I was very much like this, I had female partners now and again but always kept my cock sucking secret. Then about 14 years ago I encountered this woman at a nightclub who was very fun and bubbly and she introduced me to her boyfriend and she made it clear she would love to see a guy suck her boyfriends cock. So yeah that was a very fun night. Thing is the boyfriend was kind of lame and was constantly putting this woman down -- she was self-employed which apparently made her not a real person in his dude's eyes. So he kept pressuring her to stop running her own, fairly successful business and "get a real job". Anyway she dumped his ass and invited me over to suck off her friend at a party. And since that night we've been in an openly bi relationship. I mean, it has had good patches and bad runs over the last 14 years, but we don't ever have to pretend to be something we aren't.