pnpsissyslut87

What does that even mean? It's hard to define what I mean by this. Most times when I'm asked if I will do something the answer is yes. Even if I say what I want and the top does otherwise I just take it. While being called names turns me on do I always like it no. In fact sometimes it makes me ashamed, angry or sad and that turns me on. It all started when I met up in a park late night. I had plugged some Molly and met a stranger online that said he wanted to use me. We met and went to a baseball dugout and he asked what I wanted. I was confused and he asked if I wanted it raw. I said no he told me to suck him and I said I only wanted anal. I don't know if it was me saying no to sucking or that I wanted it safe but he got really aggressive. He ripped me plug out and tried to ram in but couldn't so I handed him the lube I brought. He said he didn't need it and tried again. In the end he used the lube and just started rough fucking me. It was so rough and hard but I loved it. For 20 min he just pounded and pounded. He tried to jack me but I stayed soft as I pushed back. Then he asked where I wanted his load and I said on my back. I felt him pull back and blow his hot load on my ass. I was so turned on as he called me a good slut and I wiggled my ass asking if he would put my plug back in. He laughed rubbed some lube on it and my ass and rammed it in. I yelped thanks daddy. He told me I was sexy and left. As I walked home I felt the plug slosh the lube around. I went inside still horny and went to the bathroom. When I pulled the plug out it was creamy and I felt my fuckhole dripping. I realized he used his cum to lube the plug and probably took the condom off while fucking me. So what did I do? I sucked the plug while pushing the lube, Molly and cum out then licked it off the floor. When I say I'm a sub I often think back to this. Could he have invited friends to use me, yes, did he do what he wanted, yes. Is it what I asked for no. Did I want his load in me... at the time not really. Does it matter what I want, no. Do I fuck myself to this memory, all the time. What des this make me?

Ya I do tend to back out but I have been stealthed (breeding fetish unlocked) and partied up. That's probably the trick get us sissies high and well alot of our reservations dissappear