Such a weird way to phrase it. But then again, I've been told that my typing, reasoning, and posts are contradicting and confusing and just a mess. Couldn't be more accurate.

I don't know why but it seems lately I keep getting called Sir. Granted, most of the guys I fuck now are clients. Most of my sex is fucking anyways now. But damn these are really submissive, obedient, and subservient bottoms. I see a little of myself in them.

It's really weird how I can be so timid, polite, shy, and good mannered when I'm talking to these guys on the phone or first meeting. I'm not sure what triggers it, I know it's more than just me shoving my dick in them. Some of them, call me Sir right off the bat. Some are just submissive and go down on my dick and some of them I don't really feel their submission until their on their belly or all fours.

But it's weird, I feel like a completely different person when I'm fucking guys. Love just spitting on my cock and shoving it in. Yeah, it hurts my dick a little but it makes them feel every inch of me. And maybe I want to leave that mark and impression on them. Same goes for slapping them, spitting on them, and some getting a little verbal. And yeah some guys I'll even call, "boy". It's not a forced thing, it just feels natural to call them that for some reason. But I'm still a boy, aren't I. Well, that's another topic in itself.

I love fucking them rough, and I love the ones that will pretty much do anything to please me or let me do anything to them to get them off. I think it takes a little more then just a rough spit fuck, breeding multiple times, and having them be subservient to be a Sir.

I'd say if anything I'm just more of a wild top. I don't really have the finese and skill to fuck like some tops too. I just jack hammer bottoms until I bred them, and I keep doing it. Sometimes I can do it nice and steady but I really like to cum. Part of me asks myself why I didn't do this sooner. But another asks me if I'm a bit early at doing this. And I'll admit, some guys feel more like a hole to me then others. I don't think I quite have the protection trait that some tops have. It's really more about me getting off and my dick feeling good and fucking with and fucking the bottom.

But I also know that the bottoms I'm with love it. They love to be degraded, slapped around, spit on, and treated roughly. Same goes for fisting them, pissing up their ass, and pushing them. I know this, because I have bottomed and still do (if I ever will again..I hope) so I'm partially going off what I like to. But I haven't really decided if I want to be an outstanding top and improve or try to learn more. I'm not sure if it's good or bad that I'm more of a selfish top right now. But I don't tell them not to call me Sir or ignore that. I accept being called that. But then again it could be said if I'm going to accept being called that then I should accept everything it means. Even if it's a client or a trick.