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It's hell either way. There are con's to cities, but you do have more of an opportunity there to rediscover yourself. If it is that important to you, perhaps its time you moved. Sure, there are a lot of reasons that make that difficult, but it's done all the time. Pick a city that satisfies you and go for it. After living in one of the largest cities in the US to a mid-level city, I can safely say I belong in the big city. And yeah, one of which is sexual freedom.

NiceHard1 - I don't envy gay porn stars, but bareback gay porn stars, I do. And that's awesome you genuinely enjoy doing it, cause I always worried that bb porn stars were all just talked in to it. It should be people who like it. As for this guy, at least you guys were professional about it, way more courteous than he should've gotten especially if he was actually performing bad. He wasn't one of those awful grunters was he? The ones who lay there like a slab of meat and think it's all about moaning loudly as they keep glancing at the camera to see if the shoot is over? There's one guy on those gay bareback porn pay-sites that is listed here who does just that. That's pretty bad, man. I get hard just thinking about bareback and you get to do it all day. So this guy must be epically bad. I'll have to look you up now! Thanks for the story.

HotSeed - good way of looking at it, "branded." dtguy - thanks for that. I kept hearing gay people talk about Treasure Island and I was impressed, thinking it was cool there was a resurgence in Robert Louis Stevenson's book. But then they started talking about head shaving and gang-bangs... definitely not the book I remember reading. Damn. He is hot though. I'd wrestle him over who gets to top.

I actually started another thread (oops) asking this in terms of tops fucking infected yet undetected bottoms. But the thing that concerns me now is that I'm seeing a lot of are people posting their status as undetectable. It's great that there's a very low chance if undetectable. But remember that just because their BBRT profile says that, doesn't mean it's true. And when it comes to them saying it, I was once told by an older gay gentleman, "T.A.L. - They All Lie." I just hope they have a cure soon. They've dragged it out long enough. And wait, the story of the razorblade was true? I honestly thought he was just making fun of the stupidity some have when trying to rationalize why they may not get HIV. Wow. Well, that's still better than shit fetish in my opinion. (no disrespect meant).

Not to say that everything this guy said was true, because I'm not sure what he read, but on the contrary I did read a study that said HIV was on the rise as was unprotected sex. However, you are correct that a source should always be provided when given and especially when asked for. From what I recall, the people interviewed cited the failure to discuss sex education in schools as well as young people's perceptions that HIV isn't that big of a deal. Scientists were complaining that HIV is no longer news worthy anymore so they can't spread awareness, etc. And no, this wasn't in THE SUN. I'll try to dig around for it but I read it sometime this year. I want to say late spring/early summer. Now, even if I do find the report, it's always important to look at the damned margin of error. We don't have reporters anymore. We have 20-year-olds who are told to re-word press releases.

Dunno what a dick dock is, but sounds fun NiceHard1. Alas, it's true. It doesn't take much. I only recall one instance when a bottom wanted me to use a condom. Maybe that's why I am the way I am. Got too spoiled as a kid when I had the occasional male-to-male sex through now.

I dunno if this is in poor taste or if there's just no audience here for this here, as this site is filled with stories that make for a constant, throbbing erection, but we all know fucking ain't always a porn show. Today I was on here reading and somehow I just had/have an overwhelming desire to ask how many of you have had not-cool fuck stories? I don't mean to disrespect the group or derail it and if it's not wanted, then apologies. I just figured for all the hottest and dirtiest stories, some of you have to have some that are probably (now) hysterical, embarrassing or just wrong. Doesn't have to be funny even, it could be a dude you met online who looked like a model but when he knocks on your door you're greeted by an obese foreign guy from India (happened to me, I should've figured by the really bad typing, but I was too turned on by the pics to care). I dunno how inappropriate this will be seen (I know that seems a bit ironic), but this one happened to a friend and thought I'd share to start off. No, it wasn't me. I'd own up to it. This guy while in college was so jacked about a fuck he arranged to have one night because he decided he was going to live webcam it. It was also his first bareback fuck. Had it all set up to get a good shot of the dudes ass and his dick going in and out. He was so proud of himself it was borderline creepy. He was a bit antisocial too. He was an engineering student with the 1970s glasses, who was completely unattractive in his face and demeanor but had a big dick and so he was able to score ass from those who just like big dick. But he was a nice guy, so... He privately sent the link to some of us, which I pray to God the bottom had consented to this. But just a minute or two in, as the top is acting like he's a porn star cause he knows people are watching, you hear a weird rip sound. His dick then either pops out because of misdirection of his thrusting, or it was pushed out by the bottom... How could it have been pushed out by the bottom? Well, I kid you not, it was like someone popped the cork off this poor bottoms ass. Shit sprayed all over the top. I don't mean a little. I mean it was like an explosion.... Obviously I was like, "what the fuck? Did that really happen?" I watched the top just stay in position, his dick increasingly getting limp, looking at himself as the bottom crawls off to the right until he's off screen, repeatedly saying, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." I think the dude was in such shock he forgot he still has his camera on, til someone IM'ed him "DUDE HE JUST TOOK A SHIT ALL OVER YOU!" Then he quickly turned off the cam. Nowadays, this would have easily been able to be saved, YouTubed and put everywhere (and then awsuits) cause, you know, kids are stupid and cruel. But damn, it was like one of those live TV moments where you felt like you just saw something amazing. Amazingly terrible. The kid was so humiliated, cause obviously the other gays made sure to call him names like "limp shiznit" and "the human enema" so I tried to cheer him up by making fun a the bottom and confidence boosting him til he finally found the entire thing hysterical himself. But he was turned off from topping for the rest of the time I knew him, cause we lost touch like, a year later. I am so thankful that has never happened to me. Always had clean bottoms.

Total top here. Fucked poz bottoms before. Was just curious how often or what the likelihood of tops getting pozzed by a bottom are? I don't mean tops who sometimes bottom and get pozzed somehow and don't know. I'm looking for those who know they got pozzed while bottoming. I know it happens, but they make it seem like it's so unlikely. I've tried looking online but you know how that goes. All I got in the search engine were "barebacking is bad, mmkay" websites. Also, one told me he was undetectable. Says he took one or two pills a day and it was virtually impossible for me to get infected. I won't lie, I thought he was trying to give me the "if I pull out you won't get infected" card. I assume every raw fuck is poz. I am very skeptical of his claim that undetectable is virtually impossible to infect others, but heard some people on here say it's true. Thoughts on both are greatly appreciated.

I have to agree. I've received it as a top where they're like, "oh I don't do bareback." I'm not apologetic but not pushy, usually saying, "that's too bad, but I respect that. Have a good night." And before you know it, I'm raw fucking them. A4A is kinda like the Christian group of gay meetup sites... they act disgusted at the thought, put "safe sex only" on their profiles, some even put "absolutely no BB or PNP," etc, but then they reach out to me when it clearly says "anything goes," which means bareback. I've never had one of these bottoms on A4A insist on a condom when we meet. I don't push the issue on them and even suggest they think on it. I dunno, maybe that makes them want it more, even though I'm not scheming, just trying to be a nice guy. But that stops when they push my dick in. 98% of the guys I hook up with are self-proclaimed"safe only" guys. The dude who said condom only to you probably did it later. I'm not saying all should BB, but I'm saying there's a ton of hypocrisy. There are the bareback-only guys like most of us here, then there are those who wanna flirt with danger. Anyone else notice this with "in a committed relationship" profiles as well? They definitely hit me up for BB. Fuck that, I hate cheaters.

FYI, the reason I'm asking, just to be clear is because I think it's important for those of you with HIV to share the pro's and con's to those of us in this community, so we can prepare better if/when we do get it. You guys are the ones who know best. Hearing real testimony about the bad stuff doesn't mean everyone is gonna stop barebacking. How does it hinder you? What are the pro's? Also, how did it affect you emotionally? Feel more alone? Less? Again thank you to all who are willing to share. It means a lot.

I know this has probably been beaten to death on here, but there are always new people and new opinions, so here goes: I know being poz is a realistic risk for barebacking period. I still do it. I even topped a poz bottom before. So this isn't judgment. I didn't top him cause he was poz, however. It was cause he was fucking hot and my dick couldn't say no. Most people resist their barebacking nature cause of HIV fears, right? That's why I have. Has it, in all honesty, been an acceptable downside? Please, I don't wanna hear one-liners like "yeah bro now I take 20 loads and don't care" cause I think we're all aware that now you can be an even bigger man whore, and let's face it, that is one of the upsides that all of us think of. Is the entire barebacking lifestyle worth having HIV? Even I have said on the forums that its not a death sentence any more. But are you happier being who you are, despite being infected? I'd love to hear from guys who have had it for a while especially. I'm curious, because my risk for HIV is greatly higher cause I practice raw BB even though I only top, but still. Would prefer honest stories, for better or worse. And FYI, I respect all views, even the ones I don't agree with. Thanks to all in advance who share.

Hey guys, thanks for the responses. And I guess the admin just posted something after I did about designing a biohazard tat. Guess I'm not the only one thinking about it. I'm not poz, but I still plan on getting one. And probably this week. It'll be funny to get the judgment looks.

Ked - my heart still goes out to you man, cause there are many others out there like you. I agree there's a difference between living your life and destroying it. But that's up to you. 99.9999% of the world would say barebackers are destroying it. But not all of us want a monogamous relationship for the rest of our lives nor certain limitations that to us seem unnatural. It's made me feel isolated even amongst gay friends, so I keep it all to myself and learn to live with it. Like you, I don't know where the future will take me. Im a total top and I'm also picky about who I fuck. I will fuck a poz bottom if the attraction is overwhelming, but I also assume ALL bottoms are poz. I realize HIV ain't as much as a death sentence, but it's still a taboo. I am neg, but I still plan on getting the biohazard tattoo out of respect to my brothers that I can identify with. As for the idea of a support group, there's more of a demand than you know. It doesn't need to be a vagina-fest. But there are emotional issues. Just like gay kids being rejected and turning in to prostitution (rare, but most of them, in a study I read years ago living in NY came from rejected parents), or running in to dangerous encounters cause they don't have anywhere to go, a support group could help someone become more confident and proud of their decision - whatever it is. For some, it definitely isn't for them. Others it is but they don't have a brotherhood to back them up.

Belfast - No worries and awesome that you wrote back. I agree, it's a lil off-topic, but my point is that it's still debatable. It depends on what you believe. I just wanted to point out to the original poster and others that it's possible for gay guys to believe in Jesus, Buddha, Pan, Zeus, etc. Jesus gets a lot of psycho followers. I don't think Jesus hates gay people or people who love taboo sex. I just wanted to make the distinction between RELIGION and FAITH. Many people with faith are great humans. I'm sure you do, but I hope you can at least respect people who do believe in a god/gods. Organized religion has become a problem, that I will agree. I have yet to really find in-depth conversation on why some of us prefer bb'ing. Like I said, it was a heavy-hearted issue denying something that you felt is a part of you. I don't think some of us bareback just because "it's hot." Would love to know why. I have a couple bareback top friends (we're all total tops so we have no sexual attraction, just mutual admiration) and I feel more myself around them than anyone else. Mainly also cause it was cool knowing that BBers could also pass as regular guys in the streets. Whether we are suffering from mental illness, a genetic trait or whatever, it would be good to know. For the original poster and many other BBers, hopefully they find confidence in themselves.

I'm wondering if the average joe's are using hookup sites for porn, like BBRT, A4A, etc. We all know there are a lot of people who play games or have no intention to meet, and by that I mean ever with anyone. Instead of watching a porn, which I agree with everyone, has become so damned repetitive and unrealistic, someone could go on BBRT and flirt with the thought of knowing they COULD hookup with this person they're talking to. For me, BBRT is my porn if I ever need something to get me going. I look at guys in far cities or countries, maybe swap pics, chat with them and talk about what we've done and that gets me off. Sometimes swap videos we've made. It's just more interactive. But this site's admin blog is sometimes cool to check out, and there are some others who do the same that are also cool too.

I've slept with women mostly, from my teens, banged through a shitload in college and then occasionally through my current 20s (was in long-term, so sex number of partners slowed down). Now that I prefer the BB method, I've had to make some choices like to fuck them unprotected or not. Most girls I fuck around with are the go-to-church but fuck like they're possessed by the devil type. But even still, although I have yet to catch anything, I don't want to put them at risk, so I'd condom it. Now, though, less as much lately cause of good ol' breeding.

Sorry if I missed it, but what the hell kind of sites are you going to? BBRT (barebackrt.com) doesn't have anyone like that. If anything, they're a little too forward. I hear you on the old fashioned way and I agree, but I also don't look at a couple of pics online and say "let's fuck" (at least not usually). When you meet someone in person you have a chance to talk, get to know a lil about them. I really don't care where someone works, but I want to know if I'm fucking a HS dropout or druggie or someone driven. Most of all in person you get to see if there's actually an attraction. When you meet someone online, god it sucks cause you have no idea who you're getting. I've had a couple show up who were so fucking awkward and creepy yet on their pics they looked hot as hell. I kindly kicked them out. No pity fucks here. As for online attitude, dude, just laugh that one off. Everyone talks shit online cause they hide behind anonymity. I do ask guys questions like about their last few experiences (so I get a sense of what they like), cause I don't want some dude who simply puts "I like it dirty" to then take a shit on the bed. People tend to get impatient and maybe it's because of the other douche bags who ask 1000 questions and never have any intent to go through with it, but I want to get to know something about them before they show up to see if we have the same sexual interests. I don't like slaves or fisting, so when that comes out through chat, I kindly tell them we're not a good fit. Oddly enough, If I do an Internet hookup, I prefer no talking, just go at it. The awkward greet shit is the worst, save for a few really cool people. Too bad there weren't underground BB club establishments all over the US where one could do just what you said. Cause at the few gay places I've gone I'm upfront about being a barebacker and they freak. lol.

First off, I love tattoo'd guys. Then I decided I wanted to be one, but I didn't want to put just any shit on. Everything has meaning. As I've been going through my turmoil and experiences of coming to accepting the "raw side" of me, I wondered if there was a symbol for barebacking, and low and behold there is (sorry if this is really old news): It's re-using the Biohazard symbol and is supposed to symbolize "I'm not dead yet," among also being a sign to other barebackers that there is another among them. Not really getting this put on for that reason, although that'd be cool if someone did recognize it. That's the next tattoo I'm getting to mark down accepting who I am. I've seen it on a few people, like porn stars and stuff. But does anyone have it? Would anyone care to share a pic? Or is anyone else planning to get one? It's cool and also, it looks fucking hot.

Belfast-Bottom, yes it's safe to say (although if you want to play fair, there's no proof either way) that religion was crafted mostly by men. But we do believe Jesus was a real person. And yeah, some of the stories of Jesus we can prove were doctored. But that doesn't mean we should assume it's all out the window. Jesus didn't hate homosexuals. I really wish people, even an atheist (is that a correct assumption?) such as yourself should take emotion out of it and see a strong difference. I can understand people's hatred for religion. I was raised in the south, was told over and over again that God hates fags. As over-dramatic as this sounds, I would cry after jerking off cause I thought I had failed God (it's okay if that made you laugh). I was suicidal the moment I realized I was given this "disease." Today I am still a strongly practicing Catholic. I stand in protest against many of their practices and I'm out. I don't believe God gives a shit who fucks who. Believing in a God is totally sensible. Being the direct opposite, such as many atheists are when they attack, is no different than Christian fundamentalism. Sexual shaming didn't come from a deity (as you would argue they don't exist). I however, argue that it's a concept created for political reasons and for insecurities. Most people in power who changed the Bible KNEW it was doctored over the years, cause they were making the conscious choice to do so (one of which was a closeted King James). So I'd argue the people changing it knew they had a book of power about "fairy tales" to control people, but just like corporate greed, Jesus and Buddha, etc. had real messages that inspired and people took it and corrupted it. I hope that doesn't sound like bashing. Cause I have many atheist friends. But I sometimes have to calm them and remind them that we need to stop blaming it all on God, same as Republicans vs. Democrats. Religious nut-wings didn't invent the atom bomb that killed millions, nor were the psychologists who diagnosed homosexuality as a mental illness known for being religious. We all fucked up and let this happen. It was slid under the rug. It took a generation to say "fuck you" and many of them suffered, but they inspired the next generation and so forth. I bet many gay people my age or younger wouldn't even realize that they can live somewhat more comfortably because of the sacrifices of others. So I also don't look at homosexuality as just fun fucking (not saying you did either, this is just in overall). Same as barebacking. Like with homosexuality, we now have another social deviance we have to go through, where even the gay community sees it as an embarrassment. It's seen as a fetish, I believe, or even some have argued that it's a psychological disorder (not a consensus by the APA, just so we're clear). Why have I resisted my sexuality cause I am drawn to this entire lifestyle? Maybe we are fucked up, whatever. I did receive news that I have a terminal illness and that greatly affected my life. A deadly form of cancer. What's funny is that when I got the diagnosis I was already in the deepest forms of depression about my "sexually deviant" views. I didn't care if I got hit by a car. Then I got news about cancer. So I thought, "I really am fucked., might as well fuck as many raw holes as possible." But it didn't feel right. I actually am healthy and clear for the time being (it'll take a few years to know for sure), but it changed my life. Now I look at this and I don't just fuck anyone (my choice), and the bareback sex I've had, all of them have been mind-blowing experiences I haven't forgotten. And I like to play dirty. I don't have all the answers yes but this is what I find fulfilling. Again, I have different views on barebacking, but that's besides the point. I feel this has meaning, and yeah one is I love love love raw sex and the freeing nature of it. And I just don't care if no one will understand it. They're not the ones going through it. I realize if I get HIV, it's going to be hard to tell my family and friends. Maybe I won't tell them. I'd rather live a shit ton of life than die old and bored. But I also hope I do more than just fucking. Like how some people aren't built to have children, some are built to find emotional fulfillment in other ways, like this, instead of a relationship. I do hope support continues here. I know it's not "hot" to talk about it, but let's not forget that we were (or are) there too and right now no one is really helping us so we have to help ourselves. I appreciate the creators of the board for doing this.

Wow, this was an amazing thread to find. SHAVED, you're not alone by a long shot in this turmoil. I hate how little BBers communicate with one another (save this site), but just the other day me and another guy got in to a debate about whether it was worth it. I've been thinking about it for a while. Honestly man, and this is just my opinion, you won't know. There's no way in hell you'll know if it was worth it. Can you live with yourself and this "mistake" later on down the road? There are plenty of positive guys who yearn for love. A few have told me that being poz has changed their life because now they are actually in shape (and I mean buff shape), eat healthy, healthy sex lives and even love lives. It's a risk man. A gamble. Do we measure a man's worth by how long he lived? I get sad when I see the really old couples just sitting there at Denny's impatiently waiting for Death to pick them up. I never wanna be that way. If I get to be that old, then great but I'm gonna be one bad ass old person. What saddens me about possibly getting HIV for living the lifestyle I want is that I know I won't be able to share it with my friends and family. I could be wrong on that, but I just know they're not gonna understand consciously making a decision to put myself at risk to have "devil sex." For you, what if this guy doesn't stay in your life? I don't think HIV is a death sentence. Having a soulless life is. People may think I'm crazy for saying that. Make peace with your decision and the fact that you may be wrong, understand how it may affect health insurance, etc. etc. and if you still want to do it, then take that tunnel and find out where it takes you. Only God knows, and he doesn't like to give out spoilers man. Really hope you keep us update.

I kinda feel like the BBers are going back to what it used to be like before the condom push (with all due respect). I wasn't alive before the 80s, but it seems like you didn't worry and you just fucked raw only it was just fucking. My age, I was used to wearing rubbers although as a kid I thought they didn't make sense (from a practical standpoint). When I saw my first bareback porn (sneakerfuck, I think? 3 guys fucking), I was blown away. Mainly because of the instant gravitation of discovering that that's what I wanted to do all along, I just didn't know it or how. Yeah seriously, it didn't occur to an 18 year old that you could stick it in without a condom. Bareback is so taboo that even gays excommunicate you. I tried to get over bareback. It never worked. It just got worse. I'm happy the BB community is small cause obviously it would suck to have another epidemic since STI/HIV transmission is assumingly high. Glad to see a resurgence, only this time people know the risks and make a conscience choice. And BB porn didn't do that for me.

It is true. I've been fighting it for a very long time. We're "deviants" to society, but obviously there's nothing wrong with bareback sex in itself, cause it's the most natural way. But now we have shitty diseases. When I finally did BB, it was so hot I think I fucked the guy 8 times in a row and came each time. I might be sounding like an idiot, but it felt very tribal and ceremonial. I find man-on-man sex more masculine than when I have sex with a chick. And when two guys fuck raw, man, I don't think I will ever get tired of that overwhelming urge to just stick it in and fuck til I seed. I've been coming to terms of accepting my nature. I am not a bug chaser and I don't respect those who lie about their status if someone asks, but I do know there are risks. But that's also what makes it constantly exciting. I don't feel anxiety that many do, but then again, I'm a top. Less chance to catch anything. I would just feel guilty afterwards because it made me want to go out again and again. I at least try to be as responsible as possible, cause I do have limits. But I think you'll find that, either you must make peace with the fact that you are a part of the bareback brotherhood, or it'll slowly and very painfully destroy you. I'm choosing to embrace it in order to control it. Again, I don't wanna fuck a random stranger every day all year every year, but when I browse sites like this, and see all the hot bb porn escorts in LA, I've just decided to slowly do what I'm meant to be. Sorry for long post. But I really do think it has NOTHING to do physically with the condom, cause that makes us look like 13-year-old ADHD kids who are just too impatient to learn how to put a condom on. I'm gonna go on a limb here and say that I think its cause the moment that dick goes in raw, there is something so pure and powerful and primal. We're just connecting with that side that others choose to deny cause they fear it. Personally, I'm glad the BB community is not the majority. Shouldn't be. There are guys I wish would trust me to let me pump my load in to them like something fierce, but I respect that even though I pity them a little bit. Cause they don't know what they're missing. I've talked to life-long barebackers who are HIV free. So BB also doesn't mean a guaranteed death sentence either. All this talk about saying "fuck you" to condoms is getting me hard now. So now I gotta take care of that... Thanks for posting this, though. You're far from the minority, man, when it comes to this. You're just being smart and recognizing it. Take care man.

By the way, I haven't yet taken cock pics, but here's at least one. This is me layin in the hotel startin to play with my dick as I fantasize about someone walking in and sitting on it.

Sup fella's, Lookin for masculine bottoms to help break in a new breeder. I've tried bb twice and don't think I can go back to condoms. I'm 28, bi, slim, tan, good looking masculine guy, nearly 7 inches cut. I'm lookin for other masculine bottoms who have good stamina and can take multiple loads. Got a bad-ass suite with large standing shower for water sports. Or I can leave my room ajar and you come in and bend over and I start breeding. I wanna film it if thats cool. No faces. Just the fucking. I'll pull out just in time so you can feel my first wad of cum hit your hole, then I'll insert my dick back in and dump the rest of my seed inside. I'm lookin for guys who aren't socially awkward, fat or unclean and can help this southern boy get straight in to it. I'm also game to find another top to be my breeding-partner and we both dump our loads in and cheer each other on. You can go first, so that way the bottom's ass is lubed with your cum. I'm also down for double penetration as long as the bottom is cool. If it's hot and there's still chemistry, maybe we continue with a new bottom. I prefer under 35, good looking, masculine dudes for either role. Prefer bottom (and top, if any contact me) to be new to this as well, meaning I prefer guys who've tried it a few times and want to go further. I like a tight hole. Body and some ass hair is a turn on. Hit me up with pics and I will gladly reciprocate. Also be honest about your status and STDs and I will be too. I don't care if ya wanna PNP. Just don't be a junkie. Looking to do this starting late Saturday night through Tuesday night.