gangbangsuperstar

I adore your stories of how useful fuck doll you have been since very early age. It is amazing gift to fulfil ones potential as a dirty slut as you have done. I have wasted my life so far surrended by ordinary world of nice normal people. As teenager I already dressed pantyhose and wanked dreaming that I was fucked by group of men. Amazing thing about that was that at those days I hadn’t seen even one gay or trans porn movie. No internet porn then just VHS tapes. I didnt have any abusive adults or twinks around so I didnt know how to progress in small town. 

When I turned 18 I I got to visit Helsinki and went to districts I thought to find Women whores because only they interested me not girl of my age. Still trans or gay matters didnt really exist in my world. I visited some Women whores and felt very good about it. Then around 20 years old I dated to phone one older dirty old man to visit Him. He opened my asshole with fingers and then kind of opening His fist. This for the Anal virgin like me but it didit scare me and felt natural. And then he put huge Black dildo to my ass. Ofcourse it hurted somewhat but not too bad. After that he fucked me doggy style forcefully and wanted me to repeat rape my ass (in Finnish). Ofcourse I hadnt learned to clean my asshole well enough so after that it was a little shitty but off to shower I went. I felt pretty fine with all but needed kind of Daddy to take care of me. Unfortunately that Daddy just told me that if Invest interested I should call Him again. Well I never didn’t call Him again. Now it is easy to condemn myself of that how couldnt I contact Him but then I was very confused youngster and very shy and I had lots of studies and work at the same time. 
 

After a few more unsuccessful experimentations I tried my best to live kind of heterosexual man and even dated one woman over 5 years but it could never work out because I never felt a man at all. So around 40 years old 5 years ago I started my process towards becoming bimbo fuck doll. At first meeting men and transvestites at apartments and hotel rooms. I found out that renting Cheap key code hotel room and being cd slut there the whole reservation time worked me best to get multiple fucks. I sucked bare but ass fucks were with condom, No man suggested Bareback for me. Some time later I got my first Bareback ass fuck and Cum inside my hole and it felt very good. Then some more but still not much Bareback fucks for me.

Two years ago I went to official transprocess and now I will get my diagnosis in december and hope to get hormones and laser hair removals soon after that. I already taken some months estrogen which I got transwoman friend of mine. Later I want to get Big boobs, lips and booty operated. Now I already got structural nails all the time and long blonde colored hair. But the thing is that I all this progress is not enough for dirty slut like me. I need to live fulltime as bimbo fuck doll and take most of the time Bareback. 
 

I am sorry to write so long but what I mean it is so important to have role models like you to give me hope that I will sooner or later fulfill my destiny too as there is no other way for a slut like us. I get so excited you having in your profile dark web pornstar that is my dream to be. Nowadays I don’t dream about ordinary Kinky fucks but I think about things like dating Kinky sex tourists in Thailand or being whored out, doing Bareback group sex and gangbangs, Piss,Cum, being abused with other sub sluts by some closed circle of abusive men, doing Kinky porn. Those kinds of think now most of day. I hope to get someone to get me finally to get through the final step to enter fulltime life of dirty fuck doll. I wish so much to meet you someday and get to be a dirty slut with you and see you breeded by lots of Men like a cumdump you have always been my dear.