Yeah he is making me the bottom cuz the meds are killing my sex drive enough that it is difficult for me to get hard or maintain a hard on enough anymore to fuck. And he wants to be in complete control of the relationship. Hell he had the fucking balls to tell me that a relationship without sex is not a relationship. That a relationship is based on sex, and nothing else. He lives in his own delusional world where he is right and everyone else is wrong. Accuses me of being one sided cuz I tell him no on something twisted he wants to do sexually. And threatens to leave or break up with me if I don't do it. So since I don't have a sex drive he is making me bottom when there are times I don't want to at all. And suck him off whenever he likes. If I don't do it I don't love him and that he is going to leave me. If I voice my opinion or feelings and using I statements I am bitching. I am OBLIGATED to put out. I am OBLIGATED to make him happy. His sexual needs are more important then my physical & mental health. Cuz his sexual needs affect his physical & mental health. Cuz he gets BLUE BALLS and is in intense pain. I will be dumping his ass after Christmas. I will be damned if I let him fuck up me going home to be with my family. Cuz if I dump him now I ain't going home. Cuz he is my way home. My family can't afford to pay for me to come home again. Cuz they already paid for me to come home once this year. And now that it is the Christmas season they can't do it again. So this year he is driving me home and we are visiting my family. Cuz it is too expensive for both of us to fly.