Greim

I just bone hard every time I see Poz, Not on Meds in a profile. I used to feel shame at the thought. What made me feel badly was the shame and not the reaction I had at a sexual or human level of pleasure or excitement. That realisation began a change in me that eventually realised that shame is something I have only ever felt when I erred against a rule imposed or taught by religion or state education systems. These all combine so that parents, friends from the street where you played as a child, others all know and speak a message that puts some things into the 'one of us/just like us' group and the process of 'othering' what is not accceptable does its work. Shame has no place in the life of any one. It achieves nothing except a self-loathing that is destructive and silencing. It makes for addictions that consume and for a social disconnection that leads to chaos. If you ever felt shame for a sin, and realised how ridiculous it is and overcome it so that wanking becomes a thing you do sometimes or often just because you are horny and need to shoot a load. There is a difference to how that makes you feel about yourself compared with the sin creating shame kids  of my generation carried through their lives and probably still do in some places. This BZ forum is a place where people can speak and experiment with their thinking on matters poz related. It is fairly important to safeguard it so that there is challenge and acceptance in a safe place where nobody is here for idle reasons. I had just about given up on BZ as a place where a connection can be made but I discovered yesterday that it works and I want to say thank you to BZ for the chance that gives me in my journey where there was awful shame once over what made me horny and now a total pleasure in the attraction which has broken so many of my limits from the past. I am not poz but am definitely a step closer to it now. I have  noticed, over the last months, huge increase in the energy for this lust. I have randomly met and talked with guys feeling it and the fact is we are more connected than I realised. I still have no idea how to post a pic or file on this platform....