I'm a versitile guy I have BB a few guys top and I much prefer it as when I put a condom on I sometimes go soft. Not a good impression I've tried the feather lite condoms and they are a bit better but I do like the feeling of skin to skin. The problem is this... I am always worried afterwards is the guy poz could I have caught something. Well I also like to bottom. And so far in my life I have only been BB fucked one and a half times. The half time was a young kid who put his cock in me for about 5 seconds :-(. The other time was a guy I knew and liked. I sucked his cock all 8 inches of it and got it really wet I then sat on it he was really surprised as we had always used a condom I then sucked his cock a bit more them sat on it again. It was the horniest I had ever ever been. He started fucking me really hard he could see my mind was working overtime. I wanted him to cum in me but he knew what I was like so he stopped stuck a condom on then fucked me to completion. I was mixed up I was disapointed about the condom but realised why he did it. Now all I can think about is taking a raw cock inside me. I read this forum and wank myself silly. What do I do how can I stop this obsession. I even thought about buying an HIV test kit to try on the guy before he fucks me. I know I want a load inside me. I even find the stories about stealthing and gift givers horny which goes against my fears. God this forum has fucked me up lol. What do you think I should do.