"The military suppresses those things"
Before I got to the above sentence, I thought to myself "what on EARTH kind of mistake is he about to make???"
But, thank Whatever, you righted the course, centered yourself again, and smelled that particular weasel in the woodwork.
Men who think for themselves are exactly the kind of men that no military on earth is interested in. They're only interested in men who will do what they're told, how they're told, when they're told. There's no way to know of course, but I wonder how many men with an intellectual - even cerebral bent - have been sacrificed to the bloodlust of various militaries the world over. Those folks are only interested in Yessir. Whatever you say, sir.
I'm not denigrating those who do sign up. Being human beings, we seem to need to have the ability to kill competitors on a massive scale, and that has been the case since we crawled out of the caves. To the victor go the spoils. That kind of power though, can corrupt a mans mind beyond recall.
I'm truly relieved your humanity rescued you from that debacle. The world needs more peacemakers, and fewer war-makers.