Oh yeah and my blog is done with. Damn google's new terms. To be honest I don't even know if I can continue blogging on here. About sex, hook ups, and stuff like that it's probably okay.

But things like my Sir to be and his partner, geek technology stuff, clients, emotional shit or stress I go through, and all that other stuff. No one here cares about that shit. All they wanna do is pyscho analyze me and go, "LOLZ you batshit dude". Not that talk like that will stop me but at the same time majority opinion rules.

And I post a lot sometimes. I don't. Hmm interesting.

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So with that. I could make it so I don't "blow up" the blog forum with my constant rambling, bitching, crying, and shit like that. Only moderators and people on my friends list could see it. That might be something I'll do. Since I know people will eventually complain if they see too much.

Okay. Now lets get on topic. A topic about not being on topic is actually on topic now? Inception.

For those who care and want to know what I've been up to.

As for sex. I haven't really been having it lately. I jerk off sometimes and sometimes I don't. Clients are the only times I've had sex recently. But last night. I've fucked clients safe and have been fucked safe too. But that man is just a passionate man, all the making out we did, the chemistry, a little weed, little alcohol, poppers, he wanted me raw. He told me it was okay so I fucked him raw and bred him. And then I fucked him raw some more but did not breed him.

But I know how it feels after sex if there is emotion or chemistry for a guy to just say, "Thanks bye." It feels kinda shitty. So I stayed longer. We had dinner too like he promised. It was delicious and I ate like a fucking starving kid in africa. I devoured the salad, the pasta, and the bread. I was so damn tired and full afterwards. We went back to the bedroom and played around some more and I dozed off for a bit. I woke up though and thanked him and left. We already discussed the amount and I already told him the price of an overnight. Which he does want to do in the future.

So maybe becuase I really like him, we have such good chemistry and I did fuck him raw, really fucked him and bred him, I wanted to give him more. I'm sure he really appreciated and knows that I gave him a partial overnight. So I'm sure we'll see each other again. But damn I felt like shit after. I went to mcdonalds and got a smoothie and some sprite and a parfait. And now I'm getting hungry too. Was probably more of the weed then anything. Even though I barely took two puffs..not even full ones. That shit burns my throat a bit and it does make me feel a little sick. I prefer the alcohol.

Oh right and I did not put in drinking. From going out with dad earlier this week to a gator bite, a fish bowl size drink, a drink at hideaway and that was one night. Then friday it was a pitcher of beer but my friend drank most of it, a cape cod, and me and the bartender did a drink together but he beat me. I still drank it in under a minute. I was buzzed and hungover after that and the next day. I was not hungover on wednesday. That and Sunday when I had my dad over for dinner I made vodka smoothies and whisky frappichinos. Despite the huge meal I was pretty fucking drunk that night and did have a bad hangover.

But last night I did drink 2 screwdrivers, huge meal, little weed, but I wasn't hungover. Throat hurt a bit (damn smoke) but now I am pretty hungry. But then again I've been up for 4 hours or so. Mmm yummy yogurt parfait. Now I can proceed.

I should mention food though. I've eaten real shitty lately. Mostly fastfood or out. I've been cheap too and just done dollar stuff and tried to be healthy but it's been so so. Oh and I might have a fucking hemmroid, hpv, rash, or something with my ass. It's been hurting all this week and was really worse last night and today. But I do a lot of heavy ass lifting a work and lots of stress. But I also have a cream for all of those to help..well if it's HPV that's more complicated but still.

So lots of shit going on. Some problems but a lot of them are being worked on and overcome. And why is that. That's because of love. I'm madly in love with my Sir. He's shown nothing but patience, love, trust, and hope and he's been right about everything and the faith he has in me and that things will work out has gotten me through so much. Can't recall how many times I've stressed and bitched to him and him just re-assuring things will get better. And they will. Every obstacle so far has been overcome and even the ongoing problems like the phone resting, tablet, and pc troubles, and food. All those I'm working on and close to fixing.

In two weeks time we'll finally meet. Two weeks from today I'll be with my Sir. Just two more weeks..