I moved back home a few months before covid hit and started post doctoral career. I was primarily focused on the job the first few months then started connecting/reconnecting with friends. When covid hit, my W/L balance became a mess. Friends also used “social distancing” as a way to stick with their core group.
I was managing up until last month. I ended up getting rare but serious myocarditis from the covid booster shot. I was sitting at home reading and thought I was about to go into cardiac arrest or something. Was able to get into treatment, but pretty much anyone I reached out to for help or support ghosted me. The odd few got mad at me and told me not to spread anti vax propaganda, which makes no sense. I needed a ride to get an ECG done, and contacted about 40 people I know. All busy or didn’t reply so ended up driving myself despite doc saying I shouldn’t be driving. I try to think people have stuff going on themselves, and it’s not something wrong with me. Much of them are older and I get generational differences can make them less likely to involve me in certain parts of their lives. That said, it’s happened excessively during the pandemic where friends only contact me when they need something but are impossible to connect with any other time.
