rawsatyr
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I'm having an old school AIDS=scare survivor living with HIV for 40 years. No he is no beauty but oddly fascinating! Ravaged and scared by the plague that none of his close friends from the early 1980's had survived. I was a freaked and frightened vanilla twink in those years and I stayed a stunted, stymied and sexually repressed serial monogamist until the mid 2000..
Converting to the poz camp (unexpectedly) and then together with my gifter formally entering the RAW IS LAW BB culture has turned my world inside out!
RAW IS LAW and PROMISCUITY RULES and we also pledge to NO LOADS REFUSED
Ugly fuckers and those we would have never given the time of day to or suddenly ON THE MAN MENU!
A HARDCORE POZ veteran as a TYPE has progressively INTRIGUED me and is featured in a lot of poz fetish memes. (attached examples)
He intends to inseminate this afternoon, looking me in the eyes during the explicitly UNSAFE SEX procedure conducted with POZitively no PROTECTION as he is totally into the vulgar-verbal scene using the popular TERMS OF ENDEARMENT once used as derogatory slurs and then later claimed as SLUT TALK by the bb-underground. CUMDUMPSTER, MANWHORE, PROMISCUOUS SLUT, breeding, seeding... raw-dawging... you get the drift!
Any commentary? Questions? Any constructive input for SCENARIOS? There will be REPEAT sessions to integrate them as he would like to tag-team with other poz tops!
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UPDATE: oh that was POOR editing in the original entry... it should have said "I'm having this HIV-veteran COMING OVER!
Bottom-line: it was a spiritual journey for both parties. For me it was the having contact with somebody who for most of my life I would have never had sex with! TOO SCARY for the first quarter century of THE PLAGUE that he endured. But now to the NEW POZ me, it was an anxiously anticipated and oddly THRILLING SEXUAL RUSH!
For him the 'having sex with ANYONE' was a mile-stone and a highlight, as he apparently for the last 15 years has been an asexual hermit, after surviving his partner lost to AIDS and feeling shunned by old school bible-belt gays hateful towards 'the poz world'.
The take-away of my otherwise sobering experience is that his physical condition is SO WRECKED it's no more fun! When reviewed on a Monday morning! Things you can simply overlook but not ignore! Him being wrecked from the early primitive 1980's HIV-treatments (starting with AZT) to the plethora of medical issues he is battling now. And the ugly truth I observed may be a Debbie Downer for those seeking to remain 'untreated' in the modern age of poz-seekers.
This man has had multiple cancers, losing his (real) teeth and part of his tongue in one episode, endured two liver transplants that he felt compelled to mention during the process of undress, as he had massive scars across his abdomen. He speaks in a barely intelligible slurring speech, wobbles when he walks in a uneasy gate, his hands shake and his eyes, when open, looked closed... to his great regret, the anti-rejection drugs he has to take for the rest of his life, affect his sex life to where half-limp masturbation seems to be the best he can hope for... some would dismiss this as a pity fuck but for me it was an elevating, almost spiritual experience.
That said, we will probably 'stay friends' FACEBOOK even, but the fizz and buzz is gone. It makes me appreciate my 'delayed entry' into the poz world, my relative commitment to health and fitness, and my strict attitude towards 'moderation' on anything potentially fostering addiction. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF & BE KIND TO OTHERS!
But I will still be an insatiable demon in a sling at some SKETCHY EVENT or location, 'flying high' like an immortal Anne Rice vampire, or willfully skating on (thin) ice HUNGRY for stranger-danger! Or I could be stone-cold sober but vulgar-verbal and fearless, enticing some biohazard marked veteran to BRING IT ON!
