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I have read lots about the shitty, sleazy motels in the United States which are perfect for getting used - nobody cares about the presence of lots of men going into your room, the parking facilities are good, there isn't much in the way of security. Unfortunately, this sort of place doesn't seem to exist in England, at least not anywhere near to the same extent. I'd really like to get a hotel room sometime and put up a cl listing telling men I'm there if they'd like to use me, but I don't wanna end up in a hotel which makes this kind of experience difficult. Basically, what I'd like to find out is, are there any really good hotels in England for getting used, and if so, what are they?

This place has been really slow for me recently. By recently, I guess I'm saying maybe the last few weeks. Here are some of the problems I have been experiencing. In order to make the website load, I have to attempt to load it (it doesn't load first time round), then cancel and attempt to load it again. This makes the "THIS SITE CONTAINS SEXUALLY EXPLICIT ADULT MATERIAL." message appear. When I press "OK" the activity stream page loads fairly quickly. But, for example, I pressed the "Forums" button two minutes ago and it's still attempting to load, and the activity stream page is still showing. I've just cancelled and attempted to load it again, and in just a few seconds the forum page has loaded. Right now the advanced search page is loading well. I attempted to use it yesterday and it wouldn't load at all, though a few hours later it worked okay. Yesterday I attempted to view a number of discussions in separate tabs and they wouldn't load. I then cancelled them, attempted to load one and even it didn't work. I guess the way I'd describe it is, sometimes this place is really slow for me for a short time and then a bit later it's okay, and sometimes it's really slow for a long time. I think this place is great and I appreciate the time and effort you put into it, and maybe it's just my computer or my internet connection (though I've not been having this problem with any other websites) but I thought I'd let you know what I've been experiencing. Windows 7 Starter, Intel Atom 1.60GHz, 1.00GB RAM, Mozilla Firefox 26.0, ZoneAlarm Free Firewall, avast! Free Antivirus, Adobe Flash Player 12, Adobe Shockwave Player 12, Adblock Plus.

Something which has bothered me for some time is the way a lot of the men I do stuff with in the bathhouse, attempt to suck my dick and such in an effort to make me come. I guess these men aren't complete tops, which is sweet (I'm not a complete bottom, and I generally like having my dick sucked), or maybe they feel bad about the way I'm making lots of effort to make them feel good, and they're attempting to give something in return. The problem is, when I have paid money to attend the bathhouse for a set period of time, I want to be able to use this time to experience as much as possible, and after I come (and it doesn't take much to make me come), I basically just want to get out. So recently, I've decided I need to find ways of preventing men from doing stuff with my dick. At first I felt it'd be best to just be honest and say something whenever it happens. I don't like saying much when I'm in the bathhouse, but hey, needs must. The first time I attempted this, it worked. I just said something like, "I really don't want to come yet and you give me such a boner that if you keep doing this, I'll probably come in the next eight seconds." The guy was really nice about it, and we kept doing stuff for ages, so it's not like it ruined the vibe etc. However, since then, I've had to attempt it again with a few different guys, and though they seem fine with it, they just relapse and I either come or politely bring things to an end. Mostly the former. I feel kind of bad about it, because part of me believes that, as a bottom, my purpose is to give men pleasure, and if this involves continuing to suck a guy's dick or get fucked by a guy when I've just come and I'm not really into the situation anymore, well, I'm a bottom and I should just accept it. Maybe pushing through the melancholy which happens after I come, might enable me to feel a sort of degradation which itself could be arousing. I don't know really. The other reason I feel kind of bad is that the guys I'm writing about are probably bottoms to some extent as well. Anyway, my second and most recent idea has been to use a jockstrap. Maybe the combination of behaving in a submissive way, doing submissive stuff, and wearing something which shields my dick from being played with, would send a clear message. So I ordered a Bike jockstrap on Monday (the swimmer/jogger kind), and it came today. And I feel unsure. I'm 5ft 8inches and 8stone 8lbs, so I'm fairly slender, but I don't take any exercise beyond daily brisk walks so I don't die, and as a result, certain areas of my body aren't really very firm. And when I put the jockstrap on, the straps at the back just...sunk into the squidginess of my butt. Furthermore, my body has a vaguely feminine shape in the waist/hips/thighs area. I'm really not sure if a jockstrap is right for me. But I'd still really like to wear it. I felt kind of disappointed at first, but then I remembered that most of the pictures I've seen of men wearing jockstraps, have been of models, from when I was attempting to find the jockstrap I liked best. Maybe when most ordinary guys wear jockstraps, it isn't much different from when I wear one. And maybe seeing a slender twenty-something guy wearing a barely-there jockstrap would attract men more than the squidginess of my butt (which isn't big, just squidgy) would put them off. I feel I should just wear it the next time I attend the bathhouse, and see what happens. Before I started writing this I had a number of questions I intended to ask, but it'd probably be better to just put this here since I reckon I have decided what I intend to do. And please feel free to say if anything I have written is stupid, misguided etc and in need of correction.

I discovered I have them earlier today. I'll get it treated, but every time I feel it itching, I get a boner. I guess there's something wrong with me (besides just the lice) but I don't really care. I like being reminded that I'm a total cumdump slut. What is it about me that makes me do the self-destructive stuff I do? I believe part of it is the feeling of taking such a big risk. Other reasons: surrender. Doing stuff which society believes is beyond the pale, experiencing intense and extreme things which most people will never access. And yep, being good at giving men pleasure, feels amazing, and the degradation, the feeling of being used, makes me feel better still. I don't know what will happen in my life, I don't know what my future will consist of, but I feel myself descending into something really deep and sick and beautiful. I don't even really understand what I'm saying. Maybe somebody can relate.

Hi everyone, Today I'll be at one of the saunas near where I live. Recently I've been wanting to bring a video camera there. Most of the sex I have, is in saunas, and not in guys' places etc., and filming my sexual experiences, (or getting them filmed for me) is something I really want to begin doing. Especially since I became 25 earlier this year, which kind of made me resolve not to let life pass me by. But I'm not really sure what the rules are in relation to this. Do saunas permit video cameras being used? I don't intend to scurry about filming other guys having sex or anything, I just want to take a room, set the camera there and let guys use it to film me doing stuff if they want. I guess my other question is, are there any good ways I can let guys know it's my camera and if they want they can use it? Maybe I could bring a piece of paper with something like 'use and film me' written on it and set it next to the camera? By the way, if you feel this is something nobody'll be up for doing, just say. I understand saunas are meant to confer on the guys that use them, safety and anonymity, and I don't want to do anything which violates this (or might be seen to violate it) in the saunas I attend.

Hi everyone, Thanks so much for the advice. I have decided to stay at home and find a better job, one which makes use of my degree and lets me work in relative solitude. And I'm gonna continue being a total cumdump, visiting bathhouses and stuff like that, and I'm gonna keep meeting up with men that want to tie me up and abuse me as well.

Firstly, thanks everyone for responding to what I wrote, I really appreciate it. Thing is, I didn't write what I did to try and find a man to serve. I'm internet friends with a man in England, a man that I feel I can trust and that wants me to move in with him. I'm just trying to decide what to do about it. Thanks for responding, though. In a way, that is what I believe. I just feel bad about leaving behind my family. But they'd never understand what I want to do if I tried explaining it to them, and I don't want to spend my life trying to meet my family's expectations. I don't believe I owe it to my family to live the kind of life they want me to live. I guess I don't feel very confident in relation to having a career, and maybe that's something I need to deal with. But as for social awkwardness, I've worked in retail for four-and-a-third years, and my inability to interact with customers and the people I work with, feels like it's getting worse instead of better. I might have a different and more optimistic perspective if I cared more about having a career, but I just don't care that much. I'd prefer to risk everything and become a man's slave, especially when the other choice is having a regular job. What I have to get over is the part of me that still feels that I owe it to my family to live the way they want me to, and I really want to get over that. What makes you want to kiss me? I'll let you, if you promise to breed my hole Being a man's slave is what I feel will make me happiest, and like I said to pulszer, I just need to get over this belief that my family's expectations are more important than living my own life. Because it is my life, and I need to stop trying so much to please other people. And yeah, I felt kind of awkward posting this here, partly because I know it's not really an advice board and I didn't want to make things too weird and heavy. I'm close friends with a guy that's into bondage and pain and stuff as well and he believes that I should do it if it's definitely what I want, but he feels that I need to say something to my family instead of disappearing and leaving a note or whatever. And I guess he's right, but I don't know what to say to them.

Hi everyone, Since the last time I posted, I have become more and more of a cumdump, and I have felt certain feelings that I have felt for years, to do with wanting to become a slave. I adore bondage and pain, and combined with my adoring being a cumdump, becoming a slave is kind of a dream to me. I guess I'm just frightened and unsure of making a new life in this way, but I believe that deep down I want to. I'm 24 and a university graduate. I work a part-time retail job, and I totally hate it because I'm really socially awkward, plus, it's a hostile work environment. And furthermore, I don't want a career, I don't want to use my degree or work a regular job. I want to spend my time reading and doing artistic things, and getting degraded and used as a hole to be filled with men's cum and waste. I live with my family, and I really want to move away, and start a new life somewhere else where I can be a man's 24/7/365 houseboy slave. I dream of spending my life getting passed from man to man and turned into a cumdump whore as well, but I guess it's less practical. I just can't find a way of doing this, moving away without telling my family about the new life I'm going to live. I want to quit my job as soon as I can. I'm meant to give notice of two weeks, but I want to quit immediately, since I can't take it anymore, and I keep putting off changing things. I am internet friends with a man from England and he wants me to move in with him and be his houseboy slave. I have known him for over a year and I feel like I can trust him. He permits me to leave at any time if I decide it's not what I want, and I will have some freedom. I don't know what to do. My family expect things from me, they want me to fulfill my potential in terms of getting a job with my degree and doing well. What they want for me is so different from what I want for myself. But they care for me, and I don't want to hurt them. And still, every day I feel like I'm wasting my life, because I have a chance to serve a man and live the life I want to live, and every day is a day I could be doing it. I guess I'm posting this here because I know that a lot of you guys have made choices that other people see as reckless and self-destructive, and I feel like you will understand where I'm coming from and be able to give me good advice. And I know that if you warn me against this path, then I'm definitely making the wrong choice. But yeah, I need advice so much right now. Thank you.

Hi everyone, The last time I was here, I said, "I suppose deep down I understand that I'm going to get HIV sooner or later. It doesn't bother me, and I believe that I'll accept it when it happens, but I want to experience as much unprotected sex as I can before I get it." and "Maybe the best thing to do is just accept every load, no matter what. It's what I want deep down, and I'm starting to believe my life is worthless if I deny it. It's what I am." But I still felt kind of confused. Since I was last here, I have spent my time thinking about everything, and I have decided that I want to become a cumdump. I feel totally certain, and it's like my life is beginning. The next time I have lots of free time is on Saturday, and I'm going to spend the day in a sauna, sucking every dick that I'm able to. I feel a bit scared about anal sex, but it's just because I'm really inexperienced at it, and if a guy wants to fuck me and cum in my ass and stuff, I will definitely let him. I'm not going to ask any questions about a guy's status, and I will take every load. I suppose I just want to tell you guys, because this is the place where I feel I can talk about this stuff and not be condemned. This is a really big thing for me, and I feel grateful to this place for helping me to understand what I want, and accept that it's okay. And yeah, if you have any advice for me, I totally welcome it.

Hi everyone, Thank you for the advice. I suppose deep down I understand that I'm going to get HIV sooner or later. It doesn't bother me, and I believe that I'll accept it when it happens, but I want to experience as much unprotected sex as I can before I get it. But I realise that when I'm in a sauna and a guy tells me he's negative, it's very likely that he's not telling the truth. You're right, the difference it makes to my chances of getting HIV is basically non-existent. Maybe the best thing to do is just accept every load, no matter what. It's what I want deep down, and I'm starting to believe my life is worthless if I deny it. It's what I am. Anyway, thank you again everyone for the advice, and if you want I'll keep you updated on what I decide, though I feel like maybe I've decided already.

Hi everyone, I'm 24, and I have recently decided that I don't want to live without unprotected sex. I have tried to, but sex without condoms is too important to me and when I try and live without it, it feels like I'm not living at all. Anyway, I have spent the last while accepting that I want to be as slutty as I possibly can, and accepting that some day I might end up with HIV. I say 'might', because I'm really just interested in giving blowjobs. I have been fucked before, but I find it painful and generally unpleasant. Maybe in the future things will change, but for now I'm limiting myself to sucking dick, and I feel okay about that, especially since it lowers my chances of getting HIV. I'm not a bugchaser, I just really really like unprotected sex. Something I've been thinking about is whether or not to ask guys if they're clean before we do stuff. The first thing I want to say about this is, I'm not naive. I will be getting most of my loads from saunas, and I understand that a lot of guys don't tell the truth about their status. However, some guys do, even if they're in a very small minority, and I think that by asking this question, and opting not to do stuff with a guy if he tells me he's not clean, I will be able to reduce my chances of getting HIV and other STDs, if just by a bit. I suppose I'm trying to achieve a balance that I feel okay with. I don't want to screen all of my partners and ask to see evidence of when their last test was and shit like that, before we do anything. I really really want to suck dick as much as I can. But within the context of wanting and needing as much dick and cum as I can get, I want to try and reduce my chances of getting sick, and even if it doesn't reduce my chances by that much and just serves to put me at ease, I think asking a guy's status is probably a good thing. Am I being stupid, or is there some sense in my intended approach?