Inception

Just ran into this thread. He must have gotten some work as a scene from Cocky Boys came out last month featuring him. He has way longer hair in it and it looks good on him. It is a condom scene, & I just saw stills, so I don't know how good it is. I do wonder how much his age, and how long he has been doing porn, may have played into not getting work. I do realize this may not be a good argument as there are a lot of more mature guys working - of course most are tops not bottoms. He is married in real life to bareback pornstar Anton Dickson, and Anton had a tumblr and blog where he posted lots of personal info like pictures from vacation trips they took together. Anton was also pretty open about the fact that though married their sex lives were seperate since Anton is poz and Dean isn't. Also Anton likes to bb lots of cute bottoms. He had an xtube account for a while with private home vids posted, and also posted lots of stuff on his tumblr about his conquests. Sometime in the last year all of those accounts disappeared - the tumblr and xtube account are gone. One of the reasons I find it weird that Monroe would feel that he is being "blackballed" is this past October I was in NY and went to Hustler Ball. That night there was a good mix of both bb stars like Rocco Steele & I think I also saw Cutler X (but I was too shy to approach & talk to him) as well as condom only guys like Nick Capra who fucked Brent Corrigon live on stage (all the live fucking was with condoms) and Raphael Alencar (who I scared a bit by being too much of a fanboy LOL). They al seemed to be getting along, but then the studios that sponsored the event included ones like Bel Ami and Lucas which have lots of bb now. In his blog post Monroe mentions MEN.com by name, which is a condom only studio with mostly gay for pay actors. They crank out the scenes so if you want to subscribe to a site with lots of content thats what you get, but most are complete shit. Terrible old school scenes with dumb set ups like, "oh I sprained my leg running, can you massage it?" So if he was pissed about not getting work there the only reason would be that maybe they pay better than some other studios.

Do they not have someone at the clinic who can give you info on assistance if you are low income? I don't know Quebec, as I am in BC. Here HIV medications are covered 100%. You do have to pay Medical Service Plan premiums like everyone, but those are based upon you income level. I pay at the highest level, and it is still under $70 a month. I am not going to suggest moving to Vancouver because everything here (rent, food etc) is way more expensive than Montreal. I haven't been coming to this site regularly lately, so I just read through this thread. I would say that more than anything you need to find a counselor you feel comfortable with to deal with your other issues, like the anxiety. HIV is easy to deal with compared to that.

I attended this event last week: http://pushfestival.ca/2014/shows/tucked-plucked-vancouvers-drag-herstory-live-onstage/ It was eye opening to learn a lot of history about the place I grew up, from people who lived it like someone who was involved in the drag scene from the late 60's. This is a city with a very conservative history, that from the 50's until up until the late 80's was controlled by one of Canada's most far right wing political parties. Even in the 60's, while beer parlours were allowed, hard liquor was not allowed to be served and "bottle clubs" operated. People ordered soda and mixers and kept there own bottles hidden under the table, where if the place was raided they could disavow knowing about the bottle under the table. Homosexuality wasn't decriminalized, thanks to Prime Minister Pierre Trudeau, until 1968. Since they couldn't openly say they were gay night clubs, by putting drag queens on stage it let people know right away that it was a gay venue. Incredibly, there were about 20 - 25 gay bars throughout the city at the time. I say incredible because currently there are only about 5 or 6 dedicated gay bars, all on one street within a couple blocks. In BC in 1969 restrictions on selling hard liquor were lifted, and in 1970 women were even allowed to work in a bar! In 1972 a group was tired of still being harassed despite legal changes that were taking place and wanted to make hold a statement making event, so a bunch of bars banded together to hold a one off event where they would put their best queens up in a competition. They approached the owners of the Commodore Ballroom, still one of the most prestigious venues in the city, about using the facilities. They cut a deal where the venue could keep the profits from all bar sales, and so the owners let them have the place rent free. It was the first coronation of the Dogwood Monarchist Society. The place filled to capacity and bar sales were the biggest they had ever seen - the owners let them use the place for free every year after up into the 80's. The D.M.S. has now been around for 42 years and has become one of the city's biggest gay charitable organizations. Myria Le Noir, the reigning queen from 1986 - and also a 6 foot something bouncer from couple long gone 80's clubs - alos performed and spoke at the event about her reign that year. 1986 was famous for Vancouver hosting the world's fair that year - I was 12 and went a couple times with my parents and also once on a class field trip. The government finally allowed liquor sales on Sundays, in anticipation of tourism dollars. Meanwhile in the gay community AIDS was taking a toll and the government was almost totally ignoring it. Almost... the gay bars were given posters with the photographs of anyone who had been diagnosed and bouncers like Ms. Le Noir were instructed to immediately call the police if any of these people showed up their club so that they may be arrested for possible health code violations. The bar owners got together and asked Myria to act as that year's reigning queen as the AIDS Queen of 1986, and then used the fact that so much press was in the city covering the world's fair to call attention to their issues. Anytime a 6 foot something drag queen attended an event at the fair the cameras came on. Only Princess Diana got more attention - and she famously fell asleep in the front row of one gala event. It was so eye opening to hear about history like this from the people who lived it. Today there may be way fewer clubs, and all the young guys sit at home on their computers and phones rather than go out, but at the same time within the city of Vancouver (the burbs are another story) any politician - local or federal - who wants to go far has to campaign in the gay bars and be seen with the drag queens.

Thank-you! There's more pix of him and it is a bit scary how similar we look, though I think I am taller and huskier. He looks a lot like pictures from the 60's of my biological father who is smaller and skinnier than I am.

I came across this amateur selfie set on tumblr this morning: http://ultradaddysgoodboy.tumblr.com/post/74389668095/ultraboyhunter-a-tad-bit-queer-random-nudes From one of the photo's it looks like this guy maybe works at a Steamworks, but which one? I know it isn't Vancouver. He's very cute, reminds me of myself when I was younger though I have less fur. Anyways, my biggest question is about the tatoo on his hip? What is that symbol? Is it a type of bio-hazard sign, or is it something different? Thanks

Went to baths i haven't been to in a while after going to a gay hip-hop night. Exchanged a lot of looks with a Jamaican guy there but it led nowhere. Baths seemed like they were gonna be a dud too, lots of guys I knew and knew weren't into me and a group of tourists who were checking the scene out but were staying all huddled in a group of 6 guys - 3 couples. Wandered around til about 3am when an older chubby guy came in. He had kind of a nerdy handsome/cute face and he had left his socks on while he wandered around! I looked at him in the hall and I guess I must have not given the impression that I was interested (the socks made me grin) and he kind of ignored me. Then I went to my room and laid down ass up. He poked his head into my room when he saw that and came in to pet my ass. I looked over my shoulder and when he saw it was me he was about to stop because he figured I wasn't going to be into him, so I said quietly "that feels nice and smiled." Then he shut the door and pulled my ass apart and licked the hole, and I moaned a bit. Then he started feeling the hole and slipped a finger in, I moaned more and then reached over and picked my poppers and took a hit. Then he really started to go to town fingering me and working a couple fingers in. He felt inside to find my prostate and would rub that and then pull his fingers out and try to spread me open more as he pulled out. It was getting a bit too much so I sat up. He asked me what else I was into, and I said well what do you want, and he said in a really excited voice "I really like to get sucked and to fuck." I bent down and started sucking him and he liked that and reached for a condom. Then I stopped sucking and said, "Oh but there's just one thing, I don't like to use condoms." I had thought maybe he was an older poz guy but he wasn't, he got a concerned look and then asked "Are you HIV positve?" When I said yes, he looked worried and I said "Oh, you're safe?" He said, "When I saw your ass I just wanted to fuck it," and he looked all worried and so I patted his chest and said, " That's OK you can wear a condom." But then when I got up on the bed doggy style he just got behind me and went in bare. He fucked for not long and then had a really massive orgasm. When he pulled out he was really short of breath and panting and I was afraid he was gonna have a heart attack, so I had him sit down and just calm himself. Then he looked over and said, "I'm sorry that was so short I guess you didn't get much out of that." I said, "Oh no that was very nice, plus you worked me so well earlier fingering me like an expert and there aren't many guys who know how to do that." "Really?" he asked, but then he looked a bit worried again and just took off. My ass was very wet. If I saw him again I would definitely be interested as he really did know what he was doing and is one of the first guys I met who really knew how to make lots of deep fingering feel good, but he seemed freaked out by my being poz.

Quick "pump & dumps" don't interest me. Even if it is something anon I enjoy taking my time to please a guy. If it obvious that he is high on drugs I will probably pass - usually you can tell from their body temperature - too cold and it is because they are stoned. But I have done drunk guys and they can take time, but with a drunk top they are sometimes more likely willing to do stuff they wouldn't when sober - like just stick it in bare instead of fumbling with a condom. I do love to suck cock and even with a soft or semi hard cock a a nice wet blow can make a guy feel good. You can spend time sucking his balls too and maybe work your way down into his asshole as well - most guys love that. The only problem with that is when doing that to some guys you walk a thin line between getting them hard and "oh no I'm shooting already."

I haven't been posting much on here anymore, or even logging in - just scrolling through new posts without logging in - because I have found that in the last while the site seems to be taken over by a lot of drugging stuff. While there are undoubtedly plenty of real meth heads on here, I think there are also a lot of guys for whom it is all fantasy. But then I read a story on here recently involving murder - WHAT THE FUCK does that have to do with bareback sex? That is DISGUSTING! This is the sort of fantasy material that obsessed psychopaths like Jeffrey Dahmer. I hate drugs. I live in a community where I see the devastating effects of meth on once beautiful guys and I hate it. But murder as fantasy, that's just WRONG!

Sat I over-nighted at the tubs, but it was a weird night. Lot of young guys, one of the attendants confirmed that most were probably on ecstasy and just cuddling with each other. I saw two muscle tops who are regulars that generally only chase twinks who were just standing around as perplexed as me since they weren't pulling anything (and yet weren't horny enough to give in and stick in a big guy like me). So I went home got some sleep, and headed back Sunday afternoon which is usually busier than even Sat nights, and it was, maybe 75 guys in the place. A lot of married Asian cocksuckers and bottoms who chase me relentlessly since i am cute and have a big cock. Let a few have a go to be nice - this one who always stares at me with big puppydog eyes cried out in joy when I rubbed his belly as I walked by and let him know he could have a chance. He couldn't deep throat me, but he did chew on my nips really rough to get me hard. I wanted to get fucked so finally went to my room and laid ass up. A few other Chinese cocksuckers came in and tried to reach under me to feel my cock but I just shooed them away and said that wasn't what I wanted but if they wanted to stick their little dicks in my hole I'd be OK with that - but that didn't interest any. Suddenly I felt a presence, it was this jock top who usually hangs out with some dj's and other nightclub types when they come to the tubs. I have found that as long as none of them see he will do me - he loves my hole and spends as much time with his tongue up it as his raw cock. He'd obviously been up all night so gave me a short fuck before he lost steam. I walked around a for a bit, and this old trolly guy who always grabs at my ass made a pass as I walked but I swerved and managed to avoid him. I decided to go back to my room and lay ass up, briefly thinking to myself that probably the only person who for sure is going to show up is that old troll. Sure enough not five minutes pass and he is in the room petting my ass. I look at him with a look like "Geez really" but then I decided "Well I am laying ass up offering to anybody," so I was like "I guess you caught me." Then he dropped his towel and god damn it was over 12 inches. He sat down and I spent about half an hour deep throating him slowly. He had a deep voice with a thick Italian accent and quietly told me what to do, constantly being amazed at my ability. We both got fucked up on some super strong poppers I had just brought back from the States (poppers are now illegal to sell in Canada and impossible to find here). Since it had been a while since I had done such strong stuff had to take a break. He was like I still want to come, and I said "And I'm the only bottom in here? I don't think so... or was I the only bottom here you hadn't had yet?" At that he gave me a knowing grin. I'm kinda glad he didn't get up my hole yet, since that means he'll still be chasing it.

Nice story... fictional story.

Will be visiting NY Nov 9 - 16 Have a lot of touristy things planned and don't know how much time I will have for hooking up, though want to check out some clubs. The thread with some listings of venues is good but hasn't been bumped in a bit. Has anyone been to that Paddles place? Their website says men's events are busy on the weekend, is it actually? And is it strictly S&M? I understand that NY has no baths, though my ex said he had some fun when he checked out both the East Side and West Side clubs a couple years ago when he was there. Met some tourists from Brooklyn here last month at Steamworks after Bearracudda who said that there is nothing like it there which is weird for the biggest city in the US. Anyways, I purposely don't have much personal info listed on this site but I do have my BBRT profile listed on my profile page here.

Good gravy I just realized that I watched all your xtube vids last week. Hot stuff. There are not a lot of black guys here, and those that hit on me always seem to get upset when I tell them I am poz. One kid, a student here on a visa from the Congo, got very freaked out but when I ran into him again he came up to me right away and was very friendly. He thanked me for being honest, and then nervously asked if I would be willing to just let him jerk off on my ass while I shook it for him. If that was all it took to make him happy I was happy to oblige. I imagine that growing up in Africa and seeing people suffering from lack of medical availability would give someone a very different perspective.

I am someone willing to pay for better quality than a tube site so would go to the main site that produced the scenes. Most people would go to a tube site though I think to see it for free. Having said that, Steamworks plays the Black Breeders videos on one of the channels on their system so I have seen a lot of their stuff. Some is good, but it doesn't seem as consistently good as Machofucker for something that is not a prime interest to me: black on black vs interracial. When I see a well hung black bottom it just seems like such a waste that he is bottoming when he could be fucking me.

Exactly! Who is pulling his strings? To me this looks like a kid who has been getting lousy advice all down the line. Plus the feeling you get from his work is that he has a very passive personality and is easily manipulated - not just physically but mentally as well. Last night I was at Steamworks and one of the films playing over their system was one of the new "safe" ones he did for Falcon released in June called Rub Me Right If you don't know, Falcon and Raging Stallion are both now owned by the video on demand company AEBN. Even though they've got this amazing little pussy boy, the scene keeps focusing on the top, a gay for pay-ish roidy looking guy. The camera actually pans up from him dicking the kid and lovingly spends minutes focusing on the top's chest. Who are they making these films for exactly? Anyways, I am a big twink porn fan and I like Jackson Taylor a lot because he's cute, but he's only as good as the top he's with. In Bad Seed the scene is good because of Anton Dickson who gets in there and eats the boy out nice and knows how to work his hole. Did anyone else notice how at the end of the scene TIM flashes a big red hazmat symbol across the screen before the next scene begins as if to say "Boom! There you go! Pozzed!" It seems like a pretty petty thing to do to me. Obviously the scene was filmed months ago before JT threw his hissy fit, and they have bad feelings towards him but they don`t need to be as childish. As well it is a bit dishonest and does a disservice to all Poz guys, since if you look at Anton's Tumblr or Blog it is clear that he is a very healthy guy and undetectable. By flashing that it`s like TIM is saying it is 100% unsafe to be barebacked by an undetectable guy and you will get pozzed 100%. I guess it plays well with the bugchasing fetish guys who make up a big part of TIM`s market. Anyways, before I got carried away on that tangent, I was going to say that all of JT's best scenes were the result of who was topping him. The boy takes direction very well and is only as good as the man working him. He is very passive, and compared to some of the other bottoms out there certainly far from the best. Babyface at Machofucker is passive, but really works passionately to get his top's nut. And some of the more aggressive bottoms like Jesse Santana or the great Sage Daniels are more consistently amazing no matter who they are working with. I think I'll end this by posting a pic that explains more than anything else why anyone even gives a shit about this kid.

I get laid easily at the tubs and think online sites are a waste of time and money. Every six months or so I decide to give hook-up sites another go, as I did at the beginning of this month. They are useless as far as I am concerned. Lot's of lookyloos checking out your pics, a few guys who want cybersex. Where I am bbrt has few members, and on one of the popular sites the guys seriously looking for sex there are all either very young, inexperienced, and looking for "safe" guys only, or they are 50 and over. It seems like most guys in the 30 -45 year age range have no problems getting laid without using hook-up sites. Wierdos is all I get messages from on there! The other day spent half an hour passing messages with a guy who started off by saying he was "clean" which then advanced to he just wanted a hole to "seed" and suggestions of pnp. He had no pics loaded on the site so emailed me a photo of a small shrivelled dick which would entice no one. I haven't used the apps like grindr though I know a lot more guys use that. Over Pride here this summer I went out clubbing way more than I usually do, and all over the clubs there were guys with their eyes glued to the smartphones. Why? Can't you just go up to a guy in the club in person and chat him up? I left my phone off and went out on the dancefloor. I am a fat 6'1" 220 with no sixpack in sight and still had plenty of guys groping my big ass. I also got plenty of dirty looks from queens who think they know me by reputation just because they may have heard stories from guys who have seen me getting plowed at the tubs. Well screw them, at least I'm getting laid!