VAN1cloudChaser

I was trying to find an older top in Van who wanted to party on our cloudy day here. I don't like condoms as they make me bleed and due to using the toilet daily id be re-cut... it's also a turn on to gget breeded raw. By a Poz top has been a lifelong biggest fantasy of mine, which I had avoided. I got back home in DT Van, tryna live as close to that Davie Street gay community as possible. I'm closeted so it's hard to find guys, especially as they almost all do that fucking "Ghosting" shit online....(fucking took a decade to lose my virginity!!!) I'd live there for 5yrs and the "ultimate fantasy." Of being Pozzed (at first being (consent.non-consent) "forced" to use drugs too) became more and more...overwhelming, or too powerful to resist. This point I was still User-free (any drugs, aside 420) but ONLY sought out Undetectable, avoided fully charged Poz guys , was ok with neg but sad if it had to be one(a neg-guy, that is). Forward another 5yrs...was ONLY bottoming for Undetectable..refusing Poz & neg alike...still only bareback. Another 10yrs later I think and im nearing 40yo (self promise: NOT to do ANY type of drug, &even "if so " NOT till I'm over 40yo...back then that...WAS..over the hill...). My (dirty, kinky, filthy, nasty, sleazy, shady, stealthy, seedy & piggy) likes (&/or) side (which I'd always avoided/never indulged-vanilla never needed any "bells or whistles" as..it's already fucking best shit ever). I started yearning to do dirty dirty things, places....ppl... and their cumm....Poz cumm. I'd cheated the no drug thing by only one month, ATM 4yrs later, I only do it during "Funtime" with guys. Started using Hard (crack) cuz coke SUCJS, didn't work. I run thru that and didn't want it in only 1yr then switched to Side(Meth/Speed) which. Omg the gay sex...WAY intensified. I tried poppers and G("daterape") which...wow, waaay more intense. Those cravings, no don't think "was the drugs", it was my biggest fantasy since a very...very young age...u wouldn't believe if I said it either. But it, on its own, got almost too strong. I had moved out of Van (stupid drunks always tryna fight me, lived on a bar-star-whire street, Granville st) so I moved to my birthplace new Westminster. JUST prior I had unnoticeably stopped asking if guys were neg or Poz, which I did every single time. I'd go down this Stanley Park trails at night where gayguys go to fuck at dark...I even let I don't know how many guts fuck me, raw, cumm in me & not even see their faces... Now, living in New Westminster, I smoke clouds and I, now, ONLY want (bareback) Poz tops, as an opposite I now get sad if they're Undetectable and damn near flat out refuse Neg (for, their safety, yes..but moreover cuz they are not Pozzed). Usually refuse if they are nasty piggy or pnp type too. I've already had two guys do this Stealthing where the fuck Poz cumm into you with either not telling you they're Poz or flat it lying...and I've, knowingly, had 2 older "Daddy's " fuck their Poz cumm into my willing raw ass while partying. Just this, full, last week both had pumped their dirty filth loads into me bareback. Last one was only 3 days ago & I hunt fir Poz Fuckers.. daily. I could indulge each story, lovingly/huge turnon, but this is already long enough and these FUCKING stupid cell phones keep popping me off my God damn keypad every fucking 5th word....yeah, my throat is coarse from yelling so hard...now. Not sure if u can HMU on here to ask me to tell u about, either Pozzing, or other stuff...but, please, feel free to!!!!