I've got a question and maybe you guys can help. This is not something I'd feel comfortable talking to anyone I know about, so I figure an anonymous board is the way to go.
I recently got out of the military and a three-year relationship with my girlfriend. Yes, I'm straight, or at least I am for the most part. I've had a fantasy about hooking up with a guy for a long time. I don't know why, because I'm totally not interested in a relationship with a man, but I've been curious about it for awhile. I would've loved to have had a 3-way with my girlfriend and another guy and seen them both go down on me at the same time, but that unfortunately didn't happen.
What did happen over the weekend was that I hooked up with a guy I met on CL. That was my first time ever hooking up with a guy, but it was all at once incredibly satisfying and terrifying. He was staying at a hotel, so he gave me his room number. I told him before we met that I would wear a condom and that he would swallow my load after I was done and that I wanted to be rough and for him to be totally submissive. He said he was okay with that, that his door would be cracked and he'd be on his knees, ass up in the air. When I got there, I made him get on his knees, put his hands behind his back, and I jammed by cock down his throat. Then I made him get up on the bed with his ass up in the air while I put on a condom. He asked me was it my first time with a man and I told him to shut the fuck up, that I didn't tell him he could fucking talk. He just said "yes, sir" and waited until I put my condom on. I spit in his hole and then jammed my cock in and it felt incredible. I only lasted like three minutes before I came in my condom, which I took off and emptied into his mouth. I told him to get up and lay on his back and spread his hole open. He did and I stuck two fingers in and he said "my pussy's still hungry, man", so I stuck my raw cock back in his hole and fucked him till I came inside of him. It felt so much better raw and when I came inside of him, it felt like I had a full-body orgasm.
Ever since, I've been obsessed with it. I haven't done it again, but I can't stop thinking about it. I masturbate 2-3 times a day to it. I figure since this board is full of mostly gay men who like BB sex, have you guys (specifically bottoms) encountered other straight guys like this? I know it's not exactly normal, but I wonder is it more common than a lot of people think.