Hello, just hoping I could get some advice... I've always wanted to release my inhibitions and become the true cum slut I feel inside. Let start with a about myself...
I'm 22 and I've been cruising and trolling around gay hookup sites since I was 18. I've almost never met anyone not because I wasn't popular, but because I was a constant flake. It's not like I don't want to, I have just always had this fear right before I finally make a commitment.
I have been with men though, but only 2 notable times. My first will always be my favorite and I had multiple encounters with, but since I moved I never see. The second was good but mostly because he chatted with me for almost a year before he finally convinced me.
With my first I was 18, he was my first REAL gay hookup. He knew. We made plans and I got as far as the drive way before I started hyper ventilating and fumbled for my phone to call it off. He saw through my excuse to be called into work and merely replied "You get here NOW, boy!" I could only whimper to a "yes sir..." when I got there I had almost all my fantasies fulfilled as he throat fucked me over the side of his bed and then bent me over to take my cherry... didn't even ask to use lube or a condom...
I've longed for that feeling again but nobody just hits that spark I'm tired of being a flake and using chat to get off. But I just don't know how to stop myself for from holding myself back. I always make the excuse that I have work or family will find out. I just don't know what to do... maybe I'm just being a bitch