How about nine?

Ya know I used to joke to myself that I had another life. I recall once at my former Sir's leather group when I was around a bunch of leathermen I said something to my former Sir and retracted it. I think I called him by his name when I normally called him Sir.

You see I was living at home with my two fathers at the time (adopted by gay men when I was younger..long short boring story. Shitty years of my life..and painful) but going over to see my former Sir and his partner/sub almost every day. He said, "Haha living two lives taking a toll on ya boy?"

I would pretend around my parents and them for us to be normal gay friends. But around my former Sir and brother I was a leather slave/boy. With protocols and everything. And I would submit.

So I used to lead a normal straight like life/gay leather slave life.

So let's look at things now. Let's look at a time line actually. Straight-ish (can still pass for straight thank you)/Gay (to very few people)/Liking older guys/Leather/Bareback/Escort/Poz.

Now everyone wants to ask, "WHAT WILL HE DO NEXT." Well I told my co-workers Imma go rob candy at the bank. I only got one.

Damn.

I used to blog a lot in the past. When I was in middle/school/highschool I'd do something called "RPG" online with friends on forums. I'd stay up all night sometimes and some of them would make other forums after the ones we used were gone. Some had blogs and I'd blog my life on there but hid that I was gay. But I eventually told them and some of them were like "WTF", some were like, "K", some were like "Cool" and others were like, "I still hate you". But that was almost like home to me and an escape from my home. Even I faded from that I went to a gay forum called JUB after I turned 18. I spent a lot of time on there and a lot of time blogging. I made lots of friends on there and even some JUB meets I was able to meet some of these men. The Atlanta one was a bust since I was underage. But the Anaheim, CA one with Gaydays at disneyland was so much fun.

So basically me+blogging=win. But examining the aspects of my life. Gaming/Tech/Geek/Media/Drinking/Bars/Sex/BB/Poz/Load/Cums/Escort/Work/Rants/Travelling/Food

How do I combine these all into one. Well honestly I can't. I'm not strong enough to admit to everyoin in the world. "I'M A FAGGOT/GAMER/GEEK/POZ/BB/LEATHERMAN/SOCIAL DRINKER/LOVE GOING TO BARS AND DANCING/CURSE/ESCORT KINDA GUY".

That's a little too much to take in.

I already have my blog for escorting which I need to work on some more. I have a blog for hook ups/poz/bb/and random rants. I think I'm gonna make one more for the tech/geek/gaming side. I asked a poll on my blog and someone said that if I can show more of my personality/attitude people will like me more for who I am then just hook ups and sex. But that balance is good.

But I can't balance the tech/geek/gaming because it's impulsive and I can go on and on about.

So I'll three blogs.

One is mleatherboy for escorting.

fuckboy20 is for the hook ups/sex/bb/poz and rants.

And the third will be? I'm not sure what I'll call it. Maybe one of my old usernames like Videodude. That was a favorite. I used that name for a HELL of a long time. But I'm drinking too much right now to continue writing. But damn it sucks being broke right now. But things will get better.

Wanna have fun on cinco de mayo though. Eh, i'll find a way.