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Planning to deep fist a French pig tomorrow (Friday). He's asked to meet at the bathhouse. I was planning to go there anyway.

What sort of other trouble should I get up to while I'm there? Open for suggestions because I'm celebrating a birthday! 

I did something bold yesterday. First, a story:

A decade ago, I linked up with a well-hung couple who unlocked my pig side. One of them, Jim, was the piggier of the two, and the one I spent the most time with. He got me into fisting and piss play. Sometime in 2012, he got pozzed and didn't tell anybody, not even his lover Don. On Don's birthday in 2013, Jim spread his bugs to Don. Jim died the following summer from unrelated sickness. I lost touch with Don for many years, and didn't know any of this except that Jim had died. It wasn't until shortly before my own lover died that Don and I reconnected. Last Thanksgiving, Don told me the whole story about Jim's sickness. Don has been living with HIV since 2013, and is undetectable, but still widowed. 

Now you're up to speed. Yesterday, Don and I were talking, and I admitted that I am a bugchaser. He fully supports it. If that's what I want, he says I should go for it. I took it a step further: he wants to visit me when he feels safe flying. Wants to fuck again like we did in the old days. I asked him to take a meds holiday to share his/Jim's bug with me when we meet again. 😮 He says he'll have to think about it, but he'd be happy to do this. 

Chances are high that it won't happen, and I gave him the option to say no. Don says he responds really well to medication, and doesn't know how long it takes to build enough toxicity to make it work. I speculated that a month would be sufficient.

Thoughts?

fucking sexy poz pig! no meds here too brother 

Recently bought marijuana for the first time. Legal here in Washington. Fuck, this "Gorilla Glue 4" gives an incredible high. I have yet to fuck while on this stuff. I could easily become a stoner out here, LOL.

Going to Walgreens today and dumping my PreP in the drop box. 

Two reasons: 

1. I'm a goddamn bugchaser, and I'd be a hypocrite to hang on to this.

2. It's expired. Not any good anyway. 

Thoughts?

I've decided something for myself. I'm going to stay neg as long as possible while building my new life. If I still want to charge up in 5 years (which will give me ample time to build that life), then I will become active in pursuit. Looking back over my life, the interest has popped up periodically and dropped off for long stretches. This current spot is the longest it's gone on, but who can say it will be maintained? 

I know some of you will be disappointed. But I'm doing what is right for me, and when I'm ready in other places, then it will happen. If it happens prior to the 5 years being up, then it happens and I deal with it. For now, that's the goal and I feel good about that.

Dick is a little itchy today. I washed my PA, and pulled out this white little film. Just a little piece. Almost like cum, but that's impossible. And one side under the head of my penor looks a little puffy and red. That's a new one. Wonder what horrible disease I have THIS time.

I did it, pigs! I joined Team PA, and got my dick pierced for my 40th birthday. It hurts now, but will be nice when it's healed.