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I'm 5'10", GL, and looking for loads in northeastern PA. Any takers?
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So, first off, a big thank you to all the people who responded. I've thought about my life long and hard, and yes I must admit that mascmountainman was right...I was conflicted for a long time, and likely still am; however, that said, I'm trying to view my life differently. I realize I am poz, and no anxiety will remove that fact. I do love being loaded up and having lots of sex...but I want love, too...and I think part of my problem was that I viewed these two things as distinct opposites. I'm starting to realize that there can be a middle ground. I can be more careful who I sleep with...be piggy occasionally if I feel like it, but I don't have to discount love.
There is always a risk to contract something else...but that's just a risk. If it happens...I can deal with it then. There is no use wallowing in doubt or looking back and saying "if only..." I believe my mind is made up on this subject. I want to be a slutty lil cumdump, and I'm happy to find love as well. They're not exclusive occurrences. I don't have to feel pressured to be either.
Again, thank you sirs for helping me
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Hi random strangers of the internet! I'm a young poz (5 years now) bottom in Pittsburgh, PA. When I contracted, I was 21 and I had only slept with 10 or so guys by that point (pathetic, I know). Since I was diagnosed, I've slept with guys on and off, but never to the extent I desire. Shortly after sex I tend to feel anxiety about my health, etc. So far (knock on wood) I'm undetectable, but I've always had a weak immune system. I'm young, want to live more, but need encouragement one way or another to become a true cumdump, or just accept the loads of occasional men I sleep with (a couple a year). I know where most of you are leaning on that....but I need an answer knowing that I don't wanna catch something untreatable.
Anyway, I know it's a depressing conversation, but once I feel I know what i should do....Here is what I'd like:
1) If I'm NOT encouraged to be a cumdump, I'd like to find a top near me who isn't concerned with me being HIV positive.
2) If i AM encouraged to be a cumdump, I'd like to find a few tops (not necessarily near me), who can take me out and get me loaded up/gangbanged. I'll travel if need be. I prefer hot, in shape guys, but who cares if I'm blindfolded.
Hillside campground in PA
in United States: Other: Northeast
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I live nearby and have never been either...