Hi, Okay, I fucked up, I am not ready for this. I had a potential recent exposure and am worried...
Timeline: Sept 2 - hooked up, met this guy on A4A who said "HIV negative, safe sex only" visiting from out of town. Was going to be just oral sex but ended up being receptive anal sex (me as a bottom) with ejaculation (no condom) (Trust me, I regret this so much now). I asked his HIV status before and after. He insisted he is negative and tested in July. Sept 4 - Asked again by messaging. He says he is HIV negative and STD free. I've been on PEP once before so I decided not to be mean to my liver and didn't get it this time. Sept 14 morning - felt a sore throat, low grade fever, swollen lymph nodes in neck (I know, this is meaningless). Sept 14 evening - went for testing. POC ELISA negative as expected. Blood drawn for P24 DUO and pNAAT. Right now - waiting to hear back results but just dying. Did some digging and found a guy with similar stats and photo on another dating site, living in the same neighbourhood, and it says "I just contracted HIV (is undetectable)".
I am so obsessed while waiting for my results that I can't focus...any insights? I've already beaten myself up over it but if you are going to say "you are stupid"...I guess go ahead...
Thanks guys...