Hi random strangers of the internet! I'm a young poz (5 years now) bottom in Pittsburgh, PA. When I contracted, I was 21 and I had only slept with 10 or so guys by that point (pathetic, I know). Since I was diagnosed, I've slept with guys on and off, but never to the extent I desire. Shortly after sex I tend to feel anxiety about my health, etc. So far (knock on wood) I'm undetectable, but I've always had a weak immune system. I'm young, want to live more, but need encouragement one way or another to become a true cumdump, or just accept the loads of occasional men I sleep with (a couple a year). I know where most of you are leaning on that....but I need an answer knowing that I don't wanna catch something untreatable.
Anyway, I know it's a depressing conversation, but once I feel I know what i should do....Here is what I'd like:
1) If I'm NOT encouraged to be a cumdump, I'd like to find a top near me who isn't concerned with me being HIV positive.
2) If i AM encouraged to be a cumdump, I'd like to find a few tops (not necessarily near me), who can take me out and get me loaded up/gangbanged. I'll travel if need be. I prefer hot, in shape guys, but who cares if I'm blindfolded.