From safe sex to taking loads

[partying.hard]

I only have worn a rubber three times (in high school because I was afraid of getting the girls pregnant). And I’ve only had a condom up my ass three times, because the top insisted. But I don’t like the way it feels and it tugs on the hair around my asshole. I think I was 18 or 19 the last time that happened.

Edited Friday at 03:08 AM by partying.hard

[polyglutton]

7 hours ago, Bottomsub8989 said:

But why is so addictive. I just crave to be totally submissive to males. And still baffles me. 

We evolved for this. Sexuality is a much larger part of human need than our culture or conditioning allows for. 

[bbslutdanny]

That's usually the case...

when I first to get fucked, I insisted the top wear condoms, but I found that some tops wouldn't stay hard with the condom which was always awkward. Then I started to get fucked raw by guys I knew as well and found that I preferred to be bred. It wasn't until I was gangbanged by sleazy men at a local rest stop that I discovered my true addiction for raw cock. I remember getting an anon message from a guy telling me that 2 of the dudes that were fucking me raw were POZ and that they had just gifted me. Instead of being disgusted and scared, I was so turned on that I feel like a whole new side of me opened up.

[UnsureAboutThis]

Do you seek out poz guys now?

[shinelover]

Sounds like a natural progression to me. I went from safe only -many years ago- to taking my first load. Which led to me wanting more loads. And eventually taking all loads. Then wanting/needing Poz loads. 

[UnsureAboutThis]

I am beginning to recognize that I'm on the journey now myself. It scares me because I feel like I'm losing control because the bug is in my brain now and visiting this site only seems to make it stronger. 

[Norcalfukkr]

Once you scratch the itch to take raw cock and get bred the itch grows stronger and stronger. At some point you just abandon condoms and fuck raw and take loads without question of status. I don’t even think about asking if the top is “clean.” I actually want them dirty just like me and fuck my pussy good. 

[Nude]

Super simple, was BBing very young with my buddy.  Did the safe thing, rubber hurts inside.  Went back to BB.  The only way for true pleasure!    🤪

[NicNorth]

Started off bb (admittedly before HIV was known about) - loved the feeling of getting a load in me.  Went on to condoms and kept to them until I started PREP now love the feeling of getting loaded and feeling the cum around my hole after being fucked.

[christine]

On 5/8/2025 at 12:14 AM, Splitcock said:

Sure, not a bad idea, I'm bottom (but who knows what could transpire) but at the bare minimum we have similar interests.

Are you on telegram?
I'm   t.me/cock mod

Where abouts are you,

 

4 hours ago, UnsureAboutThis said:

I am beginning to recognize that I'm on the journey now myself. It scares me because I feel like I'm losing control because the bug is in my brain now and visiting this site only seems to make it stronger. 

yes i have that urge,. i am very late in getting into it and have been on the edge viewing my options , the right man or woman to give myself to, its such a draw i know it is someone on this sitewho will take me.

[RawSlutAms]

I insisted on condoms until about 15 years ago when a regular fucktop started to breed me. It was only him for a while but since starting Prep I am a 'no load refused' guy - prefer in the ass but will swallow loads if the top prefers it. 

[AusBareBack]

Being married i have always reached to use condoms. But recently I have let guys cum in me without any protection. The risk is very arousing and to the point of craving poz cum.  I have tried to deny the urge but it keeps growing stronger. I feel like it's self destructive but it only grows stronger the more I try to fight it. 

[Cumfilledbottomboi]

I am a cumdump. Loads only for me. Been that way for a good 15 years now.

[Memphian]

On 5/29/2025 at 12:19 PM, UnsureAboutThis said:

I started out always insisting on condoms when I got fucked. Eventually I allowed my regular guy to fuck me bare but I told him that he had to pull out to cum. I went on prep but had too many issues with it so I had to drop off it. After recognizing that he only fucked me and his girlfriend, I changed and allowed him to cum in me. After a while I really started to feel the need for dick in me and since he wasn't always available when I felt the need to get fucked I began seeking others who liked to fuck bareback but I didn't allow them to cum in me. Eventually, the need to "get fucked" became the need to "get bred' so I started letting guys who fuck me breed me but I was always careful to check their status and only meet with guys who were negative and\or on prep. After a while, that caution  melted away so I no longer checked or cared about status. Fast forward, now I allow any guys who fuck me to breed me. I accept all loads but, as far as I know, I've never taken a detectable poz load.  Here's the thing, lately I'm feeling like I want, or maybe even need, to knowingly take a toxic poz load. I know getting pozzed is rare, if not impossible, on a first or second load so I think I need to give it a go. What are your thoughts?

I followed almost the same progression.  The tipping point was when I got stealthed two different times by anon guys at the adult theater.  I was pissed and scared, but also incredibly excited.  

Like you, I was on Prep but had to stop.

Now I no longer let a guy fuck me in a rubber, and I have started seeking poz guys.