which made it convenient for late night pump n dumps, but I recently moved to the opposite side of town. I've got his number saved in my phone so I know it's him "Hot Mo City Top." I don't know his name, not that it matters, right? "wanting to drop this 2dy load in your ass before I jack it off" says his text. Since I was near downtown at that point, I headed over so I can feel his thick 8.5" cock pump me full of cum. Around the same time, I got a text from a guy that hit me up before, but seemingly flaked out. I had driven to his hotel and when I got there, he didn't answer my texts. He apologizes and says that night he dropped his phone in the toilet while taking a shower. It sounds plausible enough, so I let it go. Tell him that I'm about to get bred and that he can fuck me afterwards. He's cool with that. Get to "man cave's" house and we go upstairs. He's a tall black dude, probably late 30s/early 40s. Slender except for a slight beer gut. I start sucking his cock, deep throat it a little then turn around and stick my ass up in the air. Take a couple hits off my poppers and feel his cock pushing against my hole. I rarely lube up before getting bred, because I love spit fucks. Spit a little into my hand and rub my hole and he slides in to the hilt. He fucks me for a good 10-15 minutes before moaning and shoving it deep. FUCK i love taking his nutt. He pulls out, I turn around and suck on his dick a little, cleaning it up. We get dressed and I bounce. Text the next guy that I'm on my way. He's up on the NW side, but about halfway between where I am and where I live. Get to hotel. Start sucking his dick a little, get it hard enough and climb on it. He’s about 7.5, not real thick. I ride his cock for a little then roll off and put my ass up in the air. He slides in and goes to town. “Man cave” must have nutted a big load, because pretty soon there’s slurping sounds as “hotel” starts digging deep. He shoots once, then flips me on my back and fucks me some more to shoot a second load. Pulls out, go down on his dick and right into all the cum that’s leaked out over his pubes. Get dressed and walk out of the hotel. Labor Day. Get online and find a guy on BBRT visiting from out of town at a hotel a few miles from my house. Skinny white guy that’s into bears. I get to his hotel and immediately we’re on each other. He’s fucking hot. Got about 7” cut cock, great body. Turns out, he’s a flight attendant on a layover. He sucks me for a little bit, then shoves his cock in and goes to town. Pretty soon he says “you want my load” “ yeah, man fucking breed my hole” “yeah?” “yeah man” and he does. Shoves it hard and unloads. Pleasantries exchanged and I’m on my way. Load 4 doesn’t come until later in the evening. A black guy on A4A lives nearby and wants to fuck. I head up there and pretty soon he’s balls deep in my ass. Still have “Flight Attendants” load in me. Fuck it feels good getting another raw cock up my slut hole. He’s got a buddy, so maybe next time I can get double loaded.

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Was trying to slut around at a bookstore on Houston's north side, but didn't have any luck. So I put an ad on craigslist and ended up at this guys house not to far away. I sucked him a for a few minutes and then he mounted me and busted a huge nutt in my ass. Next I hit up this guy that fucked me the night before. Older dude, big dick. He had a buddy he wanted to tag my ass with. So first went to his place, which is in an older semi-rural neighborhood. The night before, he fucked me outside next to his truck, about 25 feet away from the street. Last night, i sucked him for a bit outside then we drove over to his buddies house a few blocks away. The dude backed his truck down the drive way and his buddies came out. I was a little freaked out because it wasn't as secluded as the first place but soon i was down on my knees going back and forth on their cocks. The second guy was huge, probably 10" and thick. It wasn't too long that I was huffing on poppers while he shoved his cock deep in my hole. They both took turns fucking me over the back of the truck until they both nutted deep in my hole. was fucking hot and can't wait to do it again.

Started with this ad on craigslist in Houston... tops wanted to breed my ass - m4m stocky white bareback cumhole looking to get loaded up. If bb/raw sex is not your thing, don't respond Prefer black/latin/ethnic, but open. anon is hot. can host in my dark bedroom. u walk in, find me ass up and ready for your load MUST SEND PIC...only txt/email will be answered. DO NOT CALL I WILL NOT ANSWER along with a pic of my ass that includes my phone number. Got a response from an old anon fuck-bud. Wanted to cum in, dump and run. Black guy, about 9 inches. LOVES anon. Had a playlist of bb porn going on my computer and was hitting the poppers when I heard the door open and he walked into the bedroom. Soon I felt his fat cock poking at my hole. God it felt so good to feel him go to the hilt. he fucked he hard and good for about 10 minutes then said "I'm going to cum" and she shoved it in deep and unloaded. I sucked him off for a minute to clean his cock...he dressed and left. Just before he arrived, my phone went off with another dude. This guy was black too, but didn't want to do anon. That's cool. He lived nearby, so waited for him to walk over. He arrived. Medium height, lean. nice cock hanging between his legs. I sucked him until he was hard and he slid it in....was hot using the first guys cum as lube. He fucked me for a good 30 minutes before unloading. Cleaned his dick and sent him on his way. About 10 minutes later a latin fuck bud had seen my ad and texted "you still taking loads?" HELL YEAH! So he drove over and within five minutes he was balls deep in my ass fucking me until he dumped load number 3. LOVE getting my ass flooded with cum.

Thought I would update everyone... I finally went for a full physical exam for the first time in years (had been in school and not had insurance). The doctor I saw at the "multi-specialty clinic" offered to do STD blood work as part of the exam. Waiting on the results to post to their online system, but no questions, lectures or guilt-trips while getting the exam or blood draw.

Hey guys... First post...and need some advice. 35 bareback cumhole. Rarely, if ever, ask the top's status. Don't go chasing, but know that eventually I'll turn up poz. I'm pretty content with that, when it happens it happens. Last time I was tested was back in April with one of the mouth swab tests at a bar here in Houston. Neg. But the pre-test "Health/sex practice" questionnaire frustrated me to the point of almost walking out. Wanting to get tested again, maybe full STD work-up...but don't want to be hassled/lectured about my choices by clinic workers. So how do you (not the broad you) short circuit the lecture during/after the testing? Thanks!