I feel the same😔lost close family members to this pandemic and I think I have survivors guilt. I’ve never been active sexually,sort of pushed that side of me away for long time. First time I’ve joined any site like this-personals or only fans/justforfans. Just was browsing,came across what goes on at Fickstutenmarkt/Horse Market and I was floored! Like you, I can’t stop thinking about fucking and getting fucked! My bucket list fantasy is as a mare be to taken by as many,mature stallions as will have me-or that I can take! While I’ve never done bareback,I’ll take whats available to quench this ongoing desire! I love all men, but men covered in body hair gets my smooth cheeks twitching with anticipation! I had a fuck buddy prior to lockdown -he wasn’t handsome but is taller and bigger than me, with a mans paunch, strong,footballers legs and a gorgeous, cock of considerable girth-and knows what to do with it! He wasn’t into kissing 😔but he loved to fuck my tight hole! With my ass cheeks in the air ,he would get on his haunches- and the grunting sounds he made as his slammed his engorged cock-balls deep into me like a madman, sent electricity through every part of my body! After he finished, he would give both my ass cheeks a satisfied slap-still trying to hold onto his cock but the gape left after such a pounding wouldn’t let me!😂Sorry to go on,but I can’t wait for this pandemic to end!