I'm addicted to sex and I hate myself for it. It doesnt make me feel in control at all. Quite the opposite! But when Im going through a particularly horny stage, I love it. I tend to plan ahead as I love the build up. Arranging anon fucks, ordering fresh poppers, shaving my ass. Then on the day I will douche and start taking load after load. Am never satisfied. I have even spent hours in local toilets waiting for any cock. Even drunks and tramps. When there is no more cock to be had I will shit out all the cum and use it to wank off to bb porn. Then I feel dreadful. Really really shit, to the point of wanting to commit suicide. This, I think, is because I have a boyfriend who loves me deeply. I love him too and weve been together 15 years. But my addiction takes over. All. The. Time. I loathe it and I love it.