The biggest challenge in my gender transition has been learning how to douche my ass. Not the surgeries and the internal bleeding , not the coming out over and over again, not telling my father or my son that I was planning on having a glorious BBC of my own.  No , the hardest thing,  is the mostly mental block to, cleaning the waste out of the trash bin so to speak. The humiliation aspect of being that trash bin for strangers starts right there. I'd be remiss if I did not say that the preparing myself  has become part of a ritual that is both humiliating and empowering. But it has yet go smoothly. 

Let me bring some context and highlight some key factors. There is both the physical content of one's bowels that I contend with and most of it is simply a matter of waste management. There is also a massive mental roadblock to connect anus with pleasure. And I don't believe that sexual preferences  nuliify these fears and aversion. There is a real and present danger to exposing yourself to feces. If you are from the Central Valley and have had your lettuce and spinanch disappear from your market, it usually because there is human feces contanination. This is very much highlighted by my educational focus of insects, parasites and the inescapable truth that we are all connected. Watch an episode of Monsters Inside Me. This alone has flatened the tires on this little dumpster  prospects of rimming. Delish...Back to the matter at hand. I do love anal sex though, it is vicious and raw and unforgiving. So me and my ass are on a mission. 

I am not new to anal sex but I am new-ish to recieving and  definitely new to the frequency and force. As female, I made many failed attempts at anal sex; it was always shockingly painful. Testosterone has wonderfully turned pain into a raging hard on. Even with the pain relieved, it was hard  to make any headroom in my ass. I am dedicated to providing the smoothest ride possible...so began a rigourous course of solo training. Through which a relationship began with my little gulping baby gape. I have invested more than a few paychecks into anal toys and lube. My play  has increased in intensity and frequency growing my confidence and easing some of my fears. 

If you haven't gathered, I am no power bottom, or a natural bottom. I have to work incredibly hard for every  inch I can take. My lower gut will always restrict my abilities and I think a few tips from you would help a great deal.I have always run on the constipated side and since surgery complications I really struggled to maintain bowel health.  I am that guy that needs at least two hours.  Diets make no difference.  And there is no question of not cleaning before hand. I have a massive fear of making a mess, it requires mantras and mid sex mediation to keep it cool sometimes. I come from a very proper, and prudish family, think ballet and cottilions. And the social indoctrinations for women  behavior run deep and dark.

I have weighed the idea of giving it up and I can't.

1.) have been blessed with the amaizing ass orgasms , come to Daddy . I

2.) and honestly I am insecure about being a gay man with only a delish boi pussy to pound on. And a lot of gay boys love that boi pussy. So it's me, not you

So there it is. Tell me your horror stories, tips and tricks, funny bloopers. Healthy fun is the priority.

 I will never be a porn star but I will be best  King Peach I can be for the men who love to beat it up