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Even thought I am feeling like crap, my dear POZ lover still drove home another load last night.  But, instead of an extended fuck session, he then just cuddled me until i was ready for sleep.  While we only have some signs and no proof, intuitively we both feel that we know what is going on within my body.  

Had a real "oh shit" moment this morning (really an oh shit day).  Woke up in a serious night sweat, lymph nodes in neck are solid as rocks and are very painful to touch.  My POZ lover has been claiming that he knocked me up the first time he fucked me......will not know for certain that he did.....but these "signs" may be a clue that he was right.   A good reminder to all that this shit is for real.....

This amazing string of POZ sex just continues.   I would have never thought that chasing would be like this.  I always assumed it would be random guys over a long period of time.  I have had more sex in the last week than I have had in months...and it has all been POZ cum.  The best part is that the reality of POZ guys being better lovers seems quite true.   I know my own inhibitions during sex are long gone...and the guy who is topping me is simply wild.   Still seems a bit dreamlike.

Three damned POZ loads last night....two different guys....wow...can hardly believe it.   Took one tonight and he is coming back after he gets off work for some more fun and a little T.   Was thinking I was gonna chase for ever and now am getting one or two POZ loads from this guy every night.   I really AM going to get knocked up.....

Six poz loads from same dude so far the year.  Should add two more to that count tonight.  He is supposed to be bringing a POZ bud as well tonight.  This is what a chase should be like....frequent fucking, lots of POZ cum.....and serious effort at keeping my ass receptive.   While no symptoms and a late December NEG test result, I am really starting to feel "POZ" at least mentally.   FUCKING FEELS GREAT.

Dude from the other night is coming back in a few minutes.  Can't believe I am getting more POZ jizz this soon.  

A bit over 90 days since I rode a raw POZ cock for the first time.  Still less than 10 toxic loads and tested NEG just before New Years.   Not as easy to get knocked up as one might expect.  But that remains my goal for this year.  

December test just turned out negative.  Need to find more infected guys to fuck with.

Finally got another POZ load on Sunday.   Wish I could find more willing and unmedicated POZ guys who would share their treasure.

I have taken a POZ load three times now.  I am finding it to be quite intoxicating and very addictive.   It is all I can think of and I am spending a lot of time trying to line up more.   At this point, there is no way I can stop chasing.  Powerful, powerful urge.